solby one shots

Self-hate Part 2

he answered "but how on earth do I chance that I don't wanne live my life liking or feeling better bc someone is nasty"ypu have to fight your demon and go in to the situations sadly for your brain to see you have more power and that it's not so bad as your brain make it up"I said so I have to show just some people my body and have sex" making me chuckle a bit "not people just the one you like or love and trust and work together on your Self-doubts bc like I said if he or she loves you for real it dosent matter at all if your big small thick or thin" okay then let's make a scenerio I would like you and fall in love with you and we have sex or blow job hand job dosent matter and he is really to small then? "colby Im serious it doesn't matter to me even if it's 3 inches you can still satisfy someone trust me and I would never laugh or judge ever mine is not big either just as a side note don't let people go in your head so much colby will you really spend your life with listening to everything others say then it will be a very sad life you know that people can be disgusting and you will meet many who are jealous or just sick but that never means it's true "I know that sam I really do and I never listened to anyone bc I was like yeah your life much be sad but somehow about a manhood it's you know" yes colby I understand that but believe me you don't need 100inches to satisfy someone I mean that and like I said you still have 5 years where it can and will grow you probably will have the biggest one of all then " I giggled I doubt that but also you say that now I make a real bet with you when you see it you don't think like that anymore you will think what green bean is this" making me laugh "sorry colby but that was funny and also green beans are long" he shook his head  as we slowly walking back bc it's getting dark and I don't want to be in the mountains in the pitch black the next few min where quite "colby" I whispered still unsure if I should say what I'm about to say "yes sam" how bad would it be when I develop feeling for you " i ask my heart racing now he looked at me with a look I dident know how to read" good and bad I would say why, do you? " I sigh sitting down I think so I really did everything to not but.." sam he sitting down as well you know I like you to or we hadn't kissed but I really don't know if I want or can you know I don't wanne hurt anyone or getting hurt "I understand that very well colby and also your fears and struggles but if you want to find an answer you have to listen to your heart first not your head for example is it your fear you don't want that relationship with whoever not just me or is it bc you don't want one with them, if you like or love them then maybe they can help you to get better don't let your fear ruin all your happiness and chances " he took a breath rubbing his face" colby please don't stress about it or me okay I just thought I talk to you openly about my feelings " and that's a good think I like people who are straight with me amd I also really like you but I'm so scared I mess this up or get hurt you know that this is very easy when your in love that hurts the most" colby but that is not just you everyone is scared to loos or hurt someone I for example are very very scared to lose someone I love and I'm very clingy you will probably get sick of me first " yeah then you haven't met my jealousy yet" he said oh yeah then you haven't met my I cling to my partner 24/7 yet "I mean it kinda sounds like we would fit together perfectly I can't let you leave alone and you won't leave me alone" he chuckled a bit "omg why did I thought the exact same" I laughed "sooo what would recommend we do or a idea" he said looking at me "I mean I could probably tell you a few but we should know first if you want a relationship with me or not you know" yes I would but probably very Very slow and I'm begging you not to get mad or sad if I don't do thinks or I'm scared or even a bit angry sometimes it will probably not be about you " colby I told you when I love someone I do anything I can the only think I would love to have his that we are always truthful and loyal and that you talk to me when something is up nomatter what it is I won't laugh I won't judge I promise I really want to make this work I know there is a whole nother person in there and I would love to have him but of course I take you for who you are but I'm willing to help you through this when you are willing to work on it to bc getting out is hard and you have to want that " that is not a question of course I want to I don't want how I feel now" that's the first step to getting better the next is to tell you brain it's not true what it says believe me you are perfect and I will tell you that 20 times a day if that helps you and it's true " thank you Sammy you are such a sweetheart" hey you want to go to bed or are you hungry " I ask I'm really tired I dident sleep at all at night" he answered "okay that let's sleep im tired to" I said sitting down on my bed again "um would you-would you like to sleep in my bed with me" he ask hesitant " yes I would love that I also can sleep better with someone" I said smiling he lais down taking of his shirt slowly "is okay if I take my pants off I only sleep in shirt" I ask yeah that's okay I don't want you uncomfortable " I sid down before laying down on my back covering up just looking at the top of our tent" Sammy " he whispered yes colby I tured a bit looking at him" do you - would you wanne be with me " he ask his voice waving looking scared" yes colby I would love that" I smiled placing my arm over his torso hugging him making him jump a little bit before he placed an arm around me but his whole body was so stiff "it's okay colby I'm just laying here if that's okay" I said making tiny circles in his chest hoping that helps a bit not moving he tens down a little bit "you rather want me to turn around colby" no-no it's okay I'm just a bit nervous " it's okay I won't touch or look at anything okay I just sleep like this" you really like me right " he whispered knowing it's his insecurities I looked up with a smile" yes colby I really really like you "i said looking directly in to his eyes to show him I'm serious" I really like you to Sammy" he whispered looking away making my heart hurt how, hurt he is I run my fingers softly up and down his chest looking at it "your so hot damn I wish I was half as beautiful as you" i whispered "what are you talking about you are so beautiful sam" thanks have you looked in the mirror model companies would hire you " i said kissing his chest for a sec" now your definitely lying " he said no im definitely not your so beautiful I mean it I can't even believe you want to be with me the tiny nerd" I said giggling inside "hey but that's exactly what I want a small cute sweet boy with he come closer to my ear" thick buttom" making me goosebumps from his breath in my neck "okay and I like your whole body and how dominant you can be" I said groaning silently "ohhh so you like to get told what to do yeah" he ask yeah but only romantically and sexuell not when I can't get shopping or something I giggled "hey I would never tell you what you can and can't do in normal day to day life besides go alone with boys or something" I would never go somewhere with boys without you I never have and would when I go shopping I take my girl best friends bc I'm gay as hell I only go with girls " I laughed a bit" and you think they would be okay when I came with her and there? "of course colby they don't say anything about my bf and they will love you to you are so sweet I not heared any mean words from you" bc I never be mean besides they deserve it like you with the boys earlier "I mean if you are doing something like this to stand up for something or someone that's totally fine but I will never believe you would be mean without a reason and did I told you, you are beautiful I can't say it enough I will be so jealous I already know I chuckled "oh yeah you have not seen me in action" mhmm it's probably so hot when you are mad and protective"I said making him chuckle" Sammy before we sleep can I - is it okay when I give you a kiss " he almost fell over his words god that was cute I slowly climbed on top of him my knees on either side of him leaning forward" I would love that "I whispered close to his face looking in to his eyes I see his eye twitch a little bit and his eye color gets a little darker interesting he placed his hand in the back of my neck making me shiver I licked my lips looking in to his eyes when he pulled me down with forse pressing our lips together making ne whimper from not expecting that but fuck I run my hand in the back of his neck taking his hair in my hand while our lips diss and reconnecting he hesitantly licked over my button lip making me goosebumps I opend my mouth letting his tongue enter he brushed against mine making me moan quietly not able to hold anything back I gripped his hair feeling so many butterflies in my stomach he placed one hand on my waist gripping it a bit making me hum a few sec later I could feel something grow on my leg realizing colby getting hard I gripped his hair more pressing my lips to his rougher god he was so damn hot "your so fucking hot" I said against his lips when we took a breath I pressed my bottom half down a bit not able to resist making him groan sounding so manly I kissed along his cheek to his neck kissing up to his ear "is this okay" I whispered in his ear wanting to make sure he nodded so I kissed behind and over his ear and back down taking a bit of skin between my teeth feeling his hand sliding down stopping directly over my ass I let his skin go sucking on that spot hard hearing him groan louder placing his hand an my ass cheek "mhmm yes" I mumbled to let him know it's okay "you like my hands there Baby" he whispered "mhmm yes please" I licked over that spot I just made making him grip my ass feeling his now more hard dick on my leg I pulled away from his neck back to his lips letting our tongues play but I was going Insane I never felt so many butterflies in my life I pressed my body down feeling him trusting up a bit I gripped his hair so hard pulling in it feeling like I loos my mind I pulled away an inch needing to breath we both breath heavily "fuck" he mumbled "you wanne stop" I whispered against his lips kissing along his neck again not being able to stop he pulled his head to the side gripping my ass harder "yes - no - yes"he said I pulled away looking at him he looked so nervous "colby we can stop I won't make you do anything you don't want..but I want to i-i "hey - hey if the colby here inside I tapped on his heart wants this then we can do this"he nodded looking at me deeply "you can trust me colby and we stop whenever you want I won't be mad or sad okay I promise you" he nodded okay his eyes look so nervous "lean back babe and just take in what you feel I'm not ripping off your close now" he took a deep breath leaning down I took my shirt off feeling so hot I leaned down kissing softly over his neck down to his shoulders to his chest kissing every inch to show him that I love everything about him I kissed and sucked over his nipple "your so hot" I breath before kissing down his rips and stomach very slowly licking a long stripe over it hearing him hum kissing down further to the ham of his pents I pulled it down 1 inch licking from right to left I looked up at him and in to his eyes they looked so Lust full yet so scared until I got an idea that might helps I came back up to him"hey how about that we place the blanket over us and I just feel not look would that help a bit for now"he nodded I pulled the blanket over us turning the little light of we had pulling slowly down his pants without touching anything yet I laid myself in his side looking at him smiling slightly before softly placing my lips to his placing my hand on his chest running my finger up and down slowly feeling his heart racing he slowly placed his hand around my waist making me Hum his large warm hands on my exposed skin "you like me touching you" omg yes your large manly hands on me I groaned he placed his lips back on my sliding his tongue in right away making me shiver it was sweet at first got more and more intense while I slided my hand lower and lower until I was on the ham of his boxers he sucked my tongue in his mouth making me moan a bit from the feeling I know deep down there is a wild rough dominant colby and I want him I pulled on his hair again needing something from the overwhelming feeling taking the opportunity to slide my hand on his dick on top of his boxers making him jump a bit feeling his heart pounting immediately I took his hair in to my fist pressing my lips harder to his fighting for dominance with his tongue to distract him what actually works after a few sec I slowly and softly began to massage him through the fabric and yes he was a bit smaller but not like he made it seem "mhmm I love him I can already tell" I groaned gripping a big harder but not that it hurt I looked at him he looked still so scared "babe stop he is not small at all I can feel it you know and have you seen me where should I put a 20 inch think you are beautiful and hot as fuck I almost came twice already" I oversaturated a bit "really" he breath out " yes you don't even know how hot you are I can't wait to see the dominant you I know it's there I said slipping my hand slowly under his boxers taking him in to my hands" please don't lie Sammy nobody wants 5, 5 inches " oh I want and I will I started to stroke him softly running my thumb over his tip seeing his mouth slowly open I lean down to his neck kissing all around it stroking a little faster hearing his breathing pick up making me smile" let go babe enjoy " I said nibbling on his ear I pulled down a bit biting softly in his neck while running my thumb over his slit slowly pressing down" aaaa" he breath " you like that babe" I breath against his neck "yes" he whispered can you - can go faster " he ask" of course I can... I go to his ear daddy  I said hoping that will get him "what did you call me he ask his voice different giving me chills" daddy" I answered as innocent as I could "he slapped my ass making me jump not expecting that at all but loving this so much" if you keep that name up you meet the dark side " he said deeply I squeezed his dick a bit going faster and faster running my thumb over his vain everytime I go up" sam-sam omg " he whispered trowing his head back" please squeeze harder baby" he said with his mouth open looking so fucking hot I squeezed his dick harder making long and deep strokes feeling his dick twitch "please daddy can you cum in my mouth please I want to taste you all of you" i moaned a bit when I felt my dick drip "okay baby" he said sounding different in a sec I pulled the blanket away leaving down immediately licking over his perfect tip putting the tip in my mouth while stroking faster yes it was a bit more complicated bc he was smaller but he was perfect to me I licked all around and under his tip "sam - Sammy" he moaned before I feel his liquid running down my throat oml he even tasted like honey I sucked my way up to get every last drip I took him out off my mouth giving him a last kiss on the top before going back up kissing colby pulling away looking at him he looked like 200 questions but also love I could tell "you liked it" I ask unsure myself "yes I very much did it was amazing you must be a professional" he smiled "yeah - no I did it 1 time before, I was so nervous you don't like it" it was amazing baby " he said pulling me down kissing me softly he looked at me brushing my hair out of my face" let's get some sleep yeah" making me nod "you want me to turn around" making him nod I smiles turning around pressing my back to his chest his head in my neck his heart "still pretty fast but I guess he need a bit to calm down"thank you Sammy"he whispered against my neck making me goosebumps "for what babe"for being you, you helped me more in 3 days then you will ever know you maybe even... " he started but stopped I turned around feeling like this is serious"even what "I took his hand looking at him his eyes clearly watery making me so sad when I realized what he meant just from looking in to his eyes" please don't I know it's way to early and probably stupid but I love you I mean it please talk to me whenever you feel this way please "I whispered quietly feeling my lip quiver" please don't cry "he whispered so softly" please please colby never do this you are so special believe me you are,you have so many thinks 90% of people don't even have any more, you are kind, sweet, cute, respectful, funny and silly, you are beautiful and hot inside and out and you stole my heart in 5 min and dident even intended to, not one person of them deserves that you end your life not bc of people like them, better just punsh them in a wall that is what they deserve "wait wait did you say you love me" I nodded when I feel a tear drop down he placed his hand on my cheek wiping away my tear "I love you to" he said quietly but I never heard something louder then this I wrapped my arms around his neck hugging him super tight"we got this right"he whispered in my ear"yes colby we 100% will you are stronger then you think and you know that to" he nodded wrapping his arms around me my head on his chest arm around his torso closing my eyes "goid night baby" good night colby " I said nuzzling my head further in his chest falling asleep instantly