'Cause You Make Me Feel

Come Closer

Lena's POV

Making love to Stef last night was the most amazing experience ever. Accessing to the most private part of her, being inside of her body and making her shake in my arms made me fall more in love with her than I already am. She felt so damn good, she was so soft and warm and just the smell of her skin when she started sweating a little... Oh God... I could have done it all night long.

Her moans are still floating into my brain as I slowly wake up, smiling at the simple fact that Stef is still peacefully sleeping in my arms.

I look at her, each line of her beautiful face and I find myself smiling at the sight.

"I can feel your eyes on me." she mumbles with a sleepy voice, still not opening her eyes, making me smile wider and my heart race.

"I plead guilty." I simply say for there was no way I could deny it.

She turns around to face me and finally open her soft yet so intense hazel eyes. She smiles at me and grab my hand, slowly bringing it to her mouth to kiss my fingers, as I just watch her feeling my heart die over how sweet that was.

"Come closer." She whispers as I smile and put my face just a little closer to hers on the pillow.

"Closer..." she says softly as I now press my forehead against hers, feeling so good being close to her like that.

But then... she tried to kiss me.

"I... I'm sorry..." I say, pulling away, not too abruptly because I didn't want her to feel rejected for that's not what this is at all. The truth is I want to kiss her, I really want to which doesn't happen that often, but... I can't.

"You fuck me, but you don't want to kiss me?" she asks, a bit confused but still very softly as I let my head on the pillow, facing her.

"I don't... I don't know how to... to explain... You're going to think I'm weird." I say, feeling so bad at that moment because I don't want to freak her out.

"Our whole relationship is already weird. I mean, I moved in with you the very first day that we met. And they are things about me, that you don't know yet, that you'll probably find weird too, or... even worse... what I am saying is that... I'm your friend, you can tell me anything." She says so softly that I was feeling a bit better.

"I... when I sleep with someone, I... I never kiss them, or... or let them touch me the way I touch them..." I try to explain to her as she is listening, no expression of confusion in her face, she's just listening.

"So you... you never..." she tries to ask to see if I ever have an orgasm with someone.

"No, I did, but... just with one person that I was really in a relationship with. But... you know, all these women that I slept with... I just... I just make them feel good, one night, and then I don't see them a second time. This way I... I don't have to... to explain this..." I say, chuckling awkwardly at the end as Stef just smiles at me, as if to say that it was okay, that she wasn't judging.

"Can I ask why you do that?" she says softly.

"I... I don't really know. I guess it's too... too intimate for me. I just don't do that with people that I'm not in a real relationship with. I don't want... I don't want anyone too close to me in an intimate way... I'm sorry, it's weird. And it's unfair, I mean, you gave me access to your intimacy and other women has too, yet I... I can't give you the same and I... I'm sorry..."

I say as I lay on my back now and look at the ceiling instead of looking at her in the eyes because what I just said used to be true, but with her... it's not the same, I'm already in love with her, but I know she sees me only as her friend.

"Hey, look at me." she says so I face her again.

"Lena... yes, it's a little weird, I'm not gonna lie. But if that's your boundary, then it's your boundary. I will respect that, Lena." she says making me confused for, how can she accept that?

"Stef... that mean that I... I won't kiss you, I won't let you fuck me, and if... if what we did last night happens again, I... it will be just that, me fucking you, and that's it, do you understand?" I make clear though I'm lying on a point, I didn't fuck her last night, I was making love to her, I wanted her to feel loved just as much as I wanted her to feel desired.

"I understand, love. I admit that... it will need some get used to it, because I... I will feel bad that you make my body feels so good, and that I... I won't be able to give back." She admits as at that I stroke her face and smile at her.

"You don't need to worry about that baby. Because when I make you cum, it gives me a lot of pleasure and satisfaction, I don't need more. Only thing you can do is let me do my thing and let go, because the more you let go, the more intense the moment is for you and also for me." I reveal which is very true. Each woman I made cum over the years, gave me just as much pleasure as I gave them, that's actually why I kept doing it, otherwise it would make no sense. Even if I don't cum, it still feels very good.

"So, that mean all I have to do is cum?" she says, with a silly smile, making it way less weird and also lighter.

"Hum... pretty much." I giggle.

"That sounds too amazing to be true." She giggles too.

"Well, you'll just see by yourself, because I looove fucking you miss Foster..." I whisper, sliding my hand down her arm, in her back to finally reach her ass as her eyes are becoming darker all of the sudden.

"You don't need much to get turned on, huh?" I smile as she blushes a little at that.

"I know... it's the hormones... I'm not usually so needy like last night, I'm... I don't know..." she starts to stutter which I find awfully cute.

"I love when you're needy like last night. Keep being needy baby, because I'm at your service to satisfy all your little needs..." I whisper again, trying to get in her pants once again.

"Mommy? Where are you?" We hear from outside.

"I think my little needs would have to wait." Stef whispers smiling making me sigh deeply out of frustration.

"Mommy is here baby; I was talking with Lena!" she shoots so that Mariana would come in here as we sit up quickly.

I don't want to confuse her. To her, her mother and I are just friend. And the fact is, that's all we are. Just because we have sex together now, doesn't mean we are together unfortunately, I guess that would make us... sex friend, I guess. But I'm fine with that because at least I have her as a friend, and I can access to her beautiful body and make her feel good. When it comes to my feelings for her, well... I'm way too scared to say anything. If she learns about them, and doesn't feel the same, it will make her run away from me, and I... I can't, that would be the last thing I want...