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Chapter 23 - History

Taehyung's POV

I lay on the bed, unable to sleep, the evening rewinding in my mind again and again. I could still feel her lips on mine. I ran my fingers over my lips, recalling the moment.

I still can't believe I just kissed her.

I kissed Maya.

She kissed me back.

It feels surreal.

The attraction I felt for her just crossed the line to something deeper and more intense. The memory of her touch, the warmth of her body, and the way she looked at me—all of it played over in my mind, making it impossible to find any rest.

I want to touch her again 

I want to kiss her again.

I want her close to me again.

I turned around and took a deep breath.

I just kissed a married woman.

I sank my face into the pillow and closed my eyes.

I shouldn't regret it. It was just a kiss. 

Worries started to flood my mind.

I don't know what worries me the most—is it that I won't be able to control myself the next time I see Maya?

Or the possibility of falling head over heels for her only to end up being heartbroken when she leaves?

 Or is it the guilt of kissing a married woman?

I turned around again, facing the ceiling, trying to think optimistically-

 I'm pretty sure that she won't be able to control herself either. 

She is getting a divorce, so I don't have to feel guilty.

And long-distance relationships are always possible.

I sighed.

Being optimistic is of no use.

She will go, and she won't come back. What if I end up just being her fling. 

Or worse, a rebound.

The thought weighed heavily on me. The uncertainty of it all was suffocating. The fear of being just a temporary distraction was overwhelming.

As I lay there, I couldn't shake the feeling that I was on the edge of something potentially wonderful yet incredibly risky. 

A few days ago, I was ready to risk it all just to be by her side and enjoy the moment. But now, I know my desire to spend time with her has changed.

The intensity of my feelings has grown, and what was once a fleeting attraction has transformed into something deeper and more complex. I no longer just want to steal moments with her; I want something real, something lasting.

I closed my eyes, sinking deeper into the pillow, trying to sort through the whirlwind of emotions. My heart ached at the thought of losing her, but the reality of our situation was impossible to ignore. 

I wanted to talk to her, to ask her to give me a solution for everything. Everything is in her hands.

Because, I am already head over heels for her.

She holds the key to our future, and I am ready to follow wherever she leads because my heart has already made its choice.

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I woke up early, and the first thing I saw in the morning was Aria.

I had intended to use this time to sort things out with Maya, to gain some clarity on everything that's been on my mind. However, with Aria's unexpected presence, I feel compelled to set that aside for now.