Seasons of Change

4

"Ayeeee, my boy!" Fernando said, answering Victor's phone call that evening.

Victor was entering his fifth month at the adolescent residential facility and beginning to make real progress. There was still no set release date for the almost-eleven year old but staff was beginning to feel confident that he may be home in time for the next school year to begin.

"Aye, apa!"Victor greeted him, hint of a smile on his voice.

"Hows it been going? You ain't giving nobody problems, are you?" Fernando asked sternly.

"No, I haven't been in no trouble at all," Victor said, "They said today I'm actually doing good!"

"Yeah, they called your mom and let her know you been doing real good. Aye, I know I ain't ever say this to you enough but I am proud of you, Victor. I know I done a lot of shit that set a bad example but I don't want to see you going down the same path as me, you hear me?"

"Yes, dad," Victor mumbled.

"And I want you to be setting a good example for your sisters when you come, you can't be disrespecting your momma no more or breaking stuff. I know you are capable of doing good stuff, my boy, just gotta put your mind into it, ok?"

"I know, dad."

"Aye, you hear me? You got to stay on a good path."

"I know..."

Fernando sighed, "I know I sound like I'm bitching you out, I just wanna see you succeed, you know? And I'm gonna try to be the best role model I can be for you and your sisters and brother."

Victor had been filled in recently that there were siblings he'd never met. He didn't know about the children whose mothers had nothing to do with his father but he was told that his father and Adriana, the woman he remembered throwing a brick through their living room window, had two children. A boy and a girl. Nando and Rosie.

He was left feeling confused as to why his father had children with someone who wasn't his wife, Victor's mom. Victor understood that his dad had girlfriends and his mother didn't like that but even though he had been exposed to things too grown for him have known about, his young mind still had trouble grasping the concept that an adult can be married but still have children with someone outside the marriage.

There was a lot of stuff he was realizing as he got older that he didn't like. He didn't like that his mother had a new boyfriend that lived with her and his sisters. He didn't like the fact the his dad couldn't walk because someone shot him. He didn't like that his dad had girlfriends and secret children.

Nonetheless, he still looked up to his Pops, even if he did a lot of stuff that everyone said was bad.

"Your momma tell you Ima be opening a tattoo shop with one of Rocco's uncles?"

"Yes."

"Sheeeit, maybe you can learn and work with us some day," Fernando said with a laugh.

"Yeah, maybe."

Sighing, Fernando said, "If you got other stuff you wanna be doing, I ain't gonna be offended if you need to go."

"Ok, I'm gonna go," Victor said, seeming bored with the conversation.

"Aight...well stay out of trouble," Fernando told him as the line went quiet.

"How did it go?" Sabrina asked as she emerged from the kitchen.

Fernando shrugged, "It was aight, he didn't want to talk to his lame ole Pops."

"He's what, ten? Eleven?" She asked.

"Yeah, he gonna be eleven soon."

"Well, don't take it personally, he's just acting his age," Sabrina assured him, setting Fernando's television tray up in front of him.

Though Fernando no longer needed help from a caregiver, Sabrina spent nearly all of her free time with him as well as the occasional night. They were not officially together but were definitely together despite the homeboy Payaso insisting it was a very bad idea.

He and Sabrina had waited until he had been discharged from her car before either of them allowed themselves to cross into the physical realm.

It had happened the last evening that Sabrina had been his caregiver. Fernando wasn't ready for her to leave and she hadn't had plans that night so she agreed to stay for a few hours.

With Gladys out at Bingo, they were alone. They watched movie and ordered takeout, it was like a little stay in date.

She'd been the one to make the first move to Fernando's surprise. They had been sitting on the couch when she turned to him and kissed him. He'd always had a rule about not kissing females with the exception Angelina and Adriana but kissing Sabrina had felt right.

He took his time exploring her body with his hands and mouth, leaving her completely satisfied and sprung on him. Fernando would have loved to really dick her down but at the time hadn't been able to figure out how to be able to do so.

Eventually they were able to experiment with viagara, a cock ring and a medical grade vibrator prescribed by Fernando's doctor and soon were able to have penetrative sex. He couldn't feel it but watching Sabrina ride him was mentally stimulating nonetheless. He'd even been able to ejaculate once with the use of the vibrator, he couldn't feel it But he could feel his stomach muscles contracting and his breath becoming heavy as he approached the orgasm.

Fernando liked Sabrina, she was a good woman like Angelina, funny, kind, could hella cook. They weren't rushing into anything beyond companionship, he liked being around Sabrina and she appeared to enjoy him as well.

He'd never actually had a relationship like the one he had with Sabrina. With Angelina, she had been his first love. He'd been obsessed with her at first, unable to get enough of her.

Adriana he'd felt something too. It was absolutely lust initially, with the intention of keeping it physical but all of that changed once he'd gotten her pregnant the first time. He did love her, the way he knew how anyway and if he hadn't been with Angelina, he may have considered marrying Adriana. Something about her little crazy ass had hooked him.

Sabrina...on the other hand, he vibed with on a personal, more adult level. That was something new to him and he liked it. He almost felt like he could be a better partner to a woman with his libido low. Sex had been always on his mind, right up there with hustling.

From the time he woke up until the time he went to bed, Fernando's thoughts were filled with pussy. Shit, it may have been a more addictive drug than meth even.

And then paired with meth...goddamn. Fernando definitely missed those 24 hour drug fueled sex sessions.  That was the past though, something he would never be capable of doing again.

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"Gotdamn,this is good," Fernando told Sabrina appreciatively, mouthful of Irish Lamb Stew, "You gonna make my ass fat as hell."

Sabrina smiled, "That was my mom's recipe," she told him.

"Sheeeit, that's what up. Man, my momma can cook but never made us nothing like this," he cackled, "And they say white girls don't know how to cook."

"I hate that! It's so not true," she laughed.

"Aye, you proving to me it ain't."