By My Side [JENLISA FF]

Part 15

When Jennie woke up the next morning, she needed some seconds to realise that she'd slept on the sofa in Lisa's arms. Looking at her face she smiled. Her eyes were still closed, and she seemed relaxed.

She loved her. Oh, she loved her so much and it was good to admit it. And Lisa loved her back. This was too good to be true. But there were also shadows hanging over their happiness. First of all, this accusation for murder and GD's friends who were threatening her. But also, the past. Mostly mine, Jennie thought sadly. She hadn't exactly told Lisa in words, but she was sure she'd understood. After GD had beaten and finally raped her, she'd felt numb and empty. And she'd felt dirty, extremely dirty. It was even worse because she'd had sex with him before, willingly. She hadn't even realized what he was about to do before it was too late, when he was finally laying on her, she'd had not chance to defend herself.

That was another problem. The feeling of being helpless. She'd boyfriends afterwards but it never became serious, for once because she never loved one of them, but also because she couldn't stand the idea to sleep with a man. The experiences with GD were so imprinted in her head. Surprisingly she wasn't afraid of Lisa. Or maybe not yet. What would happen if Lisa wanted more? Would she back away again and would Lisa leave her as the others had?

Had she not fallen in love with other men, because she couldn't anymore and was the fact she was in love with Lisa a sign she was healing? Would that also mean, she could trust Lisa further on? She sighed and that moment she felt Lisa stir and open her eyes.

Blinking to adjust her eyes to the light she smiled: "Morning."

"We've fallen asleep on the sofa," she said.

"Hmmm, it was nice," Lisa replied. "Holding you in my arms, I mean."

She smiled back: "It was nice to be held." She reached up and stroked her cheek.

Lisa bent down and brushed her lips lightly with her. "I'm making us breakfast and some coffee." she looked to her watch: "And then we have to go, it's seven and I've told the others we meet at eight at the office."

Jennie felt fear rising in her: "So what's going to happen today?"

"We'll discuss it later, okay? First coffee and breakfast."

She nodded: "Alright, I'm just going to have a quick shower and change." Smiling at her, Jennie stood up and disappeared in her bedroom.

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"Did you sleep well?" Janice asked casually when she and Hongjun were sitting at their breakfast with Steven between them.

"What's that supposed to mean?" he said quirking an eyebrow. What was she up to now?

"Mommy, can I get some more milk please?" the little boy asked.

Pouring him some more milk into his cup, Janice smiled: "Uhm, I just thought you had a lot to think about."

He frowned: "You mean that stupid film? Certainly not."

"Of course," she replied and tried to hide a smile. Men were just so predictable. Or did he really think she hadn't felt him turning the whole night.

His frown deepened: "I did not think about that film. Why should I? I'm not at all like that stupid man. How he was hovering over his daughter. It was sickening."

"You think so," she raised an eyebrow. "I think you're pretty much behaving like him. All protective and fatherly."

"Janice. This is different. The boy in the film was a nice young man, not some detective who does things I don't even want to think about to earn her money." he poured himself some more coffee. She was not thinking straight, mothers always looked for in-law prospects. He slightly shook her head and sighed.