Almost is NEVER ENOUGH.

Chapter 1

"I'm sorry anak, but I have to say this. You have to stop from studying. We can't afford to send you to your university anak... I know you understand, right?"

My mind is literally out of space now that I am infront of my papa. Ayaw magregister sa utak ko ang sinasabi niya. Well, that's what I like. Ayokong maniwala sa sinasabi niya.

"No pa, you can't do this. You know how I love my course right? You know, ito lang ang meron ako pa. I can't stop. Pa, please. Wala na bang ibang way?" Sabi ko ng pinipigilan ko ang luha ko. No. I can't cry infront of him. Not now. I don't want him to see how weak I am.

"I'm so sorry Ashley."

And with that tinalikuran na niya ako. And now ako na lang ang andito sa room ko. Hindi ko na kaya, I cried my lungs out. Ayoko. The thought of me na hindi na mag-aaral is literally heartbreaking. Simula ng mamatay si mama, sa pag-aaral ko na ibinubuhos ang oras ko. Dahil sa pag-aaral pansamantala kong hindi naiisip si mama. I know ayaw din ni papa sa desisyon nya. I know na he's having a hard time with all of this shits happening on our family. But this is just too much to take.

I grabbed my phone and texted my bestfriend. In times like this, siya lang napagsasabihan ko ng problema ko.

To Best:

Best, please I need you now. Please sunduin moko dito samen. Please. T.T

I waited for his reply but he is not replying. I tried calling his phone but it is unattended. Oh shit! Fuck you Kelvin! Baket nakaturn off ang phone mo?! Kung kelan kelangan kita dun ka wala. Damn it!

Wala nakong maisip na matino. I need to go out of this house. Nagpalit ako ng shorts and I wear my tank top shirt. Yes, I admit I have a sexy body but it is my first time to go out like this. Madalas kase naka-pants ako and tshirt pag umaalis dahil conservative ang bestfriend ko. But now, dahil hindi ko naman siya kasama I'll try to be a rebel just for a day. I put light make up on my face, enough to just make myself look "Dalaga" at para itago ang maga kong mga mata. Hindi naman ako maganda, hindi rin ako panget, just the typical morena beauty ika nga ng madalas na magcompliment saken. Well, that's it. I'm ready to go.

"San ka pupunta, Ashley?" Oops. My sister is here pala.

"Diyan lang ate. Or kina Kelvin siguro. Ewan. I don't have a place to go. Gusto ko lang talaga umalis." I answered absentmindedly.

"You're going out na ganyan ang suot mo?! Maggagabi na ha? No you're not going!" She said authoritatively.

"Well sorry ate, I can't follow you now. Not now." I said and I saw her nakamamatay na look. And with that I run palabas sa aming bahay. Damn those eyes! Nakakatakot talaga si ate, pero mamaya ko na iisipin yon. I just wanna enjoy tonight!