Love Begins

39. Adam

"Why are you cryi...?" A pair of soft lips landed on my lips. I was stun and dumbfounded. Amy kissed me. She took the step and kissed me. Well, it peck on the lips, it is considered as a kiss.

Amy runs to the room after kissing me. The corner of my lip twist. A smirk appears. I brought my finger to my lips, where Amy's lips were. Though, her lips stayed for few minutes, I felt them. I am so happy. I might not able to sleep tonight. And I couldn't, the whole night I was thinking about the kiss. I am going crazy now. I just roll on the bed unable to sleep. While my eyes, the memory of the kiss rushes in my mind. 

Unable to sleep, I got up and went out for a run. After that, I hit the gym. Bench pressing, push ups, sit ups, weightlifting. I came back home, which was empty. Break fast was ready on the table. Is Amy avoiding me after the kiss? Is she regretting it? My mood turns bad. The whole day I was in bad mood. Even Dan was scared to speak with me. My mood worsens at the end of the day. She has been avoiding my calls, even my messages.

After work, when I came back to home, the dinner was already served. I can't see Amy in the kitchen. Is she hiding in her room? Maybe, it too much for her. She had told me before she won't be in relation for time being. She want to take time for herself. She want to be capable enough to love. I understand that she wants time. But after last night, it's getting difficult for me. I ate dinner and went to my room. I slept somehow.

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It's been 2 days. Amy has been avoiding me. She not answering my calls, not replying to my messages. She is avoiding me even at home. She always hide in the room. Like she doesn't want to acknowledge it. She regret it. It might be impulsive action for her. I want to talk this out, but she is not giving me chance at all. Avoiding me won't solve the issue.

My mood had been gloomy these days. I have turn back into iceberg. Cold and aloof. Dan has been having difficultly talking with me. I am giving everyone hard time in the office. Me being like this reminded me of my past self, when I started my first business. I used to snap at anyone for making mistakes. Employees who used to or work with me, calls me 'Devil.' I didn't mind, I have ignored it, till now. I don't mess with my work. I need everything perfect. No mistake in term of work.

I had an dinner meeting today. The meeting went well. After the meeting, I went to a bar near my house. I got drunk, due to my moods. I was just drinking glass after glass. Drowning myself in alcohol. Even though I drank a lot, I was still cautious. I have high alcohol tolerance. I walk back home, my step were steady but slow. I walk slowly in the straight line. My vision was getting dizzy. The intoxication hits off.

I make it to the home, somehow. I rang the bell of my own house. After few minutes, the door opens, Amy was surprised. She hasn't seen me like this. "How much did you drink?" Amy asks, opening the door widely, letting me inside. My balance which was steady, goes off. Amy pulls me and help me walk to the couch. I plop myself in the couch. Amy goes to kitchen and brings a glass of water for me. "Drink this." Amy hands me glass. 

"I don't want to." I push her a little. I whine like a kid

"Adam." She tell loudly. Scaring me a little. "Be good. Drink water." 

I take a sip of water and return the glass to her. She place the glass on the coffee table. "Get up. Let me take you to your room."

"No I don't want to." I say like a kid. "I want to talk to you."

"We will talk when you are somber." Amy says and pulls me to stand up.

"No. No." I whine because of alcohol. "I want to talk to you now." I stubbornly say. 

"Don't be stubborn." Amy says.

I shook my head. "I want to ask you. Why are you avoiding me?" 

Listening it Amy becomes speechless. "Was it because of kiss?" I ask her directly. Maybe because of drinks, I got the courage. 

"Why are you not talking? Was it because of that kiss? That you are avoiding me?" I rambles. "You know that kiss meant a lot to me." Amy's eyes got wide open. "You know my heart flutters." Amy keeps on listening. "You have no idea what you do to me. My heart which was cold, started to melt after meeting you. For the first time I felt I am a human, not an iceberg. I am never kind to any one except you. Cause you are special to me. I always want to see you happy and shinning brightly."

Amy recovers from the surprise "I get it Adam. You want me to be happy, right? I am very happy. Now, come on let's go to your room. Please." Amy tells and pull me to stand on my feet. Amy helps me and takes me to my room. She makes me lie on the bed. Removes my shoes and socks.

"Why are you so nice?" I rambles.

"I am not that nice." Amy tell "You should get some sleep. Remove your jacket." I sit on the bed, she helps me in taking off my jacket. "Now, sleep." She gets and about to leave. When I grabber hand and pull her to me. "Adam. Let me go."

"I will let you go. First hear me." I pause. "I....." Pause again. "I...." Again a big pause. "I... think I have a crush on you."