I don't understand why we keep telling ourselves it'll be ok or we can do this when we know deep in the small part in the bottom of our hearts and in the back of our Brains we know not everything will be ok and that we can't do this because we're on the verge of breaking. I'm tired of trying to stay strong positivity isn't my strong suit. it doesn't help me get out of these thoughts; the ones I know are so true and demanding. What am I supposed to do if I'm not strong anymore and I can't fake a smile. I can't pretended that I'm ok. It's not gonna work. I'm a broken power line that can't be recharged. Maybe I'll jump off a bridge or talk to my best friend. Maybe I can sneak some pills and maybe a few drinks. I can't know for sure how my end will come. But I can guess it may be soon. Maybe it won't be for a long time. Maybe they were right and there positivity made a difference well good for them they saved a life. Just not mine.
