ODDS OF LOVE : What You See

Episode 28

Wednesday August 28th 2024

Spencer woke up in their bed with his wheelchair closer to the bed than it had been the previous night when he had fallen out of bed. His husband was also already awake and looking at him with worry in his own dark eyes.

" Good morning, Genius," DuBuis said as he leaned over to kiss Spencer on the lips. Spencer smiled and responded to the kiss. His mind thought back to the googling he had done yesterday. He had found some weird things online about gay paralyzed men having sex but he also had found some rather interesting and very informative things. He had even found a site with some alternative sexual positions for people with limited or no mobility. He still wasn't sure it was possible for them to embark upon but maybe it was worth a shot....... Spencer was scared but he was more scared of losing DuBuis one day over this. 

" Would  you be upset," DuBuis asked," if I called in today? "

Spencer was alarmed. " Are you alright? "

DuBuis smiled slightly  at him and stroked his face gently. " I'm fine. Just very tired. Yesterday..... took a lot out of me. You too I think. Since we have the parent teacher thingy at Luci's school tonight which I know you are dying to go to I just want to stay in today. With you. It's been a while since we just spent the day in bed. "

Spencer wanted that too. He missed cuddling and kissing with this man. But he was still concerned and steadily searched his husband's handsome face for any signs of trouble or distress. " I don't care if you call in. If you need to. If you want to. I just.... I just.... want to make sure you are alright? You.... haven't been yourself lately. "

DuBuis sighed and the sound nearly overwhelmed Spencer an increased his worries. " I know, baby boy. I know. Don't worry. I made a doctor's appointment for Monday. "

Spencer bristled visibly and his eyes widened. " Doctor? You are sick.... Aren't you.... What aren't you telling me? "

" I'm not sick," DuBuis reassured him. " I'm fine. Just a simple precautionary visit. Routine and all. Don't worry. "

Spencer wasn't quite sure he believed that but he tried to fight back his own worried feeling and leaned more on DuBuis's body. He took the man's hand and surprised his husband by placing it on his own genitals that he could not feel or control anymore. He decided to dip a toe in the water so to speak and bring up the subject that was creeping in the back of his head. " I googled yesterday. About sexual relations. You know intercourse. How we can have it even now. " He swallowed intensely. " I think I am ready now. "

DuBuis pulled back slightly and looked at the man for such a long time that Spencer was really starting to get concerned. Finally DuBuis spoke. " No. You are not. I can see it in your face. You haven't been ready for years. Not since that damn date with that creep Skip in college. When we first got married and I literally stuck a finger in your ass you  had a panic attack. "

Spencer flinched over the blunt words. He tried to pull away and DuBuis pulled him back to him. " I didn't have a panic attack....."

" You did , Genius. You were scared to death back then. And you are scared now. I don't know all that happened back then. I don't think I really want to know. But if a finger panicked you what would happen if I put my whole dick in your ass? I wouldn't do it then. And I am sure as hell not doing it now. Why all the eagerness over sex now? My kisses boring you? "

Spencer whispered," No. I love your kisses. " His face flushed red. " I .... I don't want you to leave me! Alright ! I don't want to lose you over this. You liked sex. With other men. Before we got married. I don't want you to realize what you are missing with me. I don't want you to leave. "

DuBuis kissed him on his forehead tenderly. " I ain't missing a damn thing. I love you. I've always loved you. I regret wasting so much time with idiots like Joe Jacobs when we could have been together years ago. I don't need sex. I need you. And I will never leave you. Ok ? "

Spencer smiled faintly at him but deep down in his heart he wasn't sure he really believed it. " Ok. I love you too. I'm just..... scared. "

DuBuis held him close and whispered," Don't be. I ain't going nowhere. And neither are you. We're end game. Don't you know that ? Even your mother and her hit man couldn't change that. "