Love Is Medicine

CHAPTER 51

HAMZA

"A self loathed person like you can't understand the peace it gives you" she back fired.

And i stood there still soaking in her words, like i thought she'll understand me but she's just same as others.

"You are mocking me Hania!! For not believing the dilemma you call it as God!" I can't control myself.

I thought I'll handle it maturely, but my foot, nothing here makes sense.

She fisted her hands tightly glaring at me "I'll never do that.. I'm simply saying that we are travelers of different directions and our paths won't merge at any cost.."

What the fuck That means?

I barely listen to people,and here she talking in all metaphors, philosophy whatever shit it's called.. she's speaking in circles!!

This is not a cheesy proposal scene from your novels Hania,so that you can use all the literature here..

I'm irritated now, because I can't understand a single thing she tries to talk.. infact I don't know what the fuck,i talked two minutes ago.

But i know what she's trying to tell..i should've expected that.

My whole body is taunt with the tension bubbling inside me "So that's it? We nothing before even before we are something?" My throat felt tight with all the emotions I'm trying to swallow.

"Please don't make it difficult for me or for yourself we have to face eachother alot even if you don't want to..." Her voice is literally shaking.

Difficult? You killed me Hania!!

Each word you spoke felt like a stab in my heart

You killed the same person whom you brought back to life.

You broke something, which you healed without me asking for it.

You shattered me pumpkin..

This are the words,i wish I could say loud, loud enough that she could know how hurt I'm.

But i swear I don't know even if I'm breathing properly?

"I don't want any conflicts among five us because of me.." she added coldly.

You care about the feelings of every freaking person on earth instead of mine?

I just collapsed there on the bench, reeling everything.

What's wrong with me? Why the hell i can't be a loving normal person?

Because you called her a narcissist ten minutes ago you bastard my brain mocked.

This is the thing i can't control my words when I'm angry.

Why in the first place I have to use it?

I think I'm unlucky when it comes to love.

Love??? It leads to happiness...

Affection??

Love?

Happiness?

peace??

Ohhh good!!!

London!!

The letter!!

OLIVIA...

Ohh shit!! It reminds me the anyoynoms letter i received the day I'm moving back to India.

It was my last day in London, the city which gave me a hope to restart my life again..

As Usual i messed up in a strange way.. this time not due to my outbursting Anger or due to my stupidity, but rather due to my kindness..