Never True [ Landonorris]

21[the only thing I want to see today...]

Lando pov

a week later (Canada Grand Prix qualifying)

last month was terrible, I had absurd feelings of guilt, more than deserved, races that sucked a bit, and the news that next year Carlos will no longer be with me but will go to Ferrari,and guess who my teammate will be next year, Oscar Piastri, that's right Rosa's ex, yuppi, how happy.

I also got engaged, Luisa from Portugal, and I didn't do it to suppress my feelings for Rosa, I swear, I like her as a girl, she's nice, sweet, loving.We've been together for almost two months now, I met her a week after the disaster with Rosa, and we started going out and here we are.

you know what? for me the night spent with Rosa wasn't a mistake, for my mind yes, but for my heart no, it was beautiful, the best I've had so far. but I can't be with her,I'm not the right one, yes there is a lot of sexual tension between us, every time we see each other we would like to take our clothes off, but that's not all we need

we also have to love each other, and I don't know if I've gotten to this point, maybe yes, maybe not, or maybe I've already gotten there but I'm too cowardly to admit it to myself and to her.

back to us, today is qualifying day, I hope everything goes well I need to see the team happy again and to see my fucking sanity feel good again.

two hours later

Once I get to the paddock, I take photos with some fans, sign autographs and then head towards the garage.

I see a figure from afar is it Rosa? should I stop her?

as soon as she tries to overtake me I grab her wrist and stop her

"Lando what the fuck do you want?" she says
"someone here has forgotten education" I say as I look her straight in the eyes, I really feel so guilty.

"hmm look who's talking" she replies directly
"mh understood you don't want to talk, this is what you want" I say

"yes exactly" she says
"do you know what I want?" I say, I want to challenge her a little

"I don't care" she says coldly
"the only thing I want to see today is your name under mine" I say looking her straight in the eyes

"Very convinced that you want me under you more than you can imagine" is she challenging me? well she won't have won

I get closer to her ear "well we've already tried" I whisper in her ear, and I see her stiffen and fill with shivers

"fuck you" she pushes me away from her and walks away, I'm a fucking asshole

I head to the garage because qualifying will start soon, I hope they go really well though

"day, cabron" Carlos greets me
"day, Carlos" I greet him

"Where is Luisa?" he asks
"She'll be here soon" I say

"How are things with her?" he asks
"good"

"just 'good', really?" He looks at me
"Things are going well, what should I tell you?"

"are you nervous?" asks Carlos
"I'm anxious about qualifying, I'm afraid I'll suck as always" Now I'm just doing badly, I can't be proud of myself