My Promised Lie

Chapter twenty one

Chapter twenty one

Once I got home I heard my phone begin to ring. I ran over to it hoping for it to be Jake. I looked at the screen to an unknown number. I decided to answer… It still could be Jake.

“Hello?” I asked, hopingly into the phone.

“I heard what happened are you okay?” It was a familiar voice. It was Andrew. He had spoken to me once. At the party, it was the first time he had ever spoken to me.

“Uh, Yeah, I guess…No.” I blurted out, I tried to keep it buried inside, no one needed to know how I was feeling, they would only judge.

“I’m coming over” He said before hanging up.

Mum wasn’t home, she knew that the prom would go late and I would go back to Jake’s so she went out with the girls for the weekend. I sat in the corner of my bedroom staring blankly out the window. I couldn’t even think about what I was going to do next. The ding of the doorbell made me jump, I stood up and looked out the window. I couldn’t bring myself to go downstairs and answer the door. But before I knew it there was a knock on my bedroom door.

I walked over to the door and slowly opened it, peering through the opening crack. It was Andrew.

“How did you get in my house?!” I shrieked.

“I picked the door lock, don’t worry I locked it again” I stood holding the door open for him.

“Where did you learn to pick a lock?”

“Uh, something he picked up” I could tell that he didn’t want to talk about, but then again I didn’t want him here anyway. I wanted to be left alone, no one needed to know me, not anymore.

“Alice?” He said softly, he stood in the doorway, look intensively at me but I wasn’t planning on doing anything. I slowly moved my head off the spot on the floor and towards him.

“Why?” He asked.

“You don’t know what it’s like...” A tear begins to fall down my check. As I continue more follow, “To go all your life being unnoticed. Feeling like no one cares or would notice if you were there.  Then for once someone comes up to you and acknowledges that you exist. It was all I wanted to exist to more than just my family.  What was I meant to do, I needed that feeling, and it’s not possible for a person to go on living without it.”

He walked closer to me, he held his arms out. I dropped by head into his chest. The night got darker, Andrew and I spent the night talking, I cried a few times, he would just hold me in his arms and tell me it would be okay.

“What’s going to happen?” I asked lifting my head from his chest and towards his well-sculpted face.

“I don’t know, but for now nothing” with that he stood up and left.

I grabbed my cell phone off the desk and dialled Jake’s number. After the third ring he answered,

“What Alice” He said in an annoyed tone, like I had been calling him non-stop.

“Jake, I’m so sorry, I never meant for it to end like this…” He soon cut me off.

“Like what? Me knowing? How far were you going to take it? Huh? Play with the naive boy’s heart. Let me ask you a question was it worth it?”  With that he hung up. I stood by my window, watching the rain fall down the glass. Leaning against the wall I let myself slide down. “Was it worth it?” I repeated, whispering to myself. My phone rang and brought me back to reality. I answered it as quick as I could.

“Hello?” 

“Alice? Jake called me” Andrew’s voice was so comforting yet it made a tear of sadness fall from my eyes.  He could hear my pain.

“He said that he doesn’t want to talk to you, I convinced him to. He said he’ll meet you tomorrow night but…”

“I don’t want to” I cut him off, there was nothing I could say to undo my mistake. It was my promise that made me mess up. My lie. My promised lie.