Hidden in the star, book one

Chapter 15 Hello darkness my old friend, And good bye

After everyone carmed a little Sol finally asking
"The letter's I could read, if you won't. Either way there yours."
The class node, handing the pile of letters over to him, Sol asks
"Any preference"
A sea of 'no's' where heard,
so Sol choose one and started
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Sage Keller
Hay Sage, tell Max to hold you tight because your reading this because I'm dead, committed suicide.
I all ways wonted to trust you both, but in my life, my world I can't. I promise when I could I would tell you, but you can't blam yourself for not doing more, even a hero as breave and smart as you could not stop this, it would be like going against gravity.
My mother abused me sence I was 7, I kill my Da, really an accident. This is just my life, never thinking I'm enough, never being enough and being told I will never be enough.
Chained and beaten for lessons of how usless I am, wich I already now to well.
I'm tired, I've lost it all, love, family.
I don't know how to live with this any more, so I'm taking a long nap that I will not wake from
Good bye Sage

Look after those idiots and yourself
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Everyone is crying, some cling to those they trust or love.
Keller and Cooper go straight to Sol, tears in there eyes, and hugs Sol tightly, Keller pleading
"Please don't, we'll get through this together. Just please don't"
Sol cry back
"I'm trying it's all I got to give"
Cooper reply
"That's enough little J"
Letting go but now sitting with sol on the two seat sofa, waiting for the class to calm down a little, Keller looking at his now devastated kids saying
"Hay now I know this feels shitty, but these letters were give to us by the living,
not the dead. Fine comfit in that."
Sol get another letter and starts
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Coco Mayborn and Kerry Adams
I'm doing you together to give you some comfet, you shouldn't be alone.
Oh but how do I start, don't cry?, you idiots never listen to me.
And I'm grateful for that, really I am.
I didn't have freaids before you guys, I didn't won't blood on my hands if they die. Blood of someone I care for, but with you two, there was no stopping.
I've been living a secret life, one were I'm worthless,  it's been years and I don't know so many things, or been given much.
I'm no baby I can look after myself, but mother, she abuse me, for right or wrong reasons, I don't know any more.
But I now when your tired you sleep. I'm just taking a longer one.
Good night, farewell,
I care for you always.
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Coco and Kerry cry, Sol standing said
"Come here you idiots"
Opening his arms and welcomeing them into a crashing hug with no mercy, Coco sobbing out
"Sol we love you please.."
Traling off there Kerry picks up
"Yah man, dead you can't live"
Sol chuckles with a snot saying
"Fucking idiot, Kerry. That's why it sounds good"
Kerry pouting a reply
"Dont be mean you know what I meant"
Sol simply saying
"Sit down idiots"
Turning to Roma, his thered friend that wasn't in the letter saying
"Dont look like that baby, your next"
Roma smiled and nodded.
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Roma Wilson
Roma, baby please don't cry, hmm no more tears for me.
I now you would tell me every star in your sky, I have told you none of mine.
But mine are different, I'm chaind and beaten for truth, that is just fact to me now.
Please I know I said I would look after you, baby don't cry, I would never lie to you. Maybe dodge things about me, but never to you.
There will be a man with papers to sign, sign them Roma. Your safe, you sitting down baby.
I brought you a house, yeh a house.
Just do me one favour, trust Keller.
He will help, believe me baby, it was to late for me, not for you.
If I could I would love you
Sol
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Roma is a sobbing mess, no one dares to touch him now his della is there with little spark flying off him. There's concerns voice around the room that this is going to be a panic attack soon, but with the lighting you can't get near and Keller can't his Della with his state, Sol does bat and eye, walking over and scooping up the sparking, sobbing mess of a boy. Rocking Roma in his lap he asking
"Hay baby, you won't a song?"
Sobbing faint 'yes' is heard so Sol starts singing
'Light a fire, by Rachel Taylor'
After the song, Roma has carmd, eyes closed start babbling 'sorrys', Sol holds a hand up to stop the class stepping in, he doesn't stop rocking Roma in his lap saying with care
"Oh baby nothing for you to say sorry for, hmm. Come on know, no more tears."
Keller walking over, kneeling down and asking
"Roma are you ok, it's ok if your not. I would lose my shit to if I just got a house."
Sol interjects with an confused look
"But you do, I told you didn't I?"
Keller shakes his head 'no' with a worry look, Sol wavering his hand around, Jestering to the house there in and continues
"This, the house it's yours, well was mine, but transferred paperwork. You should get the deeds any day. I would recommend removing the dungeon, but it's a good house."
Keller now in shock falls back on his ass, while his husband takes the news by yelling
"LITTLE J NO! YOUR MOTHER WON'T, THIS HOME WE CANT. WHY WOULD YOU, WHY WOULD SHE, WHAT"
Cooper ramblings cut off by Sol yelling
"DAD!"
Now Max and Keller are back on earth, Keller picked up where Cooper's panic stops saying
"Sol, I would like to say no, but let's start with 'my house' part, why do you have the deeds at 16?"
Davi now in the conversation giggles
"Uncul Micha never stop Sol on anything and age, well he would say,
'age is a number to restrict our children, to make them dumb and pliyaball, not my kid' The house was all way's Sol's, all ways"
Jackson chuckles now saying
"Yah dumb bich think its hers, all of it, but nope."
Popping the P, and smirking looks Keller dead in the eyes
"All yours, but seces I an't dead, I do ask to keep my room tho"
Both chuckles, Keller turns back to Roma asking
"Roma I'm guessing things aren't good at home, your not living on you own tho?"
Roma shakes and nods with a small
"With perants"
Keller counters
"Fine we will rent the house Sol given you, don't freat Roma, I'm not sending you back. But you need to learn how to live on your own. You will move in with us, till you graduate."
Roma
"Oh no please,  if I can come over on holidays, that's more then enough, I know how to be along, please no more, I know how to look after a house too"
Roma back to crying but this time Keller asking Sol
"Can we swap?"
Sol hands Roma over with a wisperd
"it's ok baby"
Roma shakes a little in Keller's grasp before Keller start talking
"So Roma, it a pretty nice name, hmm"
Roma sinking into Keller and humming  before asking
"You...think.."
Rama traling off and shakes a little.
Keller start to Sence what Roma 'home life' is, was, leand forward popping his head onto the boy nestled in his chest continues
"Yeh I do, you now you can ask anything, I would never hit you for it, ok Roma, your my lost boy now, anything you need ok"
Roma whips a tear and nods,
Sol stated talking
"OK now you stay there baby, papa need the comfort.  Next letter."
Turning and walks back to Max and the letters starting
"Wich shit storm next, hm"
Flipping throw and grabing one, before a quiet
"me please"
is heard from Davi.
Sol starts
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Davi Manroe
Davi, oh how do I start when it's all said and done and I'm dead.
Sorry, no, it wasn't my fault, what a load of shit, fuck, Monny.
Please, those words were never for you, never ment to be heard.  Just please wisper to the stars that you never would, never tryed killing yourself.
My heart is the only thing that can stay how it was when I loved you, it was given to you before I became a monster.
I'm twisted and dark, no longer understanding love or affection.
I need to rest now, everyone needs there victom and that's fine, but I can't no more tho, I'm tird of so much.
You will be a wonderful hero
my Monny
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Davi brakes down slideing off his chair and to the floor, sobbing say 'no' over and over.
Sol walks over, Kneeling down and pulled Davi to his chest.
Davi's sobbing go's down and starts to talk
"Sol no, you don't understand"
Taking a breath, turning and facing Sol still holding his hand starts to talk
"Promises you will listen, don't think you know, and don't blame yourself."
Jackson only node's
"I been there yes, once I was going to jump off a.."
Davi get intrepid by the caose of the class saying
'No' 'did Jackson's really tell you'
'Oh Monroe no'
Davi has no time, his mind is on the real suicide guy infront of him.
Losing his temper a little starts saying
"Shut up! Yes he said 'kill yourself' but it wasn't to me, I was just there, but I'm here and Sol, his slipping. If I'm your first poroity, get.out!
Turn back to Sol and continues
"Yes I was on the edge, well fell, not because of you. I was sad, but really. You think an IQ almost as high as yours wouldn't lean to shut up. You were soft towards me"
Shaking his head continues
"I was in a dark place Sol, I was Un-Della. Un-Della have no rights.
I thought it would be better....
but mum call, I couldn't, not after that. I knew I was someone's somthing, and that was more then anything.
I wonted to hear her voice, tell her everthing, but when I went to answer I fell over the edge. I got my Della, I was flouting. I called mum back, she new I tryed something, I said nothing about my Della I didn't wont it to be false, but after that day with him, I new, mum did to."
Sol now crying on Davi's chest, Davi saying
"Never your fault, nothing need forgiveness. You need to see yourself better, my x boyfriend, pissed his pants because of you. Ray Carter's sefsenterd X, broke up with him and disappeared the same day you meet. Sophie Quinn problems, should I go on. All without a heart, hmm, really. Silly Sol."
Sol now snots, then Oliver Murray steps in
"Jackson really loves us, but no one new, about..um"
Let's a tear roll down his face as Carter  jumping in next confused
"What happen to him, my X,
Monroe said disappear?"
Sol shakes his hand saying
"Nothing like that, I have feeling he was in it for fame or money. I seduced him, when I ask 'what about Ray', he said  'oh don't think about him, sweet baby, he won't be #1 like you~'.
So naturally I dislocated his shoulder and said 'two choices I bury you or pay you,
by the way I'm choosing the where or amount, choice carefully', he chooses money."
Jackson shrugs, Carter is shocked, only replied after Coco asked
"How much is Carter worth?"
Carter
"I'll pay you back, I'm sorry you should of just told me"
Sol only replied
"Your not paying me, I knew he would take the money, there were conditions and demands I put on the money"
A soft voice came from Sophie asking
"What did Davi mean?"
Sol is silent, Davi nudge him, and he sighs awnings
"I pay him $5,000, to fuck off, not to come after anyone from class A, ever. Or I would be taking options one as a yes"
Now looking at Sophie, state's
"As for you, I'm your pay out"
Quinn Gasps and start crying,  Sol let's go of Davi moving to Quinn, Softly saying
"Hay, it an't pity money. I'm just helping you out till you making your own, ok?"
Quinn jumps up and hugs Jackson and him retuning that hug tightly.
Staying like that for a moment before Liam Murphy asks, more like think out loud
"Jackson, I'm lost?
Are you straight, gay or bi?
Probably polly, yeh I understand know."
Giving a form nod, but Sol now out of Quinn grasp and is on his knees laughing.
Shakily try to say through giggles
"Li..am., you dumb shi....t..need more.. people..fuck...ing..skills..ya"
Stopping and taking deep breaths before continuing
"I'm not in a relationship with this idiots, I'm bi, yes, but nothing else."
Liam tilted his head asking
"But you called Roma 'baby' and"
Jesters to the group
"Your so..close to them?"
Sol chuckles stands up and says
"Let me teach you something Murphy,
come here!"
Sol wave his hand for Murphy to join him, when he's standing infront of Jackson he steps forward wrapping his arm's around his neak asking
"Put your arms around me, how ever you wont, anywhere"
Doing as asked, more cruise then anything. Once in a snuggled portion, Sol asked
"Now do you won't me, won't to fuck me?, hmm, do you?"
Liam silent for a moment before answering
"No, not at all, but it's, I dont know the right word, like a good book, hmm, good maybe?"
Sol counters
"Nice?"
Murphy replied
"Yeh, nice, thank you"
Parting from each other, Sol wonder over to the letters once more and starts again
"OK, Sophie your next"
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Sophie Quinn
Hey, you get your own letter because there's no other way to say it. I'm paying you, your bills, the school, the house. It's not out of pity, your worth it, you need to be apart of this world.  Your needed here, you will be a great hero, so the payment will continue, even after my death.  They will go intill one year after your graduation.
Look after yourself
Sol Jackson
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Quinn burying her head in her hands and sobs saying
"I'll pay you"
over and over.
Jackson stop her, saying
"Stop, just stop, it's fine. It's an investment nothing more. If you won't to owe me something fine. Call me Sol, and we're even, ok"
Quinn node's, and said
"Sol, yes of course Sol.
Thank you so much, please Sofie, Sol"
Sol smirks and continues
"OK so last, hmm"
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Class A
I'm dead, don't worry if your reelaefd,
am an ass hole, I know.
If being everyone's monster was a race,
I would have won a long time ago.
I don't won't your pity's, even in death.
If I was capable of love, most of you would have it, I tryed to give you what I could. I've lost the meaning for frainds and family,  Idiots was fact, nothing more.
My own lesson in life were hard,
harder then hard.
The villains, did nothing life had not given me already, what mother has teached me. So when I yelled, cridasided without mercy and showed you coldness.
It's was me making sure you were stronger enough for this world.
The world that even I can't survive in.
Good bye
Look after each other
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The class is back to crying, keller sill holding Roma saying
"Ok kids let's take a break. Who won't bubble tea?, my shut"
A sea a of sniffing 'yes' and 'please' are heard, keller turns to Cooper
"Max, make an order for me please"
Cooper reply happily with
"Yep, bab"
Walking off to make the order,
as Roma ask
"You said I could ask anything right"
Keller node's, and Roma continues
"You and Coop are, um.."
Keller never ashamed of his relationship, just not an open book reply
"Married, yes. Two kids and you lot"
Sqwizing Roma adds
"And one lost boy"
Roma chuckles and nods, then most of the class let out
"WHAT!?"
Keller hair flying up calmly states
"Is there a problem?"
Sofie being opley gay quickly replies
"God no, it's just, he's loud senpie!!"
Liam shrugs saying
"Your sunshin, to you everlasting storm cloud. I get it, it may be late, but congratulations!"
Cooper now back in the room hearing Murphy's comments smiles and replies before Keller
"Of Sage, your right. This bunch of kids are special!"
Keller smiled and replied
"Yeh, thanks Liam"
Everyone settled into small talk awaiting there drinks, Keller was even court smiling softly at Sol.