Holiday With My Neighbour

24. Rage

Savannah's POV

I can't believe what I'm hearing. Adam seriously let Theo in to collect his things? After everything I've been through? I feel my heart rip out of my chest.

As tears stream down my face, I scream as I lunge towards Adam, attacking him. "How could you?!" I barely manage to say through the heavy lump in my throat.

Adam attempts to restrain me as he grasps my arms, holding me still. "I'm sorry, Savannah. I didn't know he was going to-"

I pull myself away from him, shoving him back with a forceful push. "Don't fucking touch me!"

"Why?!" I scream at Adam with fury on my face. "WHY?! Why would you do this to me?! Fucking why?!" I can't breathe, the air feels thick. 

I raise my fist to punch him, but he holds it in place, fueling my anger even more. I pull away with frustration. "I hate you! I wish you were dead!" I spit out.

Why do I have him as a brother? Why is my life like this? Why am I alive?

I stagger into the kitchen, panting as I grab a large kitchen knife. 

"Woah, put that down, Sav." Adam says while keeping a safe distance.

I place the tip of the knife against my chest. How do people go through with this? How do they stab themselves? It doesn't look this hard in the movies. 

I think I need to shut my eyes and do it.
Count down from three and do it.
Don't think about it and do it.
Do it, Savannah! Just do it!

"Rosanna, don't go any closer." Adam says with caution as Rosanna approaches me.

She ignores him and stands directly in front of me. "I know you don't want to do this, girl." She says calmly.

"I... I want to." I say between my panting and tearful sniffles.

"It's unbearable what Theo did and what Adam let him do. It's abuse, and you don't deserve this. But please, don't let those monsters win. You can't go. I don't want you to go. I can't lose you."

I tighten my grip on the knife harder as more tears stream down my face. "I don't know."

She holds the side of my arms gently. "I'm here for you. I got you. You're going to be okay. Give me the knife, then I'll take you home. Keep you away from the bad energy that's here."

Her soft brown eyes give me slight comfort. I give her the knife, and she places it on the table before pulling me in for a hug. 

I cry on her shoulder as she rubs my back. After some time, she keeps her arm around me as she starts walking towards the front door.

Adam starts to speak. "Sav-"

Rosanna cuts him off abruptly. "No! Don't you dare say a word! You've done enough already." She declares firmly before continuing on her way. 

When arrive at my house, my mom answers the door, her face filled with immediate concern. "Oh, baby, what happened?"

"I'll take her to her room first, Auntie, then I'll explain everything." Rosanna decides, which I'm grateful for as I have no energy to speak to anyone.

She guides me to my room and pulls back the covers on my bed. "Please get some rest. Don't worry about your shopping, I'll bring it over." 

I crawl into bed, burying myself under the covers. When I hear Rosanna leave, I let out a muffled cry as I cover my mouth with the blanket to hide the sound. It hurts so much. Adam knew what I was going through. He saw it all, yet he still did this to me. And Theo, why can't he leave me alone? He knew the roses were going to hurt me. He put them on his bed to show that Rosie will always have his heart. She was his first love, after all.