Split Personality

Split Personality-89

"It is indeed our fault sister to make you marry that bastard!" Sailaja's face was full of anger. "I can understand your feeling. I can understand how difficult it is to live with a guy who gang-raped you with other guys. But we have thought about only ourselves, not you."

Charita did not say anything, leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes. She forced herself to think in a different way after coming from Rose. Whatever has taken place, has taken place and that could not be changed. They have been compromised and she became the wife of one of them also and that too could not be changed. What was the benefit in feeling only anger and distress all the time?

"What you are thinking sister? Don't remain silent like that, I cannot bear it." Taking her sister's both hands into her hands, Sailaja said.

They both sat side by side on the bed in her bedroom and talking in themselves.

"To be frank, I don't know what to think either. I am thinking what to think now." There came a small smile onto the lips of Charita.

"After a very long time I am seeing you smiling sister, I am just happy." Sailaja also smiled. "I am seeing a little change in you and I cannot understand what really has got this change in you."

"Dr.Rose, talking with her put me into some thinking dear. Really I am in very much confusion and when I said I am thinking what to think I just meant that."

"Why confusion? Did that psychiatrist make the matters even more complicated for you?" Sailaja knitted her brows together.

"It is not so, she made the matters easy for me and she asked me to see the thing in another angle also. Her saying like that appearing reasonable but seeing the things in the way she said is becoming difficult to me. That is why I am thinking whether to think about what she said or not." Charita relieved her hands from her sister's hand and put them in her lap again.

"If you say to me what she said to you I shall tell you whether you should think about what she said or not."

"She asked me to see sex in a positive angle. I have to see even the sexual affair those guys had with me by force, in a positive angle. I need to think that they committed that mistake just because of unbearable urge and pardon them."

"What type of psychiatrist she is?" Sailaja angrily said. "How she can ask you to do it like that? If she were in your place, can she do it in such a way?"

"I don't know whether she can if she were in my place but I am not seeing too much of wrong in her saying so." Sighing heavily with a small voice Charita said.

"I just don't know what you are talking sister!" with a confusing expression in her face Sailaja said. "It seems that you shifted all your confusion into me."

"We have been relieved from a lot of burden because of that incident, are not we? My marriage has been performed with a suitable guy for which we need not expend any money at all. We need not bother about your and our brother's education as those people have given lot of money also to us. Otherwise we used to feel worry very much how to fulfil these obligations as our dad's salary is quite low, is it is not?"

"Of course, that much is true." Sailaja said. "Just because of that whatever happened on you is a right thing! Those bastards must have been jailed or hanged for what they did. We were compromised and did not let it happen, that was indeed a mistake on our part."

"Sexual urge at that age is very much in boys and when they found me in such a vulnerable condition, they just could not control themselves." Charita said "Even after getting benefit by their gang-rape, why should we feel angry like that on them?"