Love Me Again...

Chapter 22: Make It Right

"Damn!" Jimin exclaimed, listening to his somewhat distraught soulmate, "I'm not sure what to say, Bear!" Tae felt like a coward for hiding in Jimin's room especially after everything that happened between Jungkook and him. "I mean before I say anything, why do you think you hesitated?" Jimin gently questioned, "You're both consenting adults. Kook clearly wanted to..." Tae sighed as his mind replayed all that occurred an hour ago. One moment he was pinned against the window kissing Jungkook and the next he was pushing him towards the giant king bed in their room. A few steps later, Jungkook fell back onto the bed, his face registering surprise for a split second before his hand reached up for Tae's hand and pulled him close. In the next instant, Tae was on top of him. Tae had tried to control his arousal as much as he could, but the moment he landed on top of Jungkook, all his control shattered.

Their lips collided once more. Tae's fingers fumbled with the hem of Jungkook's t-shirt, dragging it up and a moment later it was on the floor. His fingers then roughly tangled in Jungkook's hair pulling him even closer. Jungkook swiftly unbuttoned Tae's shirt and slipped it off him as they continued to kiss. Tae instantly savored the feeling of Jungkook's skin against his own, readily basking in the warmth. Jungkook's hands slid down from Tae's face, to his neck, to his chest, to his abdomen and finally stopped at band of his pants. Tae suddenly pulled away when he felt Jungkook's fingers fumbling with his pant button. "Kook?" he gasped as he held Jungkook's wrist. "I want you," Jungkook whispered, gazing into Tae's abyssal eyes. Tae swallowed nervously, too shocked to process what Jungkook just said to him. Jungkook noticed Tae's hesitation and instantly withdrew his hands. He moved away, putting some space between them. "I... need to... to shower," he said as he quickly got up and raced to the bathroom.

As soon as Jungkook closed the door of the bathroom, his tears leaked out. 'What the hell was I thinking?' he thought, analyzing his actions, 'What must Tae hyungie think about me? Am I really that desperate for connection that I forced myself onto him? Am I truly ready to take such a big step?' He turned on the shower to drown out the sound of his sobs. He sank to the floor of the bathroom thinking about Tae's hesitation, allowing his insecurities to cloud his mind. 'Did he sense my desperation? Why did he hesitate? Does he not find me desirable? Is this just his pity?' he painfully pondered. He watched as the steam from the shower fogged the mirrors. As he undressed, he heard the adjoining door shut. 'Tae hyungie's going to talk to Chim hyung,' he realized, 'What is Chim hyung going to think about me? Is he going to think that I'm pathetic too? Is he going to turn into another set of pity filled eyes watching me?'

Tae wasn't blind to the hurt that resonated from Jungkook. He quickly wore his shirt and made his way to Jimin. He needed to talk to his soulmate. "I hurt him," Tae mumbled, shaking his head, "I didn't offer him an explanation. Just stayed quiet. I left him alone in that moment of vulnerability. God! I wonder what must be going through his mind!" Jimin sat by him and put his arm on his shoulder. "Talk to him Tae," Jimin gently advised, "Tell him what's on your mind. Don't make him guess. You don't need to me remind you that he is very sensitive. Stop sitting here with me and go to him." Jimin knocked on the connecting door and when he didn't hear anything, he opened the door and peaked. "I hear the shower so Kook must still be in there," Jimin said as he pushed Tae in the room, "Talk to him. Bear, you're my soulmate but if you mess this up, I'll wreck you. I'm going to go to the spa so don't use me as a crutch. I won't be available for at least 2 hours. That should be enough time for you to sort this mess."

Tae waited patiently for Jungkook to come out of the bathroom. A few minutes later, the bathroom door opened and Jungkook stepped out wearing a bathrobe. Tae watched as he silently took out some clothes from his suitcase and went back into the bathroom to change. Junkgook could feel Tae's eyes on him but he couldn't muster up the nerve to talk to him. A few more minutes passed and Jungkook made his way back into the room. Just as Tae reached for him, Jungkook's phone rang. He answered, 'Hello.' 'Is this Kim Jungkook?' the voice on the phone asked. 'Yes, it is. And who might I be speaking to?' Jungkook replied. 'This is Park Seo Joon. I'm sorry I wasn't able to call you earlier. Will you be available to survey the warehouse around 4?' Seo Joon asked. 'Yes, Mr Park. We can meet you there,' Jungkook answered. 'Fantastic. Do you have a car or shall I send one to your hotel to pick you up?' Seo Joon asked. 'We have a rental, Mr Park,' Jungkook replied, 'We'll see you there at 4.'