Dellings Secrets of The South

Chapter 29

Sakura

The entire way to my room my body felt like it weighed a toned. My feet were leading the way based off of muscle memory, in my mind I was still back in that room. I was still sitting in front of Alastor and looking at Tom who refused to look at me.

The guard behind me cleared his throat as he almost bumped into me for the second time because his long strides were too fast for my heavy strolls.

"Do you want me to stay outside your room?" He asked and I ignored him, walking straight into my room, and slamming the door in his face.

I slid down to the floor.

He betrayed me. And I knew.

I knew better.

Dimitri told me not to tell him, he told me he wasn't to be trusted and I knew, deep down I knew he couldn't be trusted but I looked pass it. I ignored the feeling in my gut just because I wouldn't have done that to him.

If you feel anxious and keep needing to convince yourself that you can trust someone then maybe you can't.

I fucked up. I knew where his alliance lied and I still told him something that would get me killed. I basically put a rope in his hand so he could hang me.

I felt physically sick. My heart dropped to my stomach and all there was, was hurt. Tears appeared in my eyes but I fought them back.

I would not cry

I would not cry

I would not cry but a damn tear slid down my face and from there I just crumbled. Tears just poured down my face like heavy rains and the sorrow drowned all my thoughts. My chest physically ached, my throat felt like it was being stabbed with daggers and the whole time I had to stay quiet so the bastard on the other side wouldn't hear me.

Two short minutes was all I could afford before, falling back to reality where I still had training. I didn't have the luxury to be sad in Southside.No one did.

I got up on my feet, aggressively dried my face with the back of my hand then walked out. The guard was back on my tail after just two steps out the door. I guess he's gonna be my shadow the entire time in training.

"Will you get me excused for being late?" I asked then turned to look at him when he didn't answer. I turned back around while mumbling under my breath "We're not talking I guess."

We stayed quiet all the way to the field and the only relief I got for the day was seeing Travis looking down at two boys wrestling on the ground. I was glad to know I didn't have to fight for my life once again after just escaping death from the General.

Travis looked up at me for one second before his eyes shot to the guard behind me and even if he put two and two together he watched me as I walked to the line where everyone else were looking at me wide-eyed.

"You're late, Red." He yelled out, emotionless.

"I was needed by the General." I answered and simply, idly he nodded. His face looked tired, bored like he would rather be anywhere else. "Well we're fighting one on one, you're up next with Luther."

Luther who I guessed was the boy who gave me a quick glance wasn't that much bigger than me, I noticed. Travis was trying to play fare but to be honest I didn't really care. My mind was not on that field and neither were my emotions.

I was mentally so far away I didn't even notice when the boys were done until someone nudge me on the shoulder.

Travis gestured for me and Luther to walk forward.