Nothing without you[Nickloon]

chapter 19 - what I need to do

Heyo, enjoy :3

(Def no angst!! Not click bait!! )

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Nickels' pov:

Wha-what the.? Where the hell am I? I rubbed my face as I tried to look around my surroundings. Everything was blank, and I could hear people talking, but they were all blocked out, I felt sweat drip and drip from my face for some reason, it was warm but not in a good way.

I blinked a few more times as my vision came back to help me be aware of everything, I could hear laughing and a cutesy voice following it.

I rubbed my eyes again, and it sounded like Balloon. I missed that laugh.

I looked up to see Balloon, laughing by my side, he was in front of me,unaware of anything..

How.. how Wait.. where-how.. huh? How the hell did I get here, I was in my room a few minutes ago, and why is Balloon laughing with me.? What is going on..?

For a moment, I paused and stared at Balloon. He laughed with such a high voice, but for some reason, I found it cute. Watching him laugh like that made my heart flutter, just to see him happy

It.. made me feel.. Nice.. does..does he even know this?

He felt like he was just enjoying his time with me, just like how we used to, I missed this.. a lot, I'd hate to see it go, I couldn't help but smile a little. His cute voice and his adorable laugh just made me feel something I havent felt in a while.

Suddenly, I could feel my hand move forward, closer to his face, I wanted to hold him again, to just gently touch his face while I had the chance, I never want to leave this moment.

My hand got closer and closer to his face, and my fingers were shaking as he just looked at me with a warm smile.

My hand was at the peak of his cheek, he smiled at me again, I just wanted to grab him and hug him, I hurt him alot, I just want to make things right, I'm not ready to loose him, I can't loose him.

My hand felt close.

Balloon disappeared as my touch landed on his face. My eyes widened in shock, and as I stood there in fear, I stared at my hands, shaking. My breath was getting unsteady as the whole place around me turned dark.

I started to shake even more, and it reminds me of our relationship now. Why does this keep happening to me!?

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Who am I kidding? It's all gone, Balloon's gone because of me, I can't gate him for that, I wish I could just tell him why it is so hard to.

he's gone.

He's gone, and he won't ever see me the same.

I can't even remember myself.

I don't want him to hate me. I dont want to lose him. Why is it so frustrating.

I closed up and hugged myself into a ball, forcing tears to stay inside.

"H-huh?" I mumbled out.

I was there on my bed, breathless, shaking, and drowned in sweat, it felt exhausting, I was tired yet I wasn't in the mood to sleep, my body felt numb as I tried to catch my breath as hard as I could.

I keep getting dreams about him, I can't keep grieving over this, but whenever I try to stop, it always has to come back to haunt me.

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