A Sealed Warrioress' Diary

Ablaze

Dear Jesus,

Cool wind whipped across my face, sending my hair flying backwards in a fluid dance. My eyes soon began to sting as I fought to establish my bearing. I felt like I was an arrow that had been shot at a target or a smooth stone that had been propelled from a slingshot. The sensation was oddly familiar.

Then, I realised, this was how it always felt while riding Angel's Wings. The only thing was that I couldn't exactly see or hear if this means of movement was a power bike, wing, horse or what have you.
Sensing no form of immediate danger and subconsciously knowing this was a dream, I relaxed and allowed myself to relish the experience.

And where else will be the destination than the one place I have low-key neglected visiting for such a long time that I feel embarrassed? Yup, the GWW! As my zapping through space and time slowed and I was gently tossed to the grassy carpet, a wave of nostalgia hit me. It took all the restraint in me to hold myself together as I waited for what was to come next with bated breath.

The quality of the place was indeed dreamlike. I could see every intricate detail on every green leaf, could feel the warmth of the ray of sunlight streaming down through the slits in the thick canopy overhead, could smell the heady scent of wet greenery.
However, everything was too still. The normal sound of the woods and the faint trickling of the nearby stream was absent. This felt like the calm before the storm.

I gingerly ran my hand over the moss-covered wall, smiling at the squiggles of my writings on the surviving white paint of the wall. Then You came.

"Hello, my Radiance!" You said from behind me. Your voice... It gave me the feeling that someone was tickling the underside of my feet with a feather. As I turned to face You, I started giggling like a child. I was simultaneously crying as I made the brisk run to you. We really need to work on my emotional outbursts whenever You're in proximity to me, Lord.

You wrapped Your arms around me. Your strong sturdy arms absorbed every iota of pain and confusion that clung to my heart. I felt the release, the peace pooling over me as I let go.

You planted a soft kiss on my forehead. My cross seals felt like they would shoot laser beams with how crazily they were tingling. I held on tight to You and inhaled Your familiar heavenly scent. I honestly didn't want to disengage from this divine embrace.

"How has my sealed warrioress been?" You asked.

I smiled up at you through glassy eyes and said, "Now that You're here, I'm perfectly fine, Lord."

Your response was a warm smile that I felt to my toes. "Radiance," You called, like a patient parent teaching a toddler to walk, "How many times do I have to remind you that I never leave?"

"Well, when bombs are going off everywhere I turn and all I see are scary demons out to destroy me and those around me, it's hard to hear Your voice or fix my eyes on You, Lord."

"Look at me," You said softly and raised my chin. "I know. But that's when Your love is proven, Radiance. That's when it burns brighter."

I snuggled into Your chest and sniffed back the tear that was already stinging the back of my eyes.

"I just wish it's always like this. 'Cause when You're here with me in this tangible way, Lord, I feel like I'm on top of the world."

"You're already on top of the world. Seated right with me in heavenly places. You're not just a warrior. You're already more than a conqueror."

I took a moment to soak in Your words.

"And John? Will he be fine?" I asked in a quick whisper.

"Funny of you to ask that, Radiance, when it's not only him who was attacked."
Was that a knowing smirk on Your face?