hey,I'm sorry for not writing.I've just been so overwhelmed lately.I found out her name its alyssa.Has a ring to it doesn't it.She came over.I told her everything.She cried.I didn't mean to make her cry.I showed her my cuts and scars.I told her everything.Everything.She laid next to me and helped me clean up.She held my hand.She told me the most beautiful thing.But not as beautiful as her.She was so sweet and elegant.The way she walked and the way she held herself was so amazing.I watched as she kissed my cuts.It burned but I didn't want her to know that.My eyes hurt I can barely see.She took away all the blades.I've been crying so much that I look as if tear gas went off as I slept.My words don't matter anymore.She made me feel special.As if I'm worth everything.But she doesn't think she's worth everything.I'm a fuck up.I told her I loved her.She just giggled.Ugh vodka to cope and cigs to smoke.I got more today. Finally.Well off to go fuck my lungs and liver up.
Darren
