messages; hood

// calum's messages //

to; alice
from; calum

sent on 2nd april, monday at 2.15pm

Alice, why didn't you tell me?
Ashton came over today. He told me he needed to talk to me in private. He started crying. He said he felt like a horrible person for keeping it away from me. He wasn't mad at me these past two years, he was mad at himself. That's why he distanced himself. He told me that you told him your were pregnant? You were three months pregnant and never told me. Ashton was the only one you told. He said you were afraid I'd leave. Did you really think that? That I'd get scared and leave my own child?
Ashton said before you got a chance to tell me the baby died. You went for a checkup and found out she or he died. You had to deal with loosing our child on your own. I noticed you were upset about something, but you never even told me... I've lost two people.
I never knew you were carrying my child for over three months. I couldn't be there supporting you. Naturally, I should be furious, you telling my best friend and not me, but I'm not because I understand you were scared.
I'm proud of you and although I never knew about the baby, I love him or her so, so much.