Split Personality

Untitled Part -127

"You want me to be frank with you and I want you to be frank with you sister. I tell you everything and then you can give me your verdict. But I want a peaceful talking in between us both with comfortable positions in the chairs, what do you say?" for the first time looking straight into the face of her sister, Sailaja said.

"Alright then" this time Charita slumped in the chair in which Sailaja sat before and Sailaja took the opposite chair to it in which Charita sat before.

"For a long time and even now also sex is a sin in my opinion and however much strongly I felt for it, I did not dare to have it with a guy even I have plenty of chances. I don't know how it has taken place, why suddenly that much of urge I felt but it happened while I was all alone with my commerce lecturer in his home. At that moment he was all alone as his wife went to her parents' home to deliver her second child. He is a handsome guy and almost all the girls in the college loved him and liked him even there was no chance to marry him at all. When we both were all by ourselves in his home......"

"He took advantage of you. He raped you then but you were also with urge cooperated with him and later on it continued like that." Charita became angry.

"I promised to be frank with you and I will be frank" however much unbelievable what her sister was saying her genuine expression convinced Charita what Sailaja saying then was true. "It was not from his side. He asked me to go home immediately. But I myself advanced and asked him to do that to me and in fact coerced him doing that to me. That is mainly because my friend said that experience with an experienced guy would be far surpassed the experience with an inexperienced guy. She was absolutely right! I never regretted that and for the first time I came to know sex would be that much pleasure-some."

"You shameless girl! You need to feel ashamed to talk like that!" it was angry outburst from Charita.

"Feeling shame for what? For speaking out my true feelings? What's wrong if a girl satisfies her sexual urge in the safest way possible? Why it has not been considered as wrong if a boy has sex with girls before his marriage? How men satisfy their urge with other women even after their marriage also but no one shows a finger at them but if a girl does it like that she becomes despicable to her own family." Sailaja became angry.

"Oh, my god! I just don't know what to talk with you." Charita nodded her head with a helpless expression in her face.

"Sister" Sailaja dragged her chair near to Charita and took her both hands into her hands and squeezed them gently. "I know the gang rape like that on you on that day changed your way of perception of sex and your feeling about it. But it is not that much bad! Feeling sexual urge is as much common to a girl as it is to a boy but getting it satisfied is not as much easy to a girl as it is to a boy. I did not feel regret when for the first time I satisfied my urge with him and at later on occasion also. But there is no such chance to me now and I cannot have it with him like that just because his wife came back with her second newly born baby and she is worse than hawk."

"Now you are in searching for another guy........" shocking Sailaja to the maximum now there was a small smile on the lips of Charita "........to satisfy your urge. I know once tasting like that it becomes quite unbearable to anyone. I just wish you best of luck."

"Sister, I cannot understand!" there was shock in the face of Sailaja then. "May be I heard it wrong! I am mistaken a change in you now."

"You are not mistaken my dear! You heard it right and the sudden change in me is surprising to myself but not without reason." Charita sighed heavily sand said. "To be frank I came here to reprimand you if my guessing has come true. But after hearing you, after taking my own experience into consideration, the change just happens. As you have spoken your heart frankly, I want to be frank with you. I think being frank with the closed ones, give us peace!"