Malfoy | Draco Malfoy [Book1](Unedited!)

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I feel the absence of his presence, a void in the quiet room for the next few days. I know he's most likely avoiding me due to the events of that night, but it still stings. I sigh and stand up, stretching the tension out of my body. I make my way to the bathroom and start the shower, the hot water helps to clear my mind.

Despite the heat of the water cascading over my body, I can't shake off the images from that night, the heat in his eyes, the intensity in his voice as he spoke about his own desires. But despite the desire he stirred within me, the image of Draco comes back, the memories of our relationship flooding in and I feel the guilt.

Stepping out of the shower, I wrap towel around myself. My eyes falling onto the bracelet on my wrist, my stomach twisting as I think of Draco, I removed the bracelet putting it inside the drawer of the bedside table.

I feel conflicted, a part of me is relieved at the absence of Draco's bracelet, while another part of me feels like I'm torn between the past and the present.

Between Draco and Nicolas.

No matter how I try to deny it, I can't shake off the undeniable attraction between Nicolas and I. The thought of him makes my heart flutter while the memory of Draco leaves me with a bittersweet taste in my mouth.

The realization that I'm attracted to two men at the same time is confusing and conflicting. With Draco, there's familiarity, comfort, and...love?— or rather there was. With Nicolas, there's excitement, intrigue, and a forbidden allure.

The two men couldn't be more different - Draco with his blond hair and icy grey eyes versus Nicolas with his dark hair and piercing green ones. They have completely opposing personalities; Draco with his easy charm and witty repartee, versus Nicolas with his guarded demeanor and sardonic wit.

But one thing I'm sure of is that Nicolas loves his brother, even if they try to make it seem like they hate eachother.

As I finish getting dressed, I find myself lost in thought. My heart is split between the two brothers, each one stirring different feelings within me. I don't want to hurt Draco, but I can't ignore the connection I feel with Nicolas either.

How am I supposed to make a decision that feels like a betrayal either way?

For the next few more days, Nicolas didn't visit the cabin, and I felt myself falling back into the void again everytime I tried to go to sleep

With each passing day, my thoughts consume me more, the lack of Nicolas' presence leaving me feeling even more lost and alone. I try to distract myself with anything possible, anything that will keep my thoughts occupied, but it's no use. The memories of him haunt me, his image burning behind my eyelids and everytime I tried to sleep I fell into the void.

I toss and turn, my mind racing at hyper speed. I try to clear my head but it's no use, the silence in the cabin only seems to amplify the thoughts echoing through my head. Memories of happier times with Draco and more recent memories with Nicolas flicker through my mind, taunting me with nostalgia and longing.

In a moment of vulnerability, I feel my eyes fill with tears, the loneliness in my heart almost overwhelming. I let out a sob, the sound echoing loudly in the empty room. I feel pathetic and weak, sobbing over the absence of a man who doesn't even want to be near me. But the hurt and the emptiness is too much to bear, and for a brief moment, I let myself give in to the tears.

But as the tears come, so does the shame. How can I feel so low over a man who clearly wants nothing to do with me? Yet, the pain is almost overwhelming, and I can't stop the tears from flowing down my cheeks. The silence in the cabin is suffocating in its absence of comfort. It's lonely.