𝙍𝙀𝙎𝙊𝙇𝙑𝙀 | l lawliet

Inevitable

All they'd been doing was sitting in silence for the entire night. She knew he was bad at offering comfort, he knew she was bad at accepting it.

"Hey, L?"

He looked up from staring at the ground. It was really unusual of him to be doing nothing. Then again, who knew what ran through the detective's mind.

"Is this really inevitable?"S

She was like a child, wanting to hear the truth, but subconsciously seeking re-assurance, even when she knew the answer. But, he knew she wasn't one.

"Yes."

That bluntness. Hikari might've not had half the emotional intelligence that he did, but even she could tell that it was a front.

And how right she was.

L wanted to think that the reason he was anxious was because he was worried about what would become of the world when he died. But, that was a lie.

He was scared. Not for the world, for himself. He didn't have the guts to see his work, to see her, knowing that it'd probably be the last time. He would rather die immediately.

Desires are like drugs. They start of as a way to keep going, but then, you depend on them even when every problem is out of way. Wasn't death exactly that?

Hikari didn't bother to console him, or to try and get him to open up. She knew all too well that his method of dealing was solitude. So was hers.

And so, they sat there, in silence, ignoring the racing of their hearts and heads.

Hikari tried thinking about their 'good times together' as a method of closure, but came to the conclusion that she wasn't cut out for it. If she answered with complete honestly (which she would never), she'd say in a heartbeat that every second spent with him was a memory worth remembering. She knew it sounded corny, and that's exactly why she didn't let that thought reach even the back of her mind.

Instead, she recalled a 'friendly' game of chess between them. Hikari didn't know what she was more proud of: The fact that she'd got him off work for seven hours, or that she'd beaten the world's greatest detective in what should be his best game.

Hikari defeated the world's smartest man. She worked under the World's Greatest Detective, who had considered her intellectual capabilities to be even close to his. Who she conversed with each day, who she could call close.

If Hikari could do all that, what was saving one man from a delusional teenager?

'If I don't fight, I can't win.'

Sorry I guess I just rlly like Eren Jaeger quotes lol.