Nothing without you[Nickloon]

chapter 10 - oblivious deep ends

Balloon Pov :

feeling heavy with a heartache. Nickel, the one I loved, the one I could trust, the one I thought that CHANGED! wrote nothing but hateful stuff about me in his diary and hurt me alot, luckily, suitcase made me feel a bit better, but... I got mad and said things I shouldn't have. It's been eating at me ever since.

I snapped out of my trance as I followed a path. Back at the hotel, i ran into OJ, who was actually looking for me for some reason.

"Balloon! There you are!"
Oj spoke.

"Something wrong..?"
I was unsure of why he'd want to see me out of all people.

"Did you and Nickel get in a fight by chance?"
He raised an eyebrow at me as the last started flooding through my head.

"Y..yea.. why do you ask?
I replied back hesitantly.

"Gosh, I don't know how to say.. basically, Nickel was crying, and he wanted a room change, IM here to inform you that your new roommate is Box."

My eyes widened as I heard Oj speak, Nickel really didn't want to see me now, why.. why does this hurt so badly, its worser then finding out about his diary, I gripped onto my thoughts as I looked down, trying to cover my face, I felt horrible.

"I'll just leave you to think about this."

I could feel a pat on my shoulder as Oj left, my face still facing downwards. Was I too harsh? I made Nickel cry, and now he doesn't wanna be roomates with me.

I quickly went upstairs as I covered my mouth, I knew it was starting to heat up, I was on the verge of tears. I gripped the door handle and opened it, hoping Nickel changing rooms was all a dream.

There I see on the bed, Box.

I quickly shut the door as I started to cry. This is so overwhelming. Why.. WHY! why do i still have this dumb crush on him? Why do i even miss him!? Why does he keep hurting me? Why can't anyone answer me!?

More tears escaped my eyes as I fell to my knees, I faintly sobbed as I coughed out. My stomach is burning. I feel my breath get shakey the more I cry.

That time.. when we hugged.. why does it feel so painful to think about it now, I hate this. I hate myself. I hate HIM! but i can't stop thinking about him..

I covered my eyes with my hands as more sobs of hurt came out. Why couldn't I feel better about this, I stood up to him, right? Why is it more painful!?

Before I knew it, my eyes shut, making me fall asleep.

I opened my eyes and rubbed my hands on them, I looked around to see that the sun was coming up, and my remaining tears were still on my face.

I take my hands off my eyes as tears gush all over from my cheek to my chin, I looked at my hands, they were shaking, my whole body was shaking, the more I tried to take out big breaths the more I eished I stopped breathing.

I looked at Box before getting angrier by the second, I needed to calm myself down, and I wiped off my remaining tears as I unlocked the door in my room, I wwlked outside to look around the hallways, a quick walk wouldn't hurt right?

I walk downstairs to see no one, I guess nobody wakes up at this time.
I walk outside of the hotel to look and admire the hotels seaside. I still didn't feel at ease. All I could remember was him, I don't wanna say his name. I know how much i miss it.

I stretched my back out as I walked closer to the river. It was pretty deep, I didn't know how to swim since I used a floaty.

I looked below at it and saw my reflection, I looked tired, but I had a feeling to look closer, I inched my head down as.. I saw a familiar face in the water.

I got startled as I saw my face turn into Nickel. He looked emotionless. Why can't he leave my mind

Just get out.

Get out.

Get OUT!

GET OUT!

GET OUT!

JUST GET OUT!

"GET OU- AH!"

*water splash*
Lost in my thoughts, I find myself drawn to the edge of the lake. Its tranquil surface calls to me, offering a brief respite from the turmoil within. But as I step closer, my foot slips on the wet grass, and before I know it, I'm falling.

Panic grips me as I hit the water, the shock of the cold stealing the breath from my lungs. I thrash and kick, fighting against the currents that threaten to pull me under. But the more I struggle, the more I realize just how powerless I am against the forces of nature.

oh god.. this wasn't supposed to happen, I tried holding my breath until I remembered I couldn't swim, I started to tear up, I dont wanna die, I'm scared of death! I can't die like this!
Please, anyone, JUST PLEASE SAVE ME!

my teardrops came out as i felt my mouth opening, I'm gonna faint, I feel so dizzy, I was about to shut my eyes before I felt someone splash in the water.

(Have a sketch bc I'm not taking any more time finishing this)

N.. Nickel!?

I felt his touch on my hands as he grabbed me by my waist and hugged me tight and quickly swam back up, my face heated up a lot, wait no, I can't think like this. Not in a moment like this.

Nickel pov :

Reaching Balloon, I grab hold of him and pull with all my strength, guiding him back to the safety of the shore. He coughs and sputters, gasping for air, and I feel a surge of relief, knowing he's safe.

"Nickel-."

But as Balloon tries to speak, I cut him off, my own emotions too raw to face. Quickly, I help him to his feet and hurriedly retreat back to the hotel, locking the door behind me.

Inside, I lean against the door, my breath coming in ragged gasps. Tears prick at the corners of my eyes as I try to process what just happened. Saving Balloon felt like the right thing to do, but now that he's safe, I'm left with a whirlwind of conflicting emotions.

Part of me wants to stay and talk things out, to finally confront the truth of what's been tearing us apart. But another part of me is afraid, afraid of what Balloon might say, afraid of what it might mean for us, afraid of facing the pain that lies beneath the surface.

So I do the only thing I know how to do in moments like these – I retreat. I bury my feelings deep inside and lock them away, hoping that maybe, just maybe, someday we'll find a way to heal the wounds that divide us. But for now, all I can do is wait, trapped in the silence of my own making.

I soon fall face front on my bed, I want to stay isolated, I'm too ashamed to go out with the shit I cause.
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Ermm! What the sigma ;-;