Never True [ Landonorris]

13 [Do you want me?]

Sunday( week before the Japanese Grand Prix)

Oscar is coming to pick me up in 4 hours and I still have to get ready.

Knocking at the door

"Here I am to your rescue" I open the door and it's Alexandra
"Charles told you, I thought he forgot"
"No no, let's get started then"

"What should I wear?" I say
I'm undecided, a long dress is too elegant, a low-cut top might be too much, a skirt might or might not be fine, help.

"Mhh, white skirt and black top, that one" points to the black top in the suitcase

It's a top that isn't too low-cut, shiny black, and above all sexy.
"Mh, I like it"

But I don't know whether to wear the skirt, I'm afraid that you might see my thick legs and the scars on the inside of my legs

"But I don't know if I should wear a skirt" I say
"Why?" Alexandra rightly asks
Should I tell her? Yes, come on, she's my friend

Instead of telling her I take off the trousers I'm wearing and remain in my underwear, showing her my scars

She doesn't speak, she looks at me then at the scars, like this for a long time until I decide to break the silence.

"I've been going this far since I was 14, on my birthday."

"Rose.." She's very sorry, I can see it in her eyes

"On my birthday, my father hit me, really hard, and to vent I started burning my inside leg" I say with tears in my eyes.

"But in reality, it didn't start just because of this, I never liked my body especially because my legs were too big, so I thought that if I got burned something would change, but in reality it's gotten worse, my body with these scars is even uglier"

She looks at me with tears in her eyes
"I hadn't done it for a couple of months now, but then I started again and I can't- I can't stop me"

"Love, I'm sorry" she gets up and hugs me
I hug her and burst into tears

"But I'm very sure that you will look gorgeous in that skirt" she says
"No Alex..." I say

"Yes, stop crying now, in three hours you have a date, with a very sweet boy"
"You're right" I dry my tears and get dressed

Two and a half hours later
"You're gorgeous." Alex says
"I don't know...it doesn't convince me"

"Rosa, you're gorgeous, that top highlights your boobs, and that skirt makes you slim."
I laugh, she laughs with me

"Now I'll make others tell you too."
She call Charles
"Love, come to Rosa's room for a moment"
"I arrive"

A minute later Chalres arrives, knocks and enters
I don't even have time to enter before he looks me up and down
"What is it?" I say