"The drought was the very worst,
when the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst
It was months and months of back and forth,
You're still all over me
Like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore"
Stella Monroe, a radiant 18-year-old Ameri...
I looked at my dancers each with a knowing smile as Kathy put on my brand new black and gold embroidered dress jacket on top of my snake skin body suit. "Show them what you've got", she whispered making me snicker a bit as i walked over to the piano with a giant 'reputation' engraved on it in big bold letters.
I sat and stared into the audience. The stadium was so dark, so the only thing i could see were the flash lights of the fans' phones. I got a glimpse of all my friends, their families, austin's family, my family and some dancers' families as well. My jaw was on the floor of the stage, that's how shocked and grateful i was.
"Erm, hi everyone", i spoke, making the crowd erupt. I flinched a little and laughed looking at my dancers and then the audience. "Wow, you guys are really going for it!", i took the mic from the stand. "Well i hope you all are enjoying the show so far, um", i swallowed a lump on my throat, placing the mic on the stand.
"Exactly two years ago, today i, i was not playing a sold out stadium tour in Sunshine Coast, i was, i was in hiding in my home in London", i choked out trying not to cry, but my eyes were filled, and red.
"Well, one year ago, today, was when i finished, this album i, and i, i have no words um, oh my goodness, im trying so hard not to cry", i admitted, wiping a few tears, making Diane, another dancer run to the stage and hand me a box of tissues. "It's ok baby, take your time", she consoled. I nodded.
"Over the years, i've taught myself, that, that we live in a world, where anyone has the right to say absolutely anything about you, but, but please remember, you have every right to prove them wrong", i said, making the crowd cheer my name.
That one small move made me lose it. I dropped my head in my hands and kept on sobbing. Which only made it louder.
The standing ovation went for more than 10 minutes.
"February 12th, 2014, was when the Red Tour came to an end. That night, i felt things i never knew i could feel, and i wrote something - a song idea. But it feels as though, i resonate to it more now, than i would've 4 years ago. Im so much older now, i've gone through hell, and you guys, my team, my family, my friends, my fiancé and you guys, my fans, are what got me through it all...and now, now it feels, like im finally clean", i smirked, wiping my tears and placing my fingers on the piano, pressing each key to make the melody.
"The drought was the very worst, oh, oh...when the flowers that we'd grown together, died of thirst... it was months and months of back and forth, oh, oh, you're still all over me like a wine stained dress i can't wear anymore", the crowds were quiet, since they'd never heard this song.
"Hung my head as i lost the war and the sky turned black, like a perfect storm", i choked out.
"Rain came pouring down when i was drowning thats when i could finally breathe! and by morning, gone was any trace of you, i think i am finally clean!"
Cause i am.
I have my friends.
I have my family.
I have my fans.
...And my fiancé, austin butler.
I'm finally clean.
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