Nothing without you[Nickloon]

Chapter 12 - love proof potion

You guys really thought I'd make a happy chapter?

Yes, I would sadly.

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Nickels' pov :

I get out of bed as I rub my eyes open. It's been a long day for me.. and maybe balloon since he almost drowned, Jeez, I need to let loose of him.

I hear small taps on my window, I get a bit scared before getting up to check, I slide my legs off my bed as I slowly got up, I had no motivation to, it was the taps on my window that annoyed me.
I open my curtains slowly as I realise it's raining outside, with foggy clouds that made me feel overwhelmed.

It reminded me of Balloon, on how I could've made things better if I had just spoken up. Why couldn't I just say something!? Even though I can say something right now, my guts pull me away from him.
I decided to leave my room to check how the hotel would be doing.

For some reason, it felt hollow and quiet, and it was kind of alone, I didn't like the feeling at all. It feels so weird, like I'm in someone else's mind.
I rub it off thinking someone might be downstairs, I go downstairs as I look around the hotel.

Empty, nothing at all, damn it! Where is everyone? I question myself as the rain grows louder and the hotel feels dimmer.
I look both ways to see nothing. Maybe they're all still asleep, hopefully..

"Nickel.? Is that you..?"

I hear a familiar high-pitched voice call my name as I quickly look back, I look at Balloon as he stares at me in concern and worry, I suddenly get under confident  to talk to him, not because I'm afraid.. ok, maybe a tad bit, but my heart is pounding even harder now.

"Nickel, where.. where is everyone?"

My expression slowly softens as balloon genuinely looks worried, I guess he can't find anyone else either. god, why did you have to pick him up to be alone with me..

I have to speak up, I at least need to try.

"I-uh..uh.. I don't know. "

I stuttered under my breath. It's been a while since that day. Thinking about it sends a knife through my heart, I hope he just doesn't talk about it right now..

I hear him let out a sigh.

"Why not look for them together?"

My eyes widened at the sudden task, he's seriously asking me..? How could he..?

How could he even look at me and say that.

"Nickel, are you okay?"

"Oh-sorry.. I'm fine, uh yea, let's just go look for them."

He gives me a soft smile, which makes my heart flush, I would hate to see someone like him hurt, I wonder if this could make things better..?

I feel a grab on my hand as Balloon makes me walk with him to room after room, I blush slightly, I miss this a lot, I miss hanging out with him..
I glance at Balloon as he gets more worried by the second, I guess finding no one is pretty scary. Maybe I should lighten up the mood.

"Hey, don't worry, maybe they just left orrr something..?"
Confusion ran off my voice.

"But where would they go!? Without us!?"

I could hear the fear in his voice, clunching my heart in. I take a deep breath.

"Hey, calm down, either they're still in their rooms, or they're just outside."
I say.

"Maybe they are still in their rooms..heh.. sorry, I got a bit worried."
He says as he rubs the back of his head a bit.

I stay silent. Does he still wanna talk with me, or does he just wanna go back to bed, I can't think straight, I don't understand if he still wants to talk with me.

"Nickel, wanna go outside..?"

"Huh?"

I'm confused. He actually wants to hang out with me..? Does he still.. no, no, he doesn't. I need to forget about it... but I can't let it go..

"The rain is fun, let's go cmon!"

"Oh..-!"

I felt a grab on my hand as I got pulled outside. It was pouring, the sky was dim, but it was beautiful, I couldn't help but feel relaxed at the moment, even tho im soaking wet.

"Woah!"

Balloon let out a gasp as he looked at the rain. He looked so un-bothered, even tho he was with a person like me.. I couldn't help but stare at him.
Does he still like me? Why is he acting so strange? Why can't anyone answer these questions!?

I just wanna say something. This is so overwhelming. Why does it hurt so much to remember that day.. why is it so hard to get over it..

Balloons pov :

The rain looked amazing. It smelled good, too.. I hope Nickel is enjoying it, although he doesn't like me, I feel guilty about what I told him last time, if only I had a chance to have an actual conversation with him, would we still be in the same position we are right now?

*sniffle*

Huh..? Is someone crying..?
I look behind and see Nickel sobbing, wait.. He's crying!? Why is he crying!? Is it because of me!? Did I mess up again!?

"N-nickel..?"
I stutter out.

"How..?"
He asks.

"How what..? Is something wrong?"
I hoped the answer would be anything but me.

"How can you still like me after what I did!?"
He blurts out.

My eyes widened as I stayed quiet.

"After what I did?! How.. HOW CAN YOU STILL SEE MY FACE AFTER EVERYTHING!?"

I watch him cry harder, a shiver went down my spine.. he-does.. does he feel bad for me..? How can I still see his face after everything..?
The rain started pouring gently. It felt like we were in a dream, and I knew that this was my only way to make things right with him.

I smile gently.

"Nickel, I can still see your face since I know it's still you, although I still don't understand why you had to write that about me in your journal.. I'm just glad you took the chance to come with me outside.."

I grabbed his hand as my fingers wrapped around his. Slowly, tears started falling out of my eyes. It felt nice to let it out, especially with Nickel by my side, I still loved him.. after everything.

"But.. but.. I hurt you enough! Why would you still like me!?"
More sobs came out of his mouth.

I smiled softly as I held his hand in mine and looked directly into his eyes.

"Yes, it hurt, but after everything, I still love you..  and I can't let you go! After all, we live for the sake of dying someday.. If we can just talk it out.. could we go back the same way we were in the past..?"

"Huh..?"
Nickel let out more sobs.

I couldn't help but grab his hand and hug him with the rain pouring on us. Even if it felt cold outside, he was the one who could give me warmth in my heart.

"Balloon..?"

"Yes, Nickel?"

He smiled at me as he chuckled with more sobs coming out of his eyes.

"Thank you.."

*fade*

Huh..? Where the- im in bed..?

...

Oh.

That was just a dream.

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Hahaha, L L L losers

I'm dogday and I'm just so sad...
Why do bad things happen to good people like me!
IT ISNT FAIR!
LIFE. ISNT. FAIR!
I'm dogday..and i'm sad.. :/
I just want..to be glad...
I'm dogday.. and im sad...
My life is just..   ..so  bad...
I lost my legs-
-but that's not all!
I lost my friends that's worse of all..
The smiling critters were BFF'S..
But then catnap came and made a mess.../ref