Sunshine

A little at a time

I was finally allowed to walk alone! Or well... 

I turned, looking at the two guards who were following me a few yards back. I sighed and looked around. The place I was staying was some sort of temple? It looks well kept and expensive. 

I leaned against one of the elegantly carved wooden railings that overlooked the garden, a wind blowing the scent of fall over me. It was colder than the last time. I was outside; winter would be here fast. I rested my chin against my palm and watched as the last few leaves in a tree fell gracefully to the ground. I have wondered where my Kakashi was ever since the day I woke. He had been gone. He wouldn't see me yet, and it made me very sad, although I tried to understand. 

I knew my presence wasn't easy for him, and it made me sad to think I could cause him any pain after all this time. I had waited for him so long; what was a little longer? I could have patience as much as I had love. 

The breeze blew, sending my hair spinning behind me. I reached down, taking the long lock of silvery white between my fingers. I didn't remember my hair being so long. I looked at my fingers, seeing that they had also gotten just a little longer as well. It confused me, like everything else these days. I straightened up, feeling a tingling in my hand. I looked down at one of the crescent shapes that had traveled through my past life. 

"You look much better." Kakashi's soft voice came from below in the garden. 

I  cast my gaze down on him, watching him walk through the old and bare tree's. Even in the death called Fall, he looked so handsome. I smiled at him softly, remaining silent. I felt the gaze of the guards looking between us. They made me uncomfortable. 

He looked a little amused and tilted his head, listening to a sound I couldn't dream to hear. He glanced at the guards and narrowed his eyes again, like he had the last time I saw him with the younger guy. Kye was his name, I think. I glanced at the guards; oh, I hadn't even realized it was the same two men. Kye was gazing at me. I quickly looked away and pulled away from the railing, looking at Kakashi. I wanted to see him so bad.

His eyes flicked back at me. He had such an understanding look in his eyes, but I wondered if he really felt how I did. I turned after looking at him one more time to head back into the building. I was cold, and seeing him made me both happy and sad. 

I walked into the new room and wondered around for a bit. It wasn't until I was getting tired and hungry that I turned to the guards and realized they no longer followed me. I looked around confused and started to panic. I had gotten so used to them being there, now they were gone. What did that mean? At the moment, I was in a long, dim hallway not sure on where I was.

"Ah, you finally noticed." 

I stumbled away from the sound; I covered my mouth. I stared into the shadows in horror as Kakashi emerged. "Well, you said you wanted time together." He joked lightly. He then sighed and looked at me with the same pain as before. "How are you feeling?" He asked it carefully.

I hadn't gotten to see the wound yet myself; no mirror was in the room, and the people who changed my bandages wouldn't let me look at it. I was just changed, and I was told I wasn't allowed to do it now. I suppose I was okay. I rolled my shoulder and felt a twinge of pain, but nothing like before. I was healing fast. I silently looked at him down the hall. Did I need to speak?

He let out a huff of laughter. "Well, I do enjoy your inner monologue. It is nice to hear your voice." 

I smiled a little, nervous. I wasn't sure if I could even come near him. "I am alright... I miss you. And I am still very confused by everything. I..." I wanted to hug him and talk to him.