Our Great Love

Chapter 12: Joe

I can't believe we are at a carnival! I was planning on coming here too later this week with my roommate who is also my best friend to have fun before pre-season football starts. 

Once we reach the front, Lilly pulls out her wallet and gives the man 10$ for tickets. He hands her the tickets and she starts to drag me towards the rides with a big smile on her face. I think this is when she is the most beautiful. I know I just met her today but I can already tell that this is my favorite Lilly, the happy and carefree one. I never want her to go away because I'd give my soul to see her like this everyday. But I know that after this she will probably go back to hiding from me like she almost did after we kissed, so I'm going to spend the most time with her now while I can.

Which is why I turn and ask her, "So, what game first?"

"How about we ride the Ferris wheel first?" She says with a smile as she points to it.

"Sure." I say kinda scared

"Are you afraid of heights?" She stops and turns to face me with those beautiful eyes of hers.

"No, I'm afraid of falling from heights." I look deep into her eyes.

"Oh its okay I won't let that happen, just relax and come on!" She yells over her shoulder before dragging me to the line.

"Alright, but can I kiss you at the top of the Ferris wheel?" I say with a big smile trying my luck again

"Umm I'm not sure, do friends kiss. I don't think they do so the answer is no for now. I'm sorry." She says with a frown, as if she is nervous or scared of how I'll respond.

"No worries your right, I'll take whatever I can get and I just want you to have fun and be comfortable." I say smiling at her.

"You know when you say things like that it makes me wanna kiss you but my brain can't seem to agree with my heart on that topic, which is why being friends is better." She says, still looking down as we get to the front of the line.

Once we get to the front she hands the tickets over to the operator and grabs my hand. She leads me to the seat and we sit down. The operator buckles us in and lets us know not to rock it and to stay in the seat at all times. After he walks away I face Lilly to talk more because she has been quite the whole time other than nodding, when I asked her if she's been to a carnival before.

"Are you ok, Lil?"

"Yeah I'm just thinking, sorry I promise I'm not ignoring you. I just got lost for a minute." She says looking at the ground as we move.

"All good, where did you go?" I ask curiously.

"Well you asked me if I've ever been to one of these before and I got lost in a family memory of the last time we to a a carnival ." She says with sort of sad look. I hate that because she looked so happy until I asked about that.

"I'm sorry for asking that question, I shouldn't have."

"No, No, No it's not your fault, please don't feel guilty. I hate that you think my mood has to do with your question which was completely innocent. It's just hard for me to look back on family memories because there's a lot of hurt in them. Ugh sorry for ruining the mood and dumping that on you" She says looking down with her face in her hands.

"No please you are not dumping your problems on me. That's what I'm here for, I'm your friend, you said so remember?." I say as I remove her hands from her face and slip my hand under her chin to lift her head up to me. I look into her eyes and find so much deep emotion. It's like an ocean full of emotion and the waves are pulling me in deeper and deeper.

"I've never had someone like you in my life, it's a nice change. Thank you Joe." She says as we reach the top of the Ferris wheel. I see her lean forward and slowly press her lips to mine. It's not a sweet one like last time, it's a passionate one, more fiery and steamy. She starts to lean in closer, going deeper into the kiss. She slowly parts her lips open, moving mine with her's. I slide my tongue into her mouth, tasting her like I wanted to earlier. I kiss her deeper, and it starts to feel like I need this kiss to live. I slowly raise my hand and run it in her hair. She signs into my mouth when I do that and raises her hand to tangle it in my hair. As we are kissing the ride reaches the bottom. When it stops she lets go and looks so red and beautiful. As we climb out and down the stairs I grab her hand and face her again.

"Wow, that was incredible. I'm at a loss for words."

"Me too, but that can't happen again. I'm sorry I keep doing a back and forth thing with you but I just wanted to reward you for being a good friend and what was supposed to be a quick kiss became more. I promise not to do that again for now. Anyway, that was only one ride, so we have lots more to go on." she says putting on a smile and lets go of my hand to walk towards a ride.

I run up to her and grab her hand to pull her to face me.

"Hey, it's okay. I understand that this is new and we just met. Don't feel bad everyone makes mistakes like kissing and shit. Let's just forget about it and have fun, ok?" I ask smiling at her, hoping she can't see how much it hurts to tell her to forget about my lips on hers, because I can't.

"Thank you and your right, Let's go!" she says smiling again and grabs my hand

"Yeah we do, so where to next?"

"Bumper cars!" She says while pointing to them with the biggest smile ever.

"LET'S GO." I say excitedly with a huge smile

We race over to them and get in line. It's a bit longer so we have time to talk more but before I can get a word out she is hugging me. It's not a forceful one, it's more relaxed and comforting. We hug for a minute with my head on hers. I kiss the top of her head. She signs and leans in more. The hug lasts as we walk through the line until we are about to get on the ride. She pulls back and looks at me with a smile on her face and speaks.

"Are you ready to lose?"

"Sure if you think so." I say super sarcastically.

"Oh I'm very sure," She says and then takes off to the purple car.

I get in the red car and go straight for her.

She yells, "How dare you!, I thought you were my friend." as her car bumps into the person behind her. I just laugh at her.