'Cause You Make Me Feel

Take Off The Damn Sweat

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Lena's POV

I was very surprised that Stef asked Mariana if she was okay with me adopting her. I was surprised but damn... my heart warmed up into my chest like nothing else when Mariana agreed.

Last year I was alone fucking every girl that dared look at me, and now... now I have a girlfriend and two children... Life is crazy and quite surprising sometimes, but I wouldn't change it for the world because a family is all I have ever wanted. I dreamed of it, I cried so many times over it, and now that I have it, I'm beyond happy and excited, and well... terrified, but I won't let that get the best of me, I'll instead use it to do and be my best for the three of them.

It's been a month now, and Stef and I already got the paperwork for the adoption on the go. We have to wait for a few things because a judge needs to look into it, but we just know it will work out, because apparently Stef's ex-husband didn't have any family, and since Stef gave her approval for me to adopt her children, it should go pretty fast.

I don't think Mariana really get the process of an adoption, but she just knows that it means that I'll be her mother and that for her is more than enough, and honestly for me too, even without the adoption, I would have considered them as my children anyway. But I admit that it's comforting to know that I'll have legal right on them as well. It will be much easier when I will need to take them to the doctor, pick them up for school or things like that.

Now Stefanie Marie Foster... that woman I swear, I'm more in love with her every damn day. First of all, she makes love like a goddess, I can't get enough of it, she makes me beg which no one had ever been able to do, she makes me scream out of pleasure, and she makes me weak and needy, and I love it so damn much it's insane.

I want to marry her so damn bad though... I mean I know she said it was too soon, but I'm sick of waiting, it's like I've been waiting for her my all-damn life, and now she's asking me to wait again, for God knows what. I mean I understand, and I will wait for as long as she needs, but it's killing me because I love her, I don't need to know more than that, I love her, she's the mother of my children, and she loves me.

Now all I need it's put a damn ring on her finger to make it official and to have the honor and the pleasure of calling her my wife...

But I'm scared she's going to feel like I'm rushing her, I don't want to rush her. I'm just so damn excited and happy that I want everything all at once, but I get that she's a bit more hesitant.

"Lena, can you take Jude please? He needs to be changed." I hear Stef coming up behind me as I was at my desk at home doing paperwork, before she literally puts the baby in my arms.

"Oh, but you just changed him like ten minutes ago." I say for I heard her into his room, changing him, because when she does that, she sings to him, and I can't get enough of earing this sound.

"Well, he needs to be changed again." she insists as I frown my eyebrows a bit for something is a bit odd.

"Can't you do it? I desperately need to finish this, babe." I say for I've been working on this for hours, I'm almost finished and if I stop now, I'm going to lose track of what I'm doing which will piss me off a lot, and since it's Stef's day off, I figure she could do it instead.

"No, I can't. I want you to do it." she says, in such a weird tone. I mean it wasn't aggressive, but it was firm and insisting.

"Why? What's happening baby?" I ask for Jude is not even crying and believed me, he screams his head off when he wants us to change his diaper.

"Because I'm asking you to. Can you just do it already... please?" Stef says, almost getting upset and she was so damn weird right now that I was completely taken aback.