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Trust I seek and I find in you
Matt pulls me close and presses his hands on my lower back, lower than I like.
Every day for us something new
I realize I can't reach the back of his neck so I just reach onto his chest, shoulders.
Open mind for a different view
He smells like alcohol mixed with cigarettes. I shiver slightly and try to hold my head up, away from him.
And nothing else matters
He must have read the shivering wrong as his grip tightens on me, his hands move from lower back to my hips.
Never cared for what they do
I nudge one of his hands back up to my lower back but he pretends not to notice.
Never cared for what they know
"You've got some nice curves already." He whispers and I shake my head at him.
But I know, so close, no matter how far
"I can't believe Aron got you." I sigh out of frustration.
It couldn't be much more from the heart
"We all wanted you so badly."
Forever trusting who we are, and nothing else matters
I move further away from him, he lets his hands slide off from my hips as I push him arm length away.
"Stop it."
Never cared for what they do, never cared for what they know, but I know
He shakes his head and pulls me close once more.
"He is not right for you."
I never opened myself this way
"And you are?" I ask and spread my arms showing him I doubt everything he says.
Life is ours, we live it out way
"No." He said what?
All these words, I don't just say
"I don't think anyone is good enough for you." He what?
And nothing else matters
"What are you trying to say?"
Trust I see and I find in you, every day for us something new
He slowly swings us around on the dance floor. Singing the lyrics.
Open mind for different view, and nothing else matters
"I mean..." He looks down to me and slides his rough fingers across my cheek.
Never cared for what they say, never cared for games they play
"That you are too good..."
Never cared for what they do, never cared for what they know, and I know
"Too beautiful..."
So close, no matter how far, couldn't be much more from the heart
"Perfect. Too perfect. For any of us."
Forever trusting who we are, no, nothing else matters
He escorts me back to my seat and turns around to leave as Aron returns with Christa who does not look as drunk as she did before.
"Cold water did miracles in the boy's bathroom." He says and then stops on his feet as he sees my face.
"What did he do?" I shake my head and watch him taking Christa by her hand and leading her to the dance floor.
"What did he say?" Aron asks, sitting down next to me, taking my hand.
"He said I am perfect." Aron squeezes my hand,
"Well he ain't lying" He lifts his hand, cups my cheek in his palm. It is soft, unlike Matt's. He moves closer and presses his lips against mine.
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8/4/24
YOU ARE READING
The Life I Almost Lived
Non-Fiction"If you truly wish to be with me, know this..." He whispers into the darkness while holding me, "I will control you, command you and tell you what to do." I remember how my eyes burst wide open and I tried to pull free. I completely freaked out. Who...
