My Life

Chapter 23: Confusion and Hurt

I decided to go home with Jayden. Jordan or Vince didn’t really bother me for the rest of the day but they sure did stair at me. Everywhere I went, every step I took I felt their eyes on me. The one who was scaring me the most was Vince. The way he stared at me gave me chills. I wanted to hide under a rock. I couldn’t tell Jayden though. I already got him two broken ribs I don’t need to hurt him more.

I felt a finger snake its way under my chin Jayden turned my head to look at him. “Babe are you okay?” He asked. The car was stopped at a red light.

I smiled, “Yeah fine” I lied. It was the only way Jayden wouldn’t get hurt. It was sad enough Jayden and Jordan are cousins and they fight like that because of… me. Now I have to worry about Vince and if Jayden is related to Vince I don’t know what I’m going to do. His eyes searched mine. I didn’t know if he believe me or not but he kept driving until we got to my house.

“I don’t want to go inside” I whined pinning Jayden against his car. I couldn’t believe today was the first day of school and Jordan and Vince are already harassing me 

He laughed, “What are you doing?” He kissed my nose. I scrunched my nose. “I love it when you do that”

“I love you” I laughed.

Jayden pulled me into a hug, “I love you too Scars” I felt safe in his hugs. Like no one can touch me not Jordan not Vince. If he ever let me go I would cry.

“Scarlett come in here! I want to know about your first day!” She yelled. “You can come in too Jayden” But I guess sometimes hugs have to end. He let go of me and reached for my hand. I smiled grabbing it. We walked into the house and sat in the kitchen.

“So?” My mom asked. Me and Jayden looked at each other.

“It’s the first day of school, it’s a Monday what do you think?” I laughed. Jayden laughed also. My dad narrowed her eyes at me.

“Jayden how was your first day of school?” She asked.

Jayden smiled, “It was good” I laughed, suck up. After a little while my mom let us leave and we hung out in my room until a good show came on so we went down stairs and cuddled on the couch. I smiled looking at Jayden how was comply sleeping snoring a little. He looked so cute! I snuggled closer to him, wanting to get warm and take a nap myself.

“There’s a lion in my bed” By The Silence Inside blared in the room. I jolted awake I didn’t even know I fell sleep. I looked at the clock and realized it was around 8:30. I tried to sit up but Jayden’s arm was around me and a very warm blanket was thrown carefully on us. How that song didn’t wake him up I had no idea! The song was loud and well screamo! I shook him awake “Jayden your phone is going off” I gently kissed him on my lips he opened his eyes and smiled, realizing his phone was going off, he flipped it open and placed it on his ear.

“Hello?” His voice was groggy from sleeping. “Oh okay…..yeah sure…. Be right there” He rolled his eyes. I frowned I knew he had to go home since tomorrow was a school day but I didn’t want him to go. “I have to go” He frowned. I frowned with him. He placed his finger under my chin and placed his lips on mine. “I’ll pick you up tomorrow?” He smiled. I nodded my head. He quickly pecked me on the lips before pushing me playfully off the couch and slipping on his shoes. He helped me off the ground and hugged me, “Bye, I’ll see you tomorrow. I love you” He gave me one last kiss before grabbing his keys and walking for the door.

“I love you too!” I yelled back before he closed the door. I laughed walking up to my room.  I wasn’t tried because of the nap I took with Jayden so I did one thing I never thought I would do before. “Hey Adria, Do you want to… help me with my outfit for tomorrow?” I asked. Her door was open and she was laying on her bed reading a magazine. She looked up and smile.

She hopped out of her bed and walked passed me. “Sure” She smiled. I smiled back walking behind her into my room. I plopped down on my bed as she searched my closet. Flipping through the clothes she suddenly let out an “EP!” “This is the cutest dress I have ever saw! Why have you never wore it before?” She asked. I shrugged my shoulders. Our mom bought me it because she thought it was cute. It was but I was never one to wear a dress.

“You are wearing this tomorrow I don’t care what you saw. This will definitely make Jayden drool!” I laughed. She walked around my room grabbing accessories. Telling me to hop up she laid the outfit on my bed showing me what it looked like. It was…CUTE! The black dress would go great with black and white low tops, a pink party necklace pink hoop ears(That were from her) and a white hair band to match the shoes. “We will do your hair perfect and you will look amazing”

“Thanks” I smiled. I don’t know what hit her that all the sudden she wants to be my friend but… I like the new Adria. She walked back into her room and closed the door probably going to sleep since finding an awesome outfit for tomorrow took awhile and it was around 10:00. I folded the dress and placed it on a chair and went to bed.

I woke up suddenly like someone was watching me sleep. My chest was falling up and down with every hard and short breathe I took in. I looked around the room making sure no one WAS watching me. I laughed a little to myself. I must have been having a bad dream. I laid back down rolling to my side, facing the wall, and closed my eyes. To my horror a hand clamped down on my mouth. I screamed but it was only a muffled scream. The unknown person rolled me over so I was facing the ceiling. I turned my head so I could see how was doing this to me but all I could see was a pair of green eyes. Eyes that were horribly familiar. I gasped Vince. Millions of questions rushed through my head. The one I couldn’t ignore was Is he going to kill me? Vince led a cold hand down my leg and up to my thy. I kicked to get his hand off of me. He squeezed my thy and dug his nails into it. A scream left my lips as he moved his hands up a little high.


“Scarlett are you awake?” I heard someone yell. I jolted out of bed flinging the blankets everywhere and looking at my legs. No nail marks, it was just a dream. I couldn’t help but to laugh. What a dream that was. I hopped out of bed realizing it was 7:00 Jayden would be here at 7:15. I had 15min. to get ready. I threw the dress on and slipped the shoes on. I added my own touch by adding an ankle bracelet. I smiled at myself this was so cute. Adria ran in realizing what time it was and helped me with my hair. She teased it up a little then put the white head band in the middle of my head.

“You look great” She smiled. I smiled back saying thank you when there was a honk Jayden was here. I ran down stairs grabbing my book bag and saying goodbye to my mom. I took a breath, smoothed out my dress and opened the door. Jayden smiled when he saw me but his jaw dropped when he realized what I was wearing. I hopped into his car steeling a kiss.

“Wow” He blurted out. “I mean you looked great last year but I’m really loving what your wearing this year” He laughed. I smiled. Thank you Adria.

He drove to school and today I realized, he made sure no one looked at me. I mean he walked behind me and any eyes that lingered towards me Jayden would do something to make sure people knew I was with him. It made me laugh really.

I wasn’t looking forward to homeroom today. Mrs. Appleton made those seats are permanent ones for the rest of the year. I felt my heart sink, sitting next to Vince every morning was putting a damper on my happy mornings. Jayden kissed me before walking off into his class. I took a deep breath and walked in taking my seat next to… him.

“Well, well, well, don’t you look beautiful” Vince leaned over his desk to look at my dress. I quickly looked away. What happened to Vince? He’s becoming Jordan only… worse! Jordan is more of an abuser, I’m really afraid Vince is going to rape me. A shiver crept up my spine. Vince wouldn’t do that. I hope. Maybe I shouldn’t wear dresses anymore.

When the bell finally rang I jumped out of my seat and dashed out of the room. I didn’t want to sit next to that…that…pig anymore! It’s only the second day of school and I already can’t wait till it’s over! But not for summer but so I can get away from Vince and… as if he heard me thinking about him Jordan turned around, looked me up and down, and smiled. I had no where to go. Vince had to be out of the classroom and Jordan was only a few kids ahead of me. Running passed Jordan, I ran into my classroom and took my seat next to my two best friends Rose and Chelsea. I smiled trying to mask the fact that I was horrified.

“Hey Scarlett” They smiled. I said hey back but I think they knew I was somewhere distant. I was just happy Jordan or Vince weren’t in many classes with me this year. The teacher came in and gave us a project. Everyone groaned two days into the class and we already had to do a project?

“Okay class I want you to get with a partner” He spoke all the friends high-fived each other. Mr. Gregory cleared his throat. “No friends that you know everything about already either” Everyone groaned again. “You have one minuet to find a partner go”

I didn’t get up if someone wanted to work with me they would come to me. “Hey do you want to be my partner?” A tall guy with black hair asked. I never saw him before he must be new.

“Sure” I smiled. He sat down where Chelsea usually sat.

“I’m Maxime” He smiled. “But you can call me Max” I looked at him kind of weird. “It’s French, my parents sent me here to learn your education. My plane stopped here so I stayed” I didn’t realize it before but he did have an accent.

“Okay I’m coming around say you and your partners name so I know who’s working with who” The teacher called out. He walked over to us. “Names?”
 
“Maxime and Scarlett” Max smiled. The teacher continued to the rest of the groups.

When he was done he walked back to the front of the class and said, “Okay a lot of you are wondering what it this project about. If you didn’t know this is the beginning of a new school year and a lot of people don’t know the new kids so you’re going to ask your partner some questions and get to know them. You may start now” He walked back to his chair and sat down. Everyone looked at each other funny. We had no idea how to start. Mr. Gregory groaned pulling himself away from him desk and handing out someone papers.

I looked down at the paper that had some questions on it. First name, Last name, Where were you born, What do you like to do and a lot of other questions lined the whole paper.

“Do you want to go first or shall I?” Maxime asked. His accent was strong but I understood fine.

“You could go first” I smiled. I personally wanted to know more about him other then his name. He nodded his head. “First question, What’s your First and Last Name?” I asked.

“Maxime Dubois” He smiled. I felt really stupid but I had no idea how to spell them. He laughed when I was trying to figure it out in my head. When he spelled it out to me it wasn’t as hard as it sounded. “You already told me where you were born” I laughed writing “France” on the paper. I looked around the room wondering if I had the coolest partner but there was no way I could tell if anyone else was from France. I asked him a few more questions and he asked me a few before the class ended.

The rest of the day was a breeze I only bumped into Jordan once but he’s not who I’m scared for… not anymore. Now I look around every corner for Vince but sadly as if he knows I’m thinking of his he’s always there. I wish Jayden was  in a few more of my classes I could walk with him and take my mind off of Vince.

“Hey babe do you want me to drive you home?” Jayden hugged my from behind while I was at my locker.

“It’s a nice day I think I’m going to walk home” I smiled. I really didn’t want to walk home right away, I kind of wanted to stop at the park and be a kid again. Playing on the swings. I smiled to myself.

“Are you sure? Do you want me to walk with you?” Jayden asked. I turned around looking at him funny. “What?” He asked.

“And leave your car here?” I laughed. Jayden told me there was only two things he loves most in the world. Me and yes you guessed it his car. Typical man. I laughed. “I’ll be fine. Stop over later?” I asked before giving him a good bye kiss and walking backwards to the front entrance to get his answer. He nodded his head yes smiling a cute smile and waving goodbye.

I turned around walking out of the school. It was a nice day. I warm September day was the best day to walk home from a long day of school. I turned around getting a weird feeling someone was watching me but I ignored it and kept walking. After a little I rounded the corner an the small park came into view. I smiled the building next to it used to be the elementary but now it’s closed.

I walked over to the swings sitting down. I swung a little until I realized my dress was coming up and a few people I recognized from my grade were playing basketball. I looked around seeing what I could do that wouldn’t let anyone look at my underwear. I saw the Mary-go-round. I figured if I push it slowly with my foot my dress wouldn’t come up. Laying down on the Mary-go-round I laid in the middle, pushing it with my foot. The sky circling around me looked cool. If I forgot I was laying on the Mary-go-round I might think the world was spinning.

When I got a good speed I picked my leg up and watched as the trees and clouds circled around me. I let my mind roam free if I needed to get anything out now would be the perfect time. Vince floated into my mind. He was so nice when I first met him, but then everything changed.

Suddenly I felt someone or something touch my leg. I sat up as fast as I could only to have my head connect with a bar that was hanging over head. I grabbed my head groaning. I wondered if I imagined something touching my leg. Maybe spinning for so long made my brain go crazy. But then it happened again I pulled my leg back fast. I tried to sit up but my head felt like it was 1,000LBS.

“What are you doing out here alone?” I heard the devilish smile in Vince’s voice. Trying once again to lift my head only to fail again. I kicked trying to figure out where he was but I failed miserably.

“Get away from me” A hint of tears rung in my voice. Trying once again to get up I felt my hands lock by my side. I knew I was done for. Vince is really going to do this to me? And I can’t do anything about it. Then I remembered the kids playing basketball. “Please someone help me!” I yelled. Vince let out a laugh. Just like in my dream Vince ran his hand up my leg. “Please!” I cried again. Did they leave? Can they not hear me? Millions of questions ran through my head. Why do I have such a bad life? I had to do something really, really bad to disserve this.

I walked home confused and hurt. Why didn’t anyone help me? Why didn’t anyone hear me pleading for help? I felt all my innocents rush out of my body. And Vince has it. I didn’t know if I should crawl under a rock or go tell someone. I didn’t understand what I ever did. I was always one to keep to myself. When my house finally came into view I noticed no one was there and I didn’t have my key.

I walked up to my porch crying. I’m alone, hurt, scared and confused. And no one was there to help me. I let out a laugh. A hurt laugh. My life just doesn’t get any better only worse. I didn’t remember what I did to Vince that I deserved this. Sure he got mad when he found out I was going out with Jordan but was he mad I started going out with Jayden? Suddenly I heard a car pull up into the drive way. I didn’t look up I didn’t have it in me to look up. I was weak I wondered if someone touched my if I would shatter into millions of little pieces on the ground.

“Scarlett?” I heard Jayden’s voice. I wanted to smile but I just couldn’t. Not after what just happened. “Scarlett what’s wrong?” Jayden sat next to me. When I didn’t reply Jayden put his finger under my chin and made me look at him. I knew I must have looked horrible my makeup was probably everywhere and I probably had a lump on my forehead. “Scarlett. What happened to you?” He yelled pulling me into his arms. I started to cry uncontrollably I felt so safe in Jayden’s arms any other day but his hugs just made my feel scared. I shouldn’t feel like this. I know Jayden would never hurt me like…like that. Jayden started rocking trying to calm me down. “Scarlett what happened?” He asked again.

“Vince” I chocked out. His blue eyes grew with rage. Even though what he just did I didn’t want Jayden getting into it. I didn’t want Jayden getting hurt again. Not by Vince.

“What did he do to you Scarlett?” He asked. Hurt rung in his voice. I closed my eyes crying more. I didn’t know if I could bare to say it. Then I remembered there was a spare key under the welcome mat. I got off of Jayden’s lap and found the spare key, opening the door Jayden fallowed me in. I walked up to my room wanting to look in the mirror to see what he did to me. “Scarlett talk to me” He said before I entered my room. I didn’t say anything only opened my door and laid down on my bed. Jayden laid behind me, I wrapped his arms around me. “Scarlett please tell me what he did to you” He whispered. I didn’t say anything closing my eyes. “Scarlett?” He asked. But it was to late I fell asleep way to fast.