By My Side [JENLISA FF]

Part 14

'I love you'. These words were repeated in Jennie's mind again and again while she was still standing in the open door of Lisa's apartment, long after her form had disappeared in the elevator. Did she really mean it? Could it be? Could she love her, really love her? After only a few days? Was it possible? Then she remembered her eyes looking into hers when she'd said these words. Of course she could, of course it was possible a voice in her head told her. She didn't know her any longer and loved her. Loved her with every Fiber of her body and every part of her soul. Oh god, she loved her!

A warm feeling rose in her body, a feeling she'd never known before. Sure, her mom loved her and Hongjun, well most of the time, but this. This was different.

Jennie flinched a little bit when she felt a hand on her shoulder.

"Jennie, are you okay?" Jisoo's concerned voice asked beside her.

She turned her head slightly and looked at her friend. Her eyes had a faraway look: "What?"

"Are you okay?" the red head asked again.

Jennie shook her head and focused on her friend: "Sure, sorry Chu. I was just deep in thoughts."

"Yeah, obviously," Yaya said from her chair. "We called your name about ten times, and you wouldn't react."

"Sorry, Yaya." She looked at both her friends, weird, she counted Yaya to her friends. Where did that come from? Then without another thought she blurted out: "she says she loves me."

Jisoo looked at her in surprise while a huge grin spread across the brunette's features: "Sure she does. I told you so! No big."

"She actually said that?" the red head asked in awe.

Jennie could only nod. As if she was in trance she walked over to the couch and sat down. "Yes, she said, 'I love you' and then disappeared."

"And you?" Jisoo wanted to know.

"What about me?" Jennie asked in confusion.

"Do you, I mean, do you love her?"

Jennie looked to the ground for a short moment, when she looked up, she could not help but smile by seeing the knowing grin on Yaya's face. "Yeah," she replied. I love her too." Suddenly it was no problem to say it, she didn't have to struggle with the words. The knowledge that she loved her, and she was sure she did now, made everything so easy.

"But you never said it, right?", Jisoo looked at her friend with huge eyes. "And are you sure? I mean, you don't know her very long."

"No, I mean, yes. I am sure. I cannot believe it, but, I am sure. And yes, we don't know each other for a long time but deep inside I've the feeling I know her all my life. As if ... well, I know that sounds strange, but as if we're made for each other, then thrown out into the world and damned to look for each other to find peace. I've never felt like this before, and I doubt I could feel this with another person. When she's around it's as nothing else matters and as if nothing could happen to me. It's incredible." And it was exactly how she felt, incredible. There was no other word. This wonderful man loved her and made her feel special. It was a feeling as if doors opened in her soul, doors that had been closed many years ago, but also doors that were never opened before. Doors to deep, hidden feelings, feelings she didn't know existed until the day she'd met her.

"Wow," Jisoo breathed. "Jennie that ... that sounds ..."

"Yeah, it sounds nice and all," Yaya's voice was bored, but she had a warm smile in her eyes, "but as nice as love is, I'm hungry. Yujin's eaten the last sandwich."