Taura's POV
Walked in the paddock the next day, alone. Lando and I arrived separately again.
We agreed on going public after the last race of the season. We would concentrate on this season for now and worry about the hate after it.
I didn't really receive much hate when I dated Martin, but I think things will be different when Lando and I go public.
But still, even without us going public, I could feel a lot of eyes and cameras on me.
So, I grabbed my phone and started texting, to look busy, not because I particular wanted to talk to someone.
Quinn ❤️
So...
Did you fuck him?
I just said 'so'
And you immediately think I fucked him?
I mean...
So you didn't?
No, we didn't have sex
Or anything else
Why not?
We're together for two days!
Why is it so weird?
How long did it take you to have sex with Martin?
1 day?
But we knew each other for weeks
And you know Lando for months
What's wrong Taurs?
Even before I could answer, I bumped into someone, causing me to drop my phone.
"Oh fuck" I said as I kneeled down to grab my phone. "Of course" I mumbled to myself as I looked at the broken screen.
Why do phones always fall on their screens?
"Is it broken?"
I quickly looked up, recognizing that voice.
Martin was standing in front of me, looking down at me.
I quickly got up, shrugged my shoulders. "It's okay"
He smiled a little. It was the first time we saw each other since the break up.
"I've to perform here" he explained. Probably because he wanted to make sure I didn't think he was following me.
I have missed seeing him perform.
"I will come watch you" I said. It made him smile, but not like it used to be.
I sighed and looked down.
"I am sorry Martin, I never meant to hurt you" I lifted my head and met his eyes. They were a beautiful, innocent shade of blue.
But when I met his eyes this time, they weren't filled with happiness, they showed confusing, hurt, broken pieces of trust.
We both thought we needed each other, that we would spend our lives together.
That we would make it.
But in reality, we had torn each other apart. I broke his heart.
"Why him?" He asked.
It was a good question. Why not the good guy? Why not the guy that would jump on a plane only to hold me for a few hours.
Why did I choose Lando? The one with the mysterious smirks and flirtatious winks.
He infuriated me at times, but in the end, no one could make me laugh like he did.
"I think I love him" I shrugged.
He nodded, looked down.
"You had me at a point where I would've left the entire world behind for you" he said before meeting my eyes again.
And I sighed again, because he was the sweetest. I didn't deserve him back then and definitely don't deserve him right now.
"For what it's worth" he said. "I doubt I will ever like anyone else in the world as much as I like you"
He was so genuine about this, made me question everything for a quick second.
I wrapped my arms around him, hugged him tightly, didn't know who needed it more though.
Probably me.
Definitely me.
"Now get Lando on that damn podium" he chuckled, wiping the tears on my cheek away. I didn't even notice I was crying.
I nodded. "Thanks Martin, for everything, for loving me when he couldn't"
"That was the easy part, Taura" he took a step back. "Not loving you is way harder"
And with that, he walked away, to the Red Bull garage.
Maybe that was the closure I needed.
