I didn't say anything.
I recover instantly and begin slicing the creamy broccoli into pieces, not minding Greta's stares, which are full of questions. I was chewing the greens slowly, like I could feel my emotions building up.
Did Martin think I wasn't angry?
I am!
The food is too delicious to be wasted by my mood, so I try. I try to eat calmly and not snap at Martin.
Pumikit ako ng mariin nang marinig ang lalaking-lalaking tawa ni Martin kasabay ang kapatid nito.
They didn't hear anything from me, so when I heard Dr. Mordecai's warning to Greta, I let it pass and continued eating.
Martin asks me from time to time if I need something or what else I want to eat. But I ignore him until I can't eat anymore!
He looked satisfied with my shocked expression. Paano ba naman, nangunguna sa pagrereto kung kani-kanino sakin si Greta. Martin disliked it whenever his niece mentioned his nephews.
Gumanti siya, ginulat niya ang kaibigan!
Bwesit, nakakainis talaga!
Later on, I just play with the champagne flute using my index finger. When I get tired of tracing, I tilt my head to the right. Now, a few black crows can reside here due to the silence.
Greta is expressive, even if she won't talk now. I know she's wondering how I ended up with her Uncle Martin.
So am I, Greta.
That's it; I can't stand the silence between us anymore.
"We will talk, Greta. I'll call you."
She nods, and I feel relieved.
Greta can be trusted, but I admit that even though she's my friend, I don't intend to tell her everything.
Because people will see you differently once they know how immoral you can be. It's normal for them to act that way because no one wants to be surrounded by those kinds of people.
I'd be a hypocrite if I said I wanted to be friends with someone whose life and attitude were the same as mine.
What if one of my family members finds out about my relationship with the governor? It made me realize deep in my thoughts that no matter how hard I try to find solutions, it's wrong from every angle.
Everything has loopholes, and every outcome points to one thing; in the end, it would all be Martin's fault.
Our age gap would be so damn controversial.
It's nonsense for anyone to hear that the reason is because of love. No one will believe him; he'll be ostracized, and for everyone's morals, it's really not right.
Sino bang matanda sa aming dalawa?
Siya.
Sabihan na nating nasa tamang edad na ako, pupunahin parin ng lahat ang tungkol sa amin. This would not end easily.
I submerge my entire body in the jacuzzi; the mild, hot water soothes my aching muscles and relaxes my clouded mind.
The dinner isn't over yet, but I leave because I want to. Martin initially didn't want me to, but I don't care.
I'm annoyed with my unstable thoughts.
I dove my head into the water for a few seconds. When I come up, Martin enters. He's still wearing his suit; it hasn't even been an hour since I left, and he's already following me.
Hmmm. Tsk.
Ang gobernador na ito, matapos akong inisin ay susunod sa akin!
I start massaging my arms, ignoring his presence. He approaches me, taking something from the side. He takes a large white towel from the rack and gets another white towel from the cabinet. He folds it and places it on the marble table.
Papansin!
I thought he was going to leave me alone, but Martin loosens his tie, removes his suit, and unbuttons his gray long sleeve.
"What do you think you're doing? Don't you understand that I want to be alone?"
I say it angrily, not minding that he's stripping off his clothes and trying to join me.
Nagngitngit aking mga ngipin sa inis.
"Are you still mad at me?" He seems to disregard what I said.
I can't help but roll my eyes at him, intentionally, period.
When Martin is left with only his watch, I decide to stand up to leave. But he quickly grabs my arm, preventing me from moving.
"Can't you leave me alone?" I retort sharply.
His lips press together as I swat his hands away. His eyes wander over my body, which only adds to my annoyance.
When he tries to touch my damp hair, I quickly move to the other side, avoiding him. But Martin is persistent; he grabs both my arms to keep me facing him.
"You're mad,"
He comments while gently caressing my wet cheek. I return his intense gaze with a calm demeanor.
I can sense his amusement. If he's doing it on purpose, he's in big trouble.
"I'm not angry! I'm just annoyed at what you did! What if your sons or nephews heard instead of Greta?!"
Pasigaw ko ng sabi, pero siya palunok lunok lang habang tinititigan ang mukha ko!
Kaibigan ng mga Kuya ko ang kaniyang mga pamangkin. They would tell my brothers about it. His sons won't hesitate to inform my cousins. Hindi sa ayaw kong ipaalam, buti sana kung isiwalat niya pananagutan ako at hindi matatawag na kabit!
Kaso hindi eh, he said it for his own satisfaction, his ego, and his pride. Kaya paano ako matutuwa at hindi maiinis sa kaniya.
"You know perfectly well that now is not the right time. We'll be separated, and I-"
My rant is cut off as he presses his lips against mine.
Fuck you!
It's a quick smack, yet it urges me to seek more.
Ang likod ng kamay ko ang pinangpunas ko sa aking labi ngunit dahil tila nangiinis ang gobernador ay hinalikan ako nitong muli.
"Come on, why don't you join me for some fresh air? It'll help resolve our argument."
Diyan siya magaling, alam niya kung paano ako amuhin tuwing ako'y ginagalit o iniinis!
He loosens his grip but still holds onto me as he pulls me out of the jacuzzi. Neither of us is wearing anything, but I don't care as we head to the huge glass window.
I hesitate for a moment, causing his arms to almost envelop my entire body as he lifts me out onto the expansive balcony.
We both step out, and the cold wind of Taiwan blows upon us. "We'll freeze, Martin. Are you even thinking?"
I sarcastically remarked, which elicited a chuckle from him.
"Body heat, love." He continues to chuckle, his vibrations transferring to my body as I lean against him intentionally.
It makes me scoff; he has so many tricks up his sleeve, and I always give in!
I feel his broad chest, muscled arms, and the big guy between us as I feel the warmth engulfing my cold body. It's alarming to admit, but I feel a heat rising within me, needing to be extinguished.
But for some reason, I feel safe and at ease.
Who cares if we are both naked near the skyscraper? It's us against all the odds in this world.
The only problem would be if some idiot took a picture of us. Martin seems to know what's on my mind, so one of his arms covers my chest, while the other one reaches down and blocks between my thighs.
His big buddy was resting in the center of my cracks. It went well with my buns. The grith and its length match the core of my length, whether it's shallow or deeper. My insides can accommodate his buddy, which is excellently stretchy.
Martin rests his head on my shoulder, swaying our bodies as if a damn classical Beethoven symphony were playing around.
Dinuduyan ako ng masarap niyang yakap. Lalo pa ng ang kaniyang palad ay lumapat sa aking impis na tiyan, humagod paibaba.
"I know. It did upset you, but I was determined to formally introduce you to my family. I'm aware of the consequences, and I'll take responsibility for it." I feel his warm breath on my neck.
I take a deep breath, unable to respond immediately.
Parang piniga ang puso ko sa narinig. Nangati ang magkabilang gilid ng aking mga mata. He must not be fooling me; I'm not guilty, but I'm a sucker for damn promises.
Pinagparte ang aking hita bago sumuot ang nakapag pa pikit sa akin ng sobra. He traced the outer line that weakens my knees.
Bumuga ng hangin, sinusubukang ignorahin ang galaw ni Martin. He's wet-humping me while also playing with my small bud and wet core.
"Are you ready to go to jail for me?"
I don't know why, but it naturally travels to my tongue and crawls out of my mouth. We're on the top floor of the hotel; it's chaotic down there, with colorful lights passing by quickly.
Hindi malayong mangyari, maraming tutol kung isasapubliko o pamilya man ang aming relasyon. This would break my parent's heart and his family's too, but I'm also determined to be with him until the end.
He tightens his hug around me, sniffing my neck and licking my throat occasionally, and sometimes his lips brush against mine.
His big fingers find their path, and I will probably tremble and shake both of my legs later as his sinful fingers hit that spot.
"Even if you don't ask, I would. I would even die for you, Arsinoe," he whispers.
Nanginig ako sa narinig.
Nang magkaharap na kami, ilang pulgada ang layo ng aming mukha, nakakatuksong bigyang tuldok.
He put my arms on his shoulder, which I moved onto his neck.
Halos mangunyapitako sa kaniyang braso nang ilang ikot at hagod sa loob kumawala ang kanina pa nito hinihintay.
Nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil walang pakundangan na dinilaan nito ang tatlong daliri na sakin ay galing. It's coated with my essence, yet he sucked it like fucking honey syrup!
"I just love you so much. Ang lahat ng pag-aari ko, pag-aari mo rin ng buo." Umiling ako. I turn my body to face him. I was shaking my head upon hearing his powerful words.
Natigil ako sa paghinga, hindi napaghandaan ang sinabi nito.
It's as if something is stuck in my throat, making it hard to swallow. "You're unbelievable." Hinihingal kong sabi.
Ayoko ng yaman niya; he himself is enough for me. I only want him, not his wealth!
Ibig bang sabihin nito... ang itinutumbok...
"No, Martin. Why are you scaring me?" Itinapat nito ang hinlalaki sa aking labi, napatigil ako sa pagsasalita. Despite the dimness, I saw his sincere smile.
Nakaramdam ako ng takot, imbes masiyahan, dahil oras na magalaw niya ang alin man roon ay magkakagulo.
What would his family think of me?
He's not just giving me access to his wealth! He's giving me his rights to own!
"Hindi kita tinatakot. Matagal ko ng naayos ito at walang magiging problema."
Hawak ang kaming palad, masuyong hinalikhalikan ang aking mga daliri roon. Nakatingin siya sa akin, pinapanood ang bawat reaksyon na aking ipinapakita.
Oh, he's a beautiful, manly creature. Ewan ko ba, kung bakit parang nawiwili si Martin habang nakatingin sakin ngayon.
Kanina pa lusaw ang kung ano mang kinagagalit at inis ko sa kaniya.
"I'm neither good nor right enough for you. I'm not a perfect man; perhaps I'm not even gentle, yet you let me love you in a way that I can. So what's mine is also yours-property, cars, money, jewelry-name it Arsinoe," he said while caressing my cheeks. His big arms were on my waist, holding me as if I'd be gone on his arms if he didn't.
"It's all yours. Love." Ang malaki at may kagaspangang palad nito ay masuyong dumausdos sa aking balikat.
Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi, nakaramdam kasi ako ng lungkot. I want to burst into tears because I don't think I deserve it.
Wala akong interest sa sinasabi niya, pero sa pagmamahal talagang ayaw ko ng may kaagaw. Gusto ko sa akin lang, dapat ako lang mamahalin niya.
"Those are just materials, Martin. It's you, your whole being, physically and emotionally. It's only you I wanted to have," I said emotionally.
Suminghot ako, napangiti nang makita ang pagkislap ng kaniyang mga mata. Dahil palagi niyang sinasabi sa akin, na ako, sa akin lamang niya naramdaman ang totoong pagmamahal.
Hinaplos ko ang makapal na kilay ni Martin pababa sa kaniyang pisngi. Hindi na alintana ang pananakit ng leeg sa pagtingala dahil sa sobrang tangkad niya.
He blinks away the tears in his eyes.
I cupped his face and kissed him like there was no tomorrow.
Malapit na
-typemehard.
