19 Apr, 2024
Friday
My Noor-e Azal,
There are hundreds of thousands of things I wanna share. I wish to cry my worries out to you and spend a quality time just chilling in your presence.
However, the strict (yet not so strict) environment I was brought up in teaches me to crush down these thoughts. It teaches me to label these desires as useless and wasteful.
But honestly, I'm just not able to trust anyone. I don't even trust myself. Even though I crave a healthy friendship, I just couldn't put forth my thoughts and worries before you. Because I know I'll break down in an instant. And I know you'll comfort me. But, I am so ashamed for not being there for you in your hardest times. I just couldn't ask you to do something I couldn't do for you.
I couldn't meet your eyes sometimes for being such a disgraceful of a friend. And I always find myself in debt to you for still considering me your one of a closest friends. You are the most sincere and transparent person I have ever met in my life. I'm glad we met. And I hope we can continue to be friends until our last breaths.
P.s. I know you'll laugh in my face if you ever read any of the above, before slapping me silly. But I still love you.
Always wishing the best.
Your lonely
childhood friend
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Letters Not Sent
Kurgu OlmayanJust letters to lighten the heart. Read at your own risk (and may drop a comment or two) **no one's feelings were hurt (except maybe mine)**
