E and O

Part 11

Liv awoke to gentle kisses along her jaw. She was a little disoriented, she couldn't remember where she was or who she was with. Then the previous night returned to her. She was in Elliot's bed. He was peppering such gentle kisses along her jaw. He was warm and hard against her leg.
"El-" he nipped at her jaw.
"Stop thinking. Just feel" His lips kept moving as his hand drifted down to the knot that held the sides of her dress together. This time she didn't object when he touched her. She let him untie it and pull the sides open, she watched his eyes rake down her body before his hand traveled down her body. His lips moved down from her jaw, scraping his teeth against her collarbone before he moved onto her breast. His hand wasn't idle either, moving down to slip under the waistband of her panties. Liv didn't bite back the gasp that left her lips as he slipped a finger inside of her. He used his free hand to push down her bra strap before he took her nipple into his mouth, another delicious gasp left her lips, echoing off the walls.
"More" Liv couldn't believe those words left her own lips, but Elliot complied, his second finger sliding along to join his first. It was then that Liv noticed what El was muttering against her breast.
"So good Livvie. You sound so good for me. Love the noises that you make for me. Because of me. So goddamn beautiful" He muttered against her skin before he bit her nipple again. He was kissing and biting her breast as if the cigarette burns didn't matter. None of it mattered as he pressed his thumb against her clit.
"So good Livvie. Cum for me. Give me everything. Give me all of you because I love you" She shattered under his touch, his name tumbling from her lips as her eyes slammed shut.
When she opened her eyes again Elliot was looking right at her. And when he slipped his fingers from inside of her he lifted them to his mouth Liv looked away in shame, the reality of their relationship setting in. She moved out from under him and retied her dress.
"Noah's going to be home in an hour" She muttered.
"Liv-"
"We keep ending up here. Nothing is changing between us, so let's stop this"
"Liv-" She left the room without another word and a few moments later he heard the front door slam behind her. Elliot fell back onto the bed with a loud sigh, her taste still in his mouth, regret flooding his system.

Liv had had a very hard day. It took a lot of convincing to get the victims to talk and all she wanted was to go home and take a very long bath but when she left her office, she stopped in her tracks as her eyes met El's.
"Seriously?" She groaned, her eyes going to Don's "Not you too"
"I've heard things. I think that the two of you need to talk" Don said gently.
"Talking. Elliot's not too good at that, at least not when he's sober" Liv bit. El looked guiltily down at the ground "What? Nothing to say?"
"I tried-"
"You tried?" She scoffed "You got drunk and tried to get me into bed with you. And when I turned you down, you begged me to stay, muttering that you loved me before you fell asleep. And this morning-" Liv scoffed "One minute you love me, you can't stand another man touching me, looking at me and then next you want nothing to do with me. I'm tired. I've told you-"
"Nothing! You've told me nothing!"
"Because you've already seen the story written across my skin!" Liv took a calming breath "If I tell you, you will kill someone" She bit, unable to stop her voice from breaking or the stray tear that escaped her eye "I have walked through hell and looked the devil himself in his eyes and yet I don't think about any of that, I think about you. I'm tormented by you, day and night!" She bit, choking on her tears. Elliot took a step towards her but she lifted a hand, stopping him in his tracks.
"You can't look at me like that"
"Like what?"
"Like you're ever going to choose me! I'm sick of being the other woman when I could be someone's first choice! I don't want random hook-ups because you're sick of seeing me happy with anyone but you! I want love! I want a relationship! I want what I deserve!" Liv's chest heaved as she breathed deeply "He tortured me! They tried to rape me! And I'm all alone, so broken that I am willing to wait for you! Ten years, El. I tried to hold together your marriage and your relationship with your kids and you couldn't even say goodbye" More tears began to fall "I tried to love Cassidy but having your girlfriend scream at you not to touch her kind of ruins things. I tried to love Tucker. I almost married him but again my mind screamed at me. He isn't Elliot! I have waited and watched and I'm so tired of it" Liv choked on her tears again, quickly wiping them away as she breathed deeply "Noah googled me, my son knows more than you do. I love you El. We've all known for far too long but my heart is breaking and I lost the strength to hold myself together a long time ago. Goodbye El-"
"Liv-"
"Run off to Rome or Paris, I don't care anymore. Just go. Don't bother saying goodbye" Liv marched out of the precinct without another word, wiping her tears away as Elliot stood in the squad room, watching her go as his heart broke.
"You're an idiot" Fin muttered, loud enough for him to hear.
"I know" He muttered sadly back.
"What are you going to do to fix this?"
"I don't think I can do anything"
"If you believe that son, you are a massive idiot" Don added "The two of you breathe in sync. Your hearts beat for one another. Neither of you are ready to say goodbye"