Nothing without you[Nickloon]

chapter 17 - Un-sure

I felt NON-unsure writing this because i knew exactly what i'm doing.😈

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Nickels' pov :

I'm heart wrenched as my whole body was shaking, I ran and ran until I found my room. I entered immediately and shut the door and locked it as I slid down with my back onto the door.

I cover my face with my hands. Why did I do that. Why did I have to fucking do that.

I just want to cry, I feel so hopeless, I can't even show my face to anyone know. An egotistical brat suddenly turns into an introvert how inconvenient.
I rub my eyes, knowing I'll have a chance to cry later. Right now, I just need to get on my bed, but for some reason, as soon as I got up, my legs just froze..huh..?

why..?

No matter how hard I tried, my legs felt like they got a frostbite, damnit! I'm gonna collapse if I don't reach my bed on time.. why can't I move?!

I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my chest.

Why.. why can't I move.?!

No matter how hard I tried, I kept remembering that day.. nothing could bring me to forget it, i don't want to remember! I dont care about it anymore!

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Please...

"Just let me move already!" I yelled out in desperation. 
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I can't..  do this.. anymore..

My breath is becoming slower, I try to breathe as much as I can, but I immediately felt my knees hit the floor, I let out a small grunt as I start crawling towards my bed.

Each movement I made the more I was getting drowned away, why is this happening? I just want to go to sleep and forge about everything..

My breathing becomes unsteady the more I try to reach my bed.

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I can't..

P-Please..!

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I almost reached my bed, but right then, and there I could feel my eyes doze off, not another breath let out. 
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Balloons pov :

I rub my head a bit, I don't know what to do now, maybe if I had some company it would be great.. I'd have anyone to be with me right now.. well, other than knife..

I let a sigh out as I see someone opening the door..? I try to take a peak, but nothing, maybe I should speak up.

"H-hello.? Anyone here?"

*woosh*

Something ran right through me, I let out a gasp as I suddenly started looking around, m-maybe it was just the wind.?

Suddenly, more air smashed through my heart as my eyes widened in fear. Oh god.. is someone haunting me right now?!

Another bash of wind hit me like a truck, I let out a yelp as I tried to talk to the person doing this.

"H-hey! W-who are y-y-you?! Show yourself!" No reply, the silence scared me as I started looking around even more.

"C-come out!" Im shaking horribly. What is happening?!

I suddenly hear ruffling sounds fr9m the distance of a dark, shadowy place of the clinic.

"E-eek!" I let a yelp out.

*ting*

"W-wha- oh.." I suddenly felt from being scared to becoming calm.. all because of that crystal candle carries around..

wait..

"C-candle!?" I yell out as I hear her giggle.

"Seems like you felt unsure about your surroundings due to all the ruckus I made." She stated in a soothing voice.

"O-ofcourse I'd be unsure! You scared me." 

Her presence became closer as she grabbed my hands.

"Now, now balloon.. just feel like you're at peace within your world.."

I let out a breath as I gently close my eyes and start to imagine.. well.. anything I want!

Definitely not Nicke-

"Now.. tea kettle advised me that you were having some problems with Nickel?"

I quickly snap out of it as I look at her, I suddenly feel some sort of guilt for tea kettle.. she's putting pressure on herself just to see me happy..
Oh wait, I should answer Candle. 

"O-oh yea..I guess.."

Candle takes one of my my hands as she slowly starts to read my palm. She's good at doing stuff like this.. sure, it freaks me out, but it's impressive, to say the least.

"It seems to me that.. you still love him.. don't you?"

My eyes widened a bit as my cheeks flushed red.. nah nooo, I probably don't... do I?

I give candle an unsure look.

"I get that you don't know why you feel this.. but you should do what's best." She replied.

"And that is.?" I slightly raise my eyebrow.

"Tell Nickel how you truly feel."

I immediately jump back.

"And let him hurt me again?! No.. I don't wanna feel heartbroken again..!"

I couldn't help it.. whenever I feel like I should talk to Nickel about it.. I just.. I just remember the past.. I just dont wanna feel that way again!

"Hmm.. you two fought? Over what?"

My eyes suddenly widened as I remembered that day.. I hated it.. alot.. I just can't say anything right now, I'm not ready yet..

I looked at Candle as I felt like she realised I didn't wanna be reminded about how I felt after the fight.

"You dont need to tell me anything.. but.."

I sit silently as I let her continue.

"You should tell him.. before it's too late. it's not best you keep it hidden in you. We always have fights amongst people we love.. even if we are closer, then we think.." 

I guess she has a point..

"Well.. how was it for you and silver?" I questioned. 

I heard a candle giggle a bit before talking.

"Oh silver.. he has a high ego and is super bossy.. but he has something in him that he dosent wanna show.."

Let me guess, kindness, I don't think he has it either.

"But if you look deep enough.. then maybe he can trust you like he trusts me.." She replies.

"So if I just try spending more time with Nickel.. I'll understand why he did that.?" I said in a bit of a mumbled tone.

"I dont know what you two fought over, but yes.. there's always a meaning behind everything.. you just need to search."

Huh.. I guess she does make sense for once.

"T-thank you candle! Tell tea kettle I'm sorry and I have my thanks to her too!" I say as candle, let's go of my hands.

"I sure will, dear." She says as she exits out of the clinic.

Maybe.. I can try to talk with Nickel!..

Just when it's the right time..

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Uh, im posting this at 2:28 a.m., and I will fall asleep right now, I only stayed up this late just to write this