Hey there,I write in you alot but kind been slacking off or ill just through the pages out.You know my names Alyssa R. Martinez the outcast and basically the girl who sits in the back of the class.I never really liked the way I look but its whatever. My parents says that if I don't want help then I can't get better. Man its just bullshit.I want to know if there's any one like me going through similar things. Uh who cares anyways. Ill just act happy. I mean depression and panic attacks rule my life. But I find ways to cope.I don't cut.I drink. Well when ever I can.There's pros and cons to this whole depression bullshit.A con is that I'm fucking depressed so I can't really find the motivation to get out of bed.But I still get out of bed and try to live a normal life. But then again what is normal.There's no right or wrong way to live but we still have standers.A pro is I can sleep all day with out a care in the world. Ill most likely not find a boyfriend but its whatever I've been lonely all my life. I'm kinda wishing I could read a book about my entire life to see where I messed up but fuck it.Well good bye for now.
Alyssa
