LW2: Twin Mates

Chapter Nineteen - us

RUDY GRACE SILVER

"Ethan. Please talk to me..."

He just stared at me for along moment. Well maybe it was a moment. Maybe on hour. A lifetime. I wouldn't know how much time passed with the emotions flowing through Ethan's eyes. Nothing could prepare me for it. The love, hate, pain, anger, regret, guilt... lust.

I have never before seen so much emotion in one pair of eyes. His beautiful hazel eyes that held so much emotion that had to be let out. Needed to be let out.

"Have you ever wanted to save someone from your own darkness? Even though you know you can't give that person up even if that darkness swallowed them whole?" he asked me.

"Yes."

He recoiled at my words. Hurt in his eyes.

He thought I was talking about someone else. He had no idea how someone could see him when they weren't looking through his eyes.

"You." I add.

He scoffs at my words.

"You ask me to talk to you and I am sitting here opening up to you even if my biggest instinct is telling me to go and hide and you dare mock me?"

"I'm not lying. Why would you think that?"

"You are not dark. You don't have that darkness. You're the light, Rudy. The sun after the storm. You could never damage someone from darkness you don't even have."

The last few words were like a slap to the face. He didn't understand. He never would.

"Be brave." Ellie, my wolf, tells me.

"I wish you could see yourself through my eyes." I say looking at him with a lens I've never looked through before.

He laughs without humor and stands up to walk away.

No. We are not finished. We haven't even scratched the surface.

"Don't walk away from me!" I shout at him making him spin around and glare at me.

When he doesn't say anything, I do. Because I realized it's always been Ethan. Even before when I would subconsciously kiss Carter to make Ethan jealous. or how I would wish I was with Ethan when I wasn't.

"I never know quite what to say to you when you're upset, and it tears me apart that I can't always help you. I want you to know that I am always here for you. That if you fall, I will always be there to catch you. And if you ever feel lonely in the middle of the night, I'll be there to talk to you. I want you to know that I'm aware of all you're pain and sadness you have and that I'm willing to help you carry it. I want you to know that I love you and it rips my heart apart to know that you're not happy all the time. I cared about Carter deeply Ethan, I do want you to know that, but I also believe that everything happened just as it had to so we could be here in this moment. Together."

Tears were falling down his face again and he stood there for a moment. Looking at me as if I wasn't real. Then he strode over to me taking my face in his hands.

"You love me?" he asks.

My own tears were falling down my face and my chin was trembling, but I nodded, nonetheless.

"And about this so-called darkness of yours, I've never been afraid of the dark." I add.

He smashes his lips to my own and we fall backwards onto the bed.

His right hand is tangled in my hair and the left is caressing my face.

We tangle into one another. Hearts beating as one.

I pull my shirt off and go back into kiss him, but he stops me.

"I don't want you to think this is all I want. We don't have to..."

"Ethan. I want to. I've wanted to since the moment I walked down those stairs and seen you both staring at me like I was some witch or something."

He chuckles, "Technically, I was thinking about how lucky I got to have such a breathtaking mate but yeah that works too." It was my turn to laugh.

We resume kissing and strip off our remaining clothes quickly. Even after our quick laugh all the emotions were back. It was almost overwhelming. This wasn't some quick fling. We were sealing the deal. Becoming one.

Ethan's eyes rake over my body from head to toe before they settle on my eyes. "You are beautiful." I smile up at him.

The feeling of him at my entrance makes me gasp and he looks at me quickly, stopping all movements. I give him a nod of encouragement and he pushes inside slowly.

My hands squeeze his shoulders, and our eyes never leave each other.

He slams into me quickly and I whimper slightly and the pain.

"I'm sorry princess, it'll be over soon. I'm sorry." He kisses my left eye then my right. Then kisses my lips then my forehead. Finally, he starts to move, and the pleasure quickly overthrows the pain.

"Ethan..." I moan, closing my eyes at the sensation.

"Open your eyes, I want to see you." he tells me.

I open my eyes and my heart stutters as our eyes meet. Out of all the emotions from earlier there is only one emotion that I can see now.

Love.