Prince on the wrong path? (solby)

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secrets nobody knows I like boys "I looked at him"stupid questions but how did you knew that or felt that "it's not a stupid question it was just that I saw pretty girls where every man got wild over and I dident felt anything and one day I saw a cute boy amd I felt warm inside and had butterflies and I alsways looked at him and stuff" making me not "I -I how do I say this you know I have this ball in 12 weeks where I have to choose a girl and stuff" he nodded looking at me "but I don't really want anyone I don't know if it's the girl think or the I don't want a relationship or wife I have no clue what's going on my father says I'm just nervous but first of all if I want someone I want to really love them and not that I have to and sec of all Its like I don't have romantic feeling or something sorry you probably don't understand a single word "hey don't be silly I understand but you should probably first figure out if it has to do with your sexuality or just your morales that you don't want a rearranged marriage" yeah but how do I do that search a man and a woman and say can I test on you " i chuckled a bit making him laugh"no but did you never met a boy or girl where you could have felt something when you think about it bc I don't believe at all you don't have feeling bc you are so sweet and care for people and stuff that I'm sure you will love so either you never looked for it or it was not the right one " another stupid question what if I think I know and then it's not you know I meet a girl and think oh wow that's it ans then it's not and hurt someone" colby don't beat yourself up if it's love you know and feel it it's not just a crush what is over in 2 weeks love feels deep"and what if I just make an example what if I love you but as a friend I mean you love your close friends right " yes of course you do but it's still not the same I mean you love your parents Im sure but would you have sex with them or kiss them" sammmm nooo" I made a disgusting face "see romantic love is when you have butterflies in your stomach when you see them want to spend every sec with them want them close all the time and can't live without them" wow now I at least want that " I said laughing i mean my father said I don't know yet and that's true but I don't want to choose out of 10 woman who only are here bc I'm a prince they don't love me you know I don't want people who want me for what I have I want bc they love me even if I'm on the streets " I said looking down hey don't be sad colby I mean you could find one of them amazing you don't know" I know sam but they don't come here for my character bc they never seen me " I know but you can get to know each other then right" I looked down yeah I guess so but I just don't like the whole set up think they come here and then I have to choose "I understand that completely I wouldn't like that either but".. Son can I talk to you for a sec " it said outside my door making me look at sam him looking scared" under my bed " I mouth him nodding I walked to my door opening it" yes father " I ask feeling nervous inside" I came to tell you that your mother and I are leaving now and we come back tomorrow at lunch time we are staying the night so you are in control also to tell all the employees "yes father" don't do anything stupid and don't go outside alone I mean it " yes father" I chuckled he nodded walking off downstairs I closed the door locking it sam coming out from under the bed " damn that was close he never comes himself" I said sitting down again "I wasn't even scared for me more for you to hang out with one of me" I looked at him "what are you saying you are a human and I am human I really like your company and you" seeing him look down blushing making me smile "I really like your company to" I said softly "yeah? I'm glad I have 1 person for ones who likes me for me not just being a prince or being scared I do something" nah I don't care how much you have or something I would like you when you had lived besides me in the woods as long as you where this nice to me like you where "thank you sam but hey you wanne leave before it's getting dark" yes can we "of course let's go it's only 15 min to walk"we stand up walking to my wardrobe taking out a hoddie holding it out to sam he looked at me"please put him on its probably cold outside " thank you colby he smiled hey I don't want you cold or get ill let's go" what are we saying where we go"you see " I open the door as we walked out and all the way down stairs to the main doors" you leaving prince colby " yes sam is going to the marked and I want something to,the time I'm gone nobodyyyyy gets in or out understand" I said "yes prince colby" alright we will be back in an hour "we begin to walk in the direction from the marked until the castle was out if side making a turn left to the woods sam of course new the way after 15 min we came up to the bridge all the memories back from when I ask myself who lives here he almost run to the place where he was sleeping me following him he kneed down looking through anything me just seeing an old piece of blanket or something and a mold where his body probably layed he looked so stressed looking around making my heart hurt I looked behind it seeing something in the dirt "colby it's not here" I heard him sobbing looking immediately to him "sam hey hey you don't need to cry" I kneed down to him "colby that's the only think I have" he sobbed out making my heart breake" no no sam - sam look Is this what you looking for "I hold up the litte bag he looked at it then to me his eyes sparkling like I never seen before ever it was beautiful like looking at the sea in moonlight" you found it thank you, thank you thank you " he hugged me almost knocking me over I wrapped my arms around him his head in my shoulder giving me this hot feeling again in my whole body he pulled away wiping his eyes" is everything still there "..............

10 weeks later
Me sitting at the dining room table for dinner with my parents" son what do you want for your ball "father I told you I don't want anything and I don't want a massive think you said it's my think you put some drinks on the tables that's it I don't want it all fancy it makes me uncomfortable so if you want that I stay there for hours you better not father "son I understand that man don't want all the citch but you can't just make a Plaine room with some drinks then they will all leave" great then all the girls know who I'm and what to expect and I see what I can expect from them you promised I can get to know them and be honest right " yes son we did but imagine what they will talk about please think about us as well please" father please "I looked at him do you not understand a tiny bit that I want truth love not for what I have please please don't make me get someone I don't love and who dosent love me can you imagine me being miserable for the rest of my life" okay okay but we do drinks and a bit food and you promised to really try not just say no from the look of them " yes father I promised and I will but what exactly do we do if for real not one is for me just that I know" then there is another ball 6 weeks later from princesses from castles further away "he said okay good to know" oh and son my mother now talking "what is with you and that maid sam" what do you mean mother " I see you 2 together all the time" yes mother we are friends " son you can't be friends with the maids I sit up looking at then" oh yeah and why is that I ask trying not to explode "son please calm down we just saying a Prince or a king can't be friends or in relations with maids or guards"okay to bad I already am I can't go outside I can't meet someone outside I can't do anything so now I found something I like and we talk and play card I don't see the problem and don't you dare do something or say something to him you both know what happens and you also know I don't have a problem with just leaving