Hello,its been really hard this week.I don't really want to talk about it but might as well try.I don't really like people that self harm.I want them to stop.My pain isn't that bad were I want to cut.But I have thought of suicide.Its a phase.Or atleast that's what they tell me.I'm so misunderstood.I dont want attention that's why I'm in the back of the class and don't talk.People don't get it.Its like if I wanted the attention then I would cry in class like all the popular girls do.See I cry in the restroom where no one can know its me.All these people who act like they care about the popular girls who cry wouldn't go to there funeral. But then again no one would come to mine if I died.I'm just a nobody.Nothing.I am no one.I have no one.The urge for a drink right now it like super strong.But ill finish and go get it.There is nothing more in the world that I want then a hug.But who's gonna hug me the attention seeking whore who wears band shirts and does not give a fuck.I don't wish my pain upon my worst enemy.My saddnes will last forever.Or atleast that's what I think.My opinion doesn't really cause I'm a kid.Well off to go poor some drinks.Goodnight
Alyssa
