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Chapter 48|Present day

Liv.

Present day.

I'm sitting on my bed, a bandage wrapped around my arms and waist. They discharged me from the hospital yesterday and I'm happy that I don't have to be there anymore.

A knock resounds from outside my door and I freeze. That's someone else's knock. Not my parents.

I say hesitantly, "Come in."

Sam steps through the door. I swear. He's everywhere. Cole has been avoiding me. I get that, so I'm giving him space. It wouldn't be fair to him if I up and left for Boston without giving him a second glance. He doesn't need that in his sophomore, junior, and senior years. I'm the one giving up because I know that otherwise, we'll become like Sam and me.

Sam and me.

He asks if he can sit. I nod. He sits in my plush gray chair at the other end of the room.

I sigh. "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too."

I look up. There are tears forming in my eyes. "Why?"

"Because it's my fault too. I shouldn't have kept pushing. I shouldn't have agreed to do this in the first place. I thought you were the most amazing person I've ever met. I wanted it to be you. I just didn't think that it would end up like this." He lets out a sad laugh. "I wanted it to be you. I didn't want us to end up like this."

I laugh. It's small and sad like his. "Thought, huh?"

He tries to laugh too. "Sorry."

Even though we both haven't said much. I feel a pit of warmth in my stomach. Even though we think we haven't gotten closure yet, we have.

I smile. It's small and sad like my laugh. "Sam. I think we need to let go of all of this."

He looks up hopefully.

I continue. "Sometimes loving someone, means letting them go."

I wobble over, still unsteady from the accident. He stands up. Wraps his arms around me.

Tears trickle down his cheeks.

He says, "I'm really glad that I got to know you Liv."

He pulls away first, wiping off the drops of water under my eyes.

He says, "bye, Livvy."

And the door shuts behind him.

I'm crying happy tears.

We got everything we needed.

But why does it hurt so much?

And all I can think right now is, we'll be okay.

We'll be okay.