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Chapter 6

Chapter Six

I went back to school making sure you can't see the purple around my eye and my arm. All of the popular girls came up to me asking questions about the breakup, "How could you dump such a great guy? He was so in love with you! And you just let him down?" I gave the girl a confused look. Was he actually telling everyone he was the good guy in the situation? "I have no idea what you're talking about? He dumped me." I know I probably should've stuck with I broke up with him to make me look like I was in control in the relationship but do you realize how much hate I would get? A lot. He's the star player on the football team. "Liar, he told me everything. That you hit him and yelled at him in front of the entire team during the closed practice." I don't even know who this kid is. "I'm sorry" I laughed, "But who even are you?" I couldn't help myself from laughing. She gave a scoff and left. I continued walking to my locker and a few more girls confronted me with the same claim. I decided to talk to Matt and it would also be a good time to explain to him I'm moving to California.

E: Matt wtf is wrong with you? You are completely flipping the story. We need to talk.

M: I didn't flip the story at all.

E: Are you fucking serious? Meet me at the court yard at lunch.

M: If you need to talk about you want to get back together then I'm not going, you deserve to be lonely.

E: Matt stop being a cocky dick. I would never want to get back together with you. You're a complete ass when I'm with you. You ignore me, hit me, and you're just so controlling over me!

M: Whatever.

When the first bell rang I realized I had the same class with him... Actually all of my classes are with him. You can't be serious? I walked into the class noticing Sabrina isn't here. I thought she was just going to be late so I sat in our usual spot and then I saw Matt walk in and I think he was looking for me and I guess he did so he took the seat next to me. Fuck. "Why? Out of all the empty seats you choose to seat by me? What do you want?" I scolded him. "Nothing I just missed you." He tried to kiss me but I turned my head which was probably the worse decision I have ever made. He turned my head back towards him and looked me dead in the eye, "Don't ever turn away from me." He grabbed my face and forced a kiss on me lucky for him the teacher wasn't in the class at the time and only a few students were with us who weren't even paying attention to anything. As I started to take the notes I started to think about everything. How can one be so abusive towards someone they "love" he was the first one to make a move on me when we first met. He was so sweet but I don't know what happened. I was told that he was a douche by Joe when we used to talk all the time but I didn't listen. "What's wrong baby?" He asked. "Leave me alone." I whispered trying not to drag attention as more and more students walked in. He grabbed my waist tightly and pulled me in, "tell me what's wrong?" I didn't look at him my eyes stayed on the paper, "nothing let go of me Matt." He let me go and kissed my cheek.

I texted Sabrina and asked where she was,

E: Where the hell are you?!

S: I'm sick! I'm sorry!

E: It's okay (: I'm telling Matt today at lunch. So in like 10 minutes.

S: OMG really! After school call me and I'll come pick you up!

E: Alright well it's time to grab my balls and tell him... I'll see later!

So the lunch bell rang and I felt my stomach drop 100 feet. I'm so scared I know I shouldn't be scared since I'm moving he wouldn't be able to do anything. Plus I have Joe by my side.

M: I'm at the court yard where are you?

E: Wow you actually went. I'm almost there.

M: You thought I wouldn't go? Eva you mean a lot to me. Never mind I'll explain it later when you're here.

E: K

He just said I mean a lot to him. He really said. Great now what am I supposed to do? Once I arrived to court yard I took a deep breath and started to go towards Matt. "Hi Matt, so what were you going to explain to me right now?" I wanted to hear what he was going to say before I say anything. "Eva I know I don't put a lot of effort in our relationship and I know I treat you like shit. I just want to apologize to you in person. You do really mean the world to me. I really love you I just don't know how to express it." He cares he just doesn't know how to show it. Yeah cause that makes sense. "What do you mean? You actually care you just don't know how to show it? It's not that hard. You know I love you a lot. But I just can't be with you. You hit me, you abuse me and you make sure I say the right things. I can't be with someone who abuses me that's not how relationships go." He grabbed my wrists tightly and pulled my face into his and planted a kisses all over my neck and cheeks, "Mat stop it "Baby I know. I've changed a lot I realize that. I feel like shit for treating you the way I treated you, but I promise I'll change for the sake of our relationship." He said between each kiss. I pull back from his hold and asked, "Matt have you been cheating on me?" I only ask well because people usually act like dicks to make the other one leave so they can stay with their side hoe. "Matt answer my question." "Baby you know I wouldn't do that. I love you." He tried kiss me but I pushed him away and I saw the pain in his eyes. Wow he actually cares. "Matt be honest, have you been cheating on me?" He stayed quiet, "Oh my god. You have been cheating on me? How long has this been going on? What's her name?" "No baby it didn't mean anything I swear!" "No don't call me baby I actually thought you cared and loved me!" I turned away from him and walked out the court yard doors, "Why would you do that? Am I not good enough? I buy your team food for practices, I listen to you, I do everything for you and you just do that to me? Tell me why?" "Eva you are good to me! I realized I was being a dick to you and I felt bad." "Oh so now I'm the side bitch? All of this was out of pity? I can't fucking believe you Matt I was really considering to take you back." I started to cry, "Give me your car keys." He looked down at his pocket, "What? No." "I need them I have some stuff in there i need to get." "So this how its going to be? We aren't going to talk?" I didn't answer him; I just took his keys and walked away feeling proud of myself for standing up to myself. He followed me to his car, "Leave me alone!" obviously we drew a crowd with my yelling and storming out of the school. "Eva stop! Come here!" I started to run and I quickly got into the car I locked the doors, rolled up the windows, and started the engine. "What are you doing?! That's my car! The tears were pouring out. I looked up and I saw a picture of us hanging on his mirror inside the car. I ripped and I tore into pieces and threw out the window. I called Sabrina, "Sabrina I'm going home you don't need to pick me up." "Eve Eva are you ok!? What are you doing? Why are you crying?!" I hung up without answering her questions. I got a few texts from Matt.

M: Eve answer your phone Sabrina keeps calling me.

M: Eve!

M: Eva!

M: What are you doing?

M: Where are you?!

I ignored each text. I turned off my phone and just drove home. I parked the SUV in the front of my house. I walked in slamming the door and went straight to my room and started to pack. I got 3 boxes and stuffed clothes, clothes, and my makeup. I plugged my phone in and went down stairs to call my mom and Sabrina, "Mom?" "Eva where are you?!" "I'm at home I took Matt's car." I'm pretty sure you tell I was crying, "Eve are you okay? I'm on my way home right now." With that she hung up next I called Sabrina but she didn't answer so I left a message, "Hi Sabrina.. So I decided I wanted to move early. I'm going to talk to my mom right now when she gets home. I'm already packed I just wanted you to know I'm okay... I'll make sure to visit you. I love you girl..." I went back upstairs and just laid on my bed just thinking.