Breaking Free

Drinks

Lucy's POV:
I woke up in immense pain. It hurt so bad to even get up. I hopped into the shower and washed my hair. Once again, Luke opened the door while I showered. He insisted I show him my bruises.
Luke: I'm sorry babe, you might have to call off of work
Lucy: I can't
having him stare at my bruised stomach and back as i lifted my shirt up for him to see just made me mad. He did this. but it was my fault, so can i really be mad at him? he deserved to be mad at me, right?
Luke: Why not?
Lucy: rookies don't get sick days
Luke: vacation?
Lucy: no vacation days either
Luke: then i'm sorry babe but you'll get through it
Lucy: thanks
I pulled my uniform shirt down and finished blow drying my hair. He watched me the whole time.
Lucy: I have to go now
he was blocking the door
Lucy: come on Luke
Luke: we can be late again
Lucy: your boss just yelled at you
Luke: fine, you can go
i can't believe i just won that. Before he changed his mind I quickly left the house and got in my car. I drove to the station. I was early again today but I didn't notice, Luke usually doesn't get up that early. I entered the break room but Tim wasn't there. I guess he slept in. I shut the door behind me and made a cup of coffee. I drank some of it before sitting down. It hurt my stomach so bad and especially my back. I laid my head down on the table and just sat there thinking. I had my head in my arms to block out the light and hide my face. I heard the door open.
Tim: hey, you okay?
I lifted up my head and looked at him, i couldn't help it and a small smile formed across my face.
Lucy: rough night
Tim: no sleep?
Lucy: you could say that
Tim: was there another fight?
Lucy: yeah, stupid stuff
Tim: you sleep on the couch?
Lucy: that obvious?
Tim: no, you just seem tired and from the way you were sitting, looked like your back hurt
Lucy: yeah um.. just sore
Tim: you were crying again
Lucy: no
Tim: don't lie, your eyes are puffy and if you were fighting, probably tears
Lucy: so why aren't you the detective?
Tim: thanks but don't change the subject. You okay now?
Lucy: what about no personal talk?
Tim: that was clearly in the shop and as Bradford and Chen. Right now, talk to me as Tim and Lucy
Lucy: ok, sure, i was crying
Tim: that bad?
Lucy: it's fine though, it was my fault
Tim: if you don't mind me asking, what was?
Lucy: honestly, i can't even remember. I think it was because I questioned how much he had to drink
Tim: he get drunk a lot?
he said in this concerned tone, i screwed up
Lucy: n-no, it's not like that
Tim: ok
Lucy: it really isn't like that Tim
Tim: hey, i believe you, don't worry about it

Tim's POV:
I really hope it's not like that, and i hate lying to her, but i don't fully believe her. I can't raise suspicions about it or talk to Grey about it because if I'm wrong, i'd mess up the Tim and Lucy thing and the Bradford and Chen thing. It would be awkward on the job and i'd ruin our forming friendship. I stared at her for a second
Tim: hey, you busy tonight?
Lucy: i don't know, i'd have to check with Luke
Tim: well if you're not, me and Lopez are going out for drinks. Feel free to join us
Lucy: thanks, i'll be sure to ask
i get asking if maybe they have plans, but she doesn't seem like that's why she's asking. She's a grown woman, why does she have to ask him permission?

Lucy's POV:
he sat down across from me
Lucy: you're here later than usual
Tim: no, you're here earlier than usual
I checked the time and it said 6:45
Lucy: there's still an hour before roll call
Tim: how long have you been here
Lucy: like thirty minutes
Tim: the fight was really that bad?
Lucy: I don't know. I just like to leave sometimes
Tim: I understand
but he doesn't. As much as people say just leave if you're in a bad relationship, it's not easy. Plus, i don't think it's even that bad. I'm probably being dramatic, maybe this is normal. I doubt this is even abuse, it's just consequences. And, if i did leave, he'd find me and there would be hell to
pay. I deserve the consequences more than half the time anyway. I get he does stuff i don't like, but who likes consequences? that's just... "how i learn"
Lucy: let me text Luke right now about drinks
i asked him saying "Hey Luke, I know you might be busy right now so answer when you get the chance. I was wondering if tonight I could go out for drinks with two of my work friends."
he responded almost immediately. He said, "Who are you going with?"
crap if i say Tim, he won't let me go. But if i lie, he'll no and it will be worse.  "Angela and Tim. I know how you feel about Tim but I'll be mostly with Angela." i responded
"Damnit Lucy. Why do you do this to me? now my anxiety is through the roof and i'm at work" he responded
"i don't have to go. I really wanted to make some friends or become closer with them." i replied
"don't try and guilt trip me! do whatever you want, i don't care anymore! just don't come home drunk or go to his house!"
"i wasn't going to, thank you"
i turned my phone off and looked at tim after sighing
Tim: everything ok?
Lucy: um, he's pissed but said i could go
Tim: i'm sorry, you don't have to go then
Lucy: it's fine, i want to
Tim: ok then
I yawned
Tim: not a lot of sleep?
Lucy: yeah I guess
Tim: if it ever gets too much, you can come to mine, that offer still stands
Lucy: thanks, i appreciate it
Tim: of course
we just kind of sat there for a minute
Tim: why don't you lay down on the couch for the next 45 minutes? i'll shut the door and blinds, i'll leave too
Lucy: thanks, but can you stay?
Tim: yeah sure
i know it seems weird to say this, but something about tim is comforting when he's not in TO mode, like a safe feeling.