Green, White, and Blue ~ A KotLC tale...

˗ˏˋ39: Dex'ˎ˗

I don't know exactly when it happened, but I started losing feelings for Tanner. Don't get me wrong, he was a great guy, funny, smart, I just couldn't see him as more than a friend anymore. And yeah, part of it might be this other wonder I have my sights set on, but also feelings can change. I knew there was nothing wrong with that, and I knew Tanner would understand, I just didn't want to ruin our friendship.

Psh, of course it was going to ruin our friendship, I just jinxed us by saying that. Although, I still wanted to let him down easily. I was even hoping he was feeling the same way. Really, really hoping.

I'd never been the best at breakups, they always tended to hit me harder even when I was the one breaking up. Jolie had been a natural heartbreaker, so we were exact opposites in that case. Granted, she'd been in love with Brant since she was five and they'd met at the pet store. They both wanted the same hamster, deciding to share it. Honestly, it was the cutest meet-cute ever, but that's besides the point. Brant was the only one on her mind all of her life. Whenever any boy asked her out, she'd reject him without hesitation. She didn't want some random boy she didn't know when she could just keep the boy who loved her the most.

Sometimes I wish I had someone like that, someone I've known was the one all my life, but I've also enjoyed getting to have different relationships, different crushes. I just hated the part where it ended.

I had asked Tanner to meet me at the park. It was pretty big for the quaint kingdom, and very pretty and green. It would've been an easy, peaceful place to break up with somebody. Until it rained of course. So instead we met up at my house. My dad was at work and my mom took the triplets to hang out with their new friends somewhere, so it was just us there.

I didn't want to lead him on, I wanted to get straight to the point. The only problem was, I didn't know how to start the conversation.

"Listen Dex, I need to talk to you about something." Tanner looked over at me from his spot on the couch next to me. I hated to admit it, but I was crossing my fingers hoping he was about to say what I was going to say.

"Yeah, what's up?" I could hear the hope dripping off my words, but I hoped he couldn't.

"I'm sorry, but I don't think we're really, uh, working, I guess? I don't know, but I think we would be better off as friends. What-"

"Oh thank God!" I hadn't even realized it was me who shouted until Tanner looked over at me confused. Oopsies.

"Um, what?" He looked slightly hurt. Doubles oopsies.

"Sorry. Uh, I feel the same way and I'm really bad at breakups, so I'm just happy that you said it first I guess. I didn't mean to get so excited though."

Tanner just smiled. "I should've guessed. No offense, but you are way too awkward to be able to break up with someone." Now I was the one smiling.

"I probably should take offense, but you're right. I've never been good at breakups." When we locked eyes, I almost regretted what was happening. We hadn't been together for long, but it was one of my best relationships. My first relationship with another guy. I almost didn't want it to end, though I knew it had to.

The silence afterwards was pretty awkward. We both looked everywhere except for each other.

"If you want, can I get you something to drink?" I asked, hoping to break the newly formed ice.

"Nah, I think I should probably just go. Thank you, though. You're a great guy." He smiled as he got up to leave. The thing I hate most, his smile was genuine. Even though I wanted a breakup, I felt like I just got rejected. I mean, I just asked him if he wanted something to drink but still. He said no and walked out the door.