solby one shots

Why Can't You Love Me

Colby's pov

Hey colbyyy" I heard a voice walking out the chancing room done with practice "hey Sammy" I said opening my arms he giggled running in them "you where amazing today" thank you Sammy " I let him go even though I don't want to" you nervous for the big game tomorrow " he ask making me nod" yeah a little bit, what are you doing today "I ask"im suppose to go on a date but I think I can't "making me jealous and sad but I swollow it down" why not what's wrong " he looked down with a blush on his cheeks" I pulled his head up looking at him "I - I what if he wants a kiss or something" okay and what is bad about that you don't like kissing "I - I never have kissed any-anyone he said getting more red in the face walking out the school and home sam only living 5 houses down to mine" have you tried the hand or pillow think " I ask I mean anyone has his first kiss some day" I have but is it really like this " I mean not really but you can practice like this a bit" but anyways you wanne come to mine for a bit pleaseeeee" he ask but do you not wanne get ready and all " yes but I need you to help me please" I don't know sam "pleaseeeeeeee" he said making the biggest puppy eyes making me groan "your lucky your cute" I said walking with him past my house,we soon got to his sam opening the door "hey mom" hey honey, oh colby what a surprise I dident see you in a long time "she winked with a laugh" ha ha mom funny, colby needs to help me get ready for my date I trust him the most " he said facing his mom while I looked down feeling so many emotions hearing him say that *colby stop it if he's happy then that's all that matters" I looked up seeing Sam's mom look at me for a sec "don't come home late young man" yes mom I won't we're just going to a restaurant " I walked past them going upstairs not wanting to hear more I walked in to the bathroom closing the door *colby get yourself together he dosent love you, he will never love you this way don't destroy your friendship* I flushed the toilet walking out walking In Sam's room "hey you okay colby" yeah yeah I'm fine just had to go real bad so what do you wanne wear "I don't know, I have no idea if I should go famine or not or elegant, casual no idea" I would say whatever you wanne wear never dress to impress someone or dress like someone what's you to " yeah I know but I dont want to come in the restaurant and everyone is over dressed and I have sweatpants on and I'm also still super anxious about the kissing think I don't want my first kiss to be horrible why isent there something like a trainings class or something " making me laugh" you really wanne be in a room with 20 strangers where everyone kisses anyone I don't know "he nodded looking down seemingly worried about that making me have an idea that's so fucked up I can't believe I think about that at all" I mean I - I would have an idea but it's a really bad one " don't say that I take any idea" if you say so but don't tell me I dident warned you "how about you can practice with me" his head shoot up looking at me "did - did you say to kiss you" yes I did " I said my heard beading so fast" I can't just kiss my straight best friend " first of all I'm - I'm bi I said stuttering a bit and sec of all I just wanted to help bc you know me I'm not a stranger and like I said as a friend I thought I could help it's just a kiss right" your bi why dident you ever tell me, anyways I dont know colby yes I trust you the most but I don't want our friendship to be awkward then " sam it's an emotionless kiss just to show you how, nothing more after this we don't talk about ever again" okay first of all don't stress try to relax I said sitting down pulling him with me look in to his eyes I said meeting his placing my hand in his cheek feeling his heartbeat in his neck "never use or do tongue at the first kiss just" I stopped getting closer and closer until I felt his hot breath on my lips "close your eyes and move your lips with his"i pulled him closer making our lips collide making my body hot but feeling sam jump a bit I moved my lips showing him to move a bit while taking his hand to calm him down he slowly moved his lips with mine connecting and disconnecting slowly my body was on fire but I had to pull away so I did looking at him his face as red as a cherry "your a good kisser sam there will be no problem at all" I said pretending to be cool and unbothered "thank you colby I hope so" he said looking down " hey go and chance" I said padding his leg he smiled walking off in the bathroom leaving me with my thoughts realizing I probably shouldn't have done that then it's not helping feelings who are already there you can do that colby your doing it for 2 years it's that or losing your best friend by telling him "and what do you think" he ask standing in the doorframe seeing pink jeans and a light pink shirt damn he looked so good his hair styled, Smelling amazing "it looks cute you should wear this definitely" thank you colby that's so sweet " he said before the doorbell got of" what's it's already that late " he said running like a headless chicken" sam your date is here "he said making me flinch" sorry colby I have to go I text you when I'm back okay "have fun" I called when he run off leaving me alone in his house in his room I took a min just breathing before I walked out and downstairs "hey colby I'm sorry he just left you here that's not nice" it's okay Mrs golbach I just leave " oh and colby" yeah I turned around "does he know" she ask I looked at her in question "that you love him" wha.. I.. What " Was the only think I could say" colby I can see the love in your eyes and the hurt in your face I know how this looks like "I looked down shocked she knew or that it's so obvious" no he doesn't and I would ask you not to say anything please "I won't colby but you really want to carry these emotions through your whole life" I have for 2 years I'm okay as long as he's my best friend, but I have to go now " I said opening the door just walking out on my way to my house being glad nobody will be home bc my parents work until 6-7 colby come on pull yourself together you did 2 years you can do it for more sam is your best friend and if he finds someone he finds someone the most important is they treat him right I opend my door walking in locking it taking off my shoes walking to the kitchen to get me a coke walking up to my room after I don't know what to do but I probably play some video games what else could I do and after that probably a movie while sam is laughing talking and kissing someone else.... I was playing for an hour when I heard the door "were home" my parents called okayyyy I called playing again for at least another hour until it knocked on the door "colby dinner is ready" I'm not hungry mom thank you " I called hearing her whisper something I turned off my xbox walking to my bed taking off my shirt laying down, I grabbed my laptop turning it on seeing it was almost 8 and still nothing from sam has to be a good date I guess.... The next 2 hours I just watched tv until I felt tiered but sam dident text me yet making me worried a bit