Nothing without you[Nickloon]

Chapter 7 - snowflakes

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Balloon pov :

Page after page, it was just about me being a manipulator in the past and that I can't be trusted. Why do people still not believe I changed? Everyone did, actually.. except Nickel, sorrow and anger run through my veins as I grip on the pages, until the very last one.
Nothing good was written about me.
I felt soggy tears run down my face. The more I looked, the more tears came out of my face.

I thought he changed, I have enough.
Enough of everything that he's ever said to me.
Everything he DID to me.
But somehow, I still love him, I felt cold, and nothing sparked at the moment, I need to end things, I can't be with him anymore. I'll feel more pain each time I'll see him, but I need a damn break from him, why can't he fucking accept the fact I changed.

I got up from his bedside as I looked towards my side table. The confession note was still there. Without thinking, I grabbed it. Angry tears ran down my face as I rushed outside.

There I see Nickel, my heart started to pound. But, what's the point? The guy can't even believe I changed!

Nickel pov :

I stood out in the cold breezy night as I waited for Balloon to come back to me, I flinched as I thought of Balloon as I heard him call out my name.

"NICKEL!"
He seemed out of breath? Did something happen?

"Balloon calm dow-WAIT ARE YOU CRYING!?"
I watched him as his tears rolled down his face. He looked mad.. but why?

"Dont act like YOU DIDNT DO SHIT!"
He just-did he just.. what is happening?

I stood in silence as I peirced my gaze into his eyes.. he looked.. sad..

"Balloon, what happened? You're acting weird."

"JUST SHUT UP! WHAT DID I EVEN DO TO YOU!? I APOLOGISE AND APOLOGISE BUT NOTHING WILL EVER FLOAT YOUR BOAT WILL IT!?"
He yelled

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN!? WHAT DID I EVEN DO I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU RIGHT NOW!"
I blurted out

"You know."

"If i knew I wouldn't be asking."

I could feel him grip his fists even tho I was looking directly at his eyes. What did I do!?

Suddenly, he grabbed my face with both of his hands. He looked at me one last time before kissing me on my lips, my heart pounded, I didn't have time to react, it felt so long but ended fast. when he pulled away he looked at me coldly.

"Suitcase was right about you, I can't believe I ever fell in love with YOU."

My breath stopped, I felt like I was gonna faint, I felt a sharp pain in my heart as I tried to hold back my tears, my face was going red due to me holding back my tears.
Why.. why did his touch feel so cold this time?

I looked at him as my vision got blurry, my mouth felt dry as I could feel tears start to form, I swallowed a huge lump just to not cry.
He suddenly grabbed my hand and slammed something in it. His hand didn't give me the warmth like it used to, my breath became unsteady as I saw him walk away then dash out of my sight.

Why did this feel so painful, I looked down at my hand and noticed a nostalgic green diary. Didn't I use this back in season 3? Before the friendships I made with Balloon. 
FUCK.
he didn't know this was old. Why couldn't i just throw this away.
I look down as I see a paper in my hands, with a beautiful carnation (my 1st fanfic ref, btw)
The more I read the more I started to realise
It was a love letter. Why did this have to happen? Why couldn't I just throw this dumb book away.