[ShadowxReader] - Into the Kingdom's carnage

~ Chapter 19: The field ~

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After a good moment, I calmed myself and my head was full of memories.

Lancelot: You miss her.

Y/N: So much Shadow. I changed inside because of it but... I don't want to change on the outside. I can't let people kno-

Lancelot: Y/N. People have nothing to do with you. You're who you have to be and this is enough. I appreciate your courage but you have to let go Y/N.

Y/N: Shadow... I have to remember her.

Lancelot: Remember is not suppose to be a heavy pressure on your shoulders. She can help you to fight for what's right but she cannot make you feel like you're inside of an abyss you're trying to fight away.

All along, I was talking inside of his chest. His warm, fluffy chest I felt at ease in. He didn't have his armour on him, it was next to us into the grass. His arms were around me, making me feel protected from all the hating around.

Y/N: Shadow... I feel lonely.

Lancelot: I know, Y/N.

His lips went closer to my hear.

Lancelot: I know but don't worry, Y/N. I'm here.

I felt his hand rub my right arm and pressed me to him. He was comforting me wonderfully and I just hugged him, my arms around him too and my nose inside of his neck. He rested his chin onto my head and didn't move.

Y/N: Thank you, Shadow.

He didn't said anything while we tasted the moment.

Y/N: It feels amazing too.

My cheeks were warm but I thought of his Highness' saying. Was he the fallen from a monarchy?

Y/N: Shadow... I hope someone was here for you when you were in the abyss too.

I hugged him thigh and he did the same.

Lancelot: She was there for me but when she couldn't be anymore... I still had great help but I hope you were this someone when I felt so down.

This confession confused me a little but I judged that now wasn't the moment for questions.

Y/N: At least, you have me now by your side Shadow.

He chuckled and whispered.

Lancelot: And you have me.

I smiled of the thought and part from him a little. I was then flabbergasted by his beauty. The little red stripes at the end of his eyes and his that were of a boiling crimson ruby colour. His eyelashes were pretty long which added him a sensual look with his smooth looking lips from up-close. He smirked and I excused myself.

Lancelot: Y/N... May I properly know what you were loo-

I grabbed his right hand and kissed it since he didn't have his gloves on either.

Y/N: Lancelot, I have nothing to do with you.

I suddenly got scared and I separated me away from him. I was sitting a meter away now.

Y/N: L-Lancelot... There's no way you could have felt any liking for me in such a short notice.

I began to shake on place. What if any of this was right? Would he ever consider this as part of a relation-ship? Was that even something that was done by lovers? What it felt to really be in any relation-ship?

Lancelot: Y/N. I'm here for you. Whatever you're scared of... I'll take care of it.

He was almost on top of me on my left, his left arm resting on the ground next to me, next to my right side waist. I had my chin taken by his fingers and he make me look at him.

Lancelot: You don't have to put yourself apart Y/N. I don't want you to be lonely in this solitary world. I...

Deep in his eyes, he was discovering something.

Lancelot: I don't want anything to happen to you.

A soft red shade was onto his cheeks while his closeness was still present. He took me again in his arms and he parted us. We were looking at each other and he glanced downer than my eyes. I looked away, completely embarrassed. Suddenly, I felt a cold but soft pair of lips onto my left cheek. After this lovely act, he back away. As I was trying to recompose the feeling already, I bent to him and kissed his right cheek. The problem was, he had snap his neck back at me too quickly before I could have the time to move. Our lips brushed, almost connecting each other and our gaze was locked for a moment. My heart raced so bad that I just sat back at the ground and hid the half-down part of my face and my intern screaming in my arm. He got closer again and I was waiting for something. He only whispered in my ear again.

Lancelot: We should do it but it's okay if we wait.

I hid completely my face and bite my lips harder trying to hold-back a squeal. He kissed the beginning of my ear.

Y/N: Shadow...

Lancelot: I already told you Y/N... Be really careful when you use my name.

I felt his hand on my arm on the other side and pressing me to him again.

Lancelot: It sounds too lovely when it's coming from your voice. I... I love it.

He kissed my forehead and my ear but this last kiss was different. It wasn't a kiss. It was a gentle lick.

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